国庆倒数日

今天是国庆日倒数日。
你告诉我说， 你要回家乡。
那时候是晚上九点多。。。
所以， 我叫你小心驾驶。。。
你问， 如果你觉得眼睡， 可以打电话给我聊天吗？
我回你： OK。。 没问题。。

将近12 点时， 烟花开始不断的燃放~
由于担心你会太累而危险驾驶， 就给你一个信息。。。
也提醒你的小心驾驶。。
而你， 也没说什么。。。

一个小时后， 你打电话给我。
我以为你驾驶累了， 谁知你告诉我你在睡觉。
第一时间回答， 那么快可以回到家乡？
下一秒， 就马上问道你在哪里一个家哦？
你回我说你在KL 的家。。。

有一点失望， 因为你改变行程没有通知我， 害我担心的安全！
可是， 想想， 也没怎样啦。。
反正， 我和你又不是什么关系。。
哈哈。。。 还是自己敏感了些。。。

戒指

你喜欢戒指吗？

我喜欢。。。

那，你喜欢戴戒指吗？

我喜欢。。。

在我出来社会工作前，不管是不是单身， 我都喜欢戴戒指。

可是， 在我踏入社会后， 加上还是单身的我， 就不敢戴戒指了。。

可能因为年龄一年一年增加嘛。。。

加上， 大多数的人通常都会认为戴戒指的都名花有主或名草有主了。

若是如此， 那么， 我不就要终生孤独一人了咯？

55555。。。

我还不想有如此的结局， 所以， 我暂时都不带戒指了。。。

曾经是单身的你， 会不会有这种想法呢？

而， 现在的你又怎么想呢？

笨蛋-金莎

你应该听过笨蛋这首歌吧？
老实说， 我很喜欢这首歌， 尤其是加了对白。。。
我也在此， 留下一些留言。。。

莎： 很多时候， 我很怕受伤， 所以就选择先放弃。也有可能是我太爱自由， 所以明明渴望爱情， 却依然不知怎样让别人进入我的世界。
（曾经的伤害， 真的会让人害怕， 而不敢再踏入感情世界。。。）

杰： 难道， 我不能给你百分百的信心吗？ 你知道， 我一直有多在乎你。。。
(虽说， 你真的很在乎， 可是害怕的心情还是离不开。。。）

莎： 我很珍惜这种安全感， 却很担心它的期限。 所以每天的感觉， 还是孤独的。 我还是需要一个人给我想一想。
（你给的安全感， 我会好好珍惜， 可是却也害怕结束得快。。。）

冰箱结霜咖啡滚烫
煮不好最简单的早餐
我的生活是一团混乱
维持单身感觉茫然

喜不喜欢 习不习惯
我总是说不出个答案
一个人来又一个人往
怎么让他流连忘返

我不想当笨蛋
我在墙上写满渴望
我可以大哭一场
房间还是空空荡荡

我绝对不逞强
该属于我任其自然
可是我也要安全感
在某个适当程度的主张
纵然是了解 眼光也是温暖

杰： 这段日子， 你真的过得好吗？
莎： 没有你的早晨， 加了糖的咖啡也是苦的。
（日子还是一样的过， 只不过， 思念却不断的增加。。。）

杰： 当时， 我尊重你的要求， 所以我离开。 但这段日子你不开心， 所以我就回来了。
莎： 但是， 我连自己要什么都不知道。 我一个人悠悠荡荡， 自由久了， 也没有了目标。 梦已醒来，那些墙上， 已经不自觉的写满你的名字。
(因为你的离开， 我对你的思念已挤满了咖啡杯。。。）

杰： 担心是茫然， 恋爱也彷徨。 我明白， 所以， 我用时间去证明了这颗心不会因为你曾经的放弃而改变。
(谢谢你对我还是不离不弃。。。）

每个早上都想赖床
没有梦是最让人沮丧
我的眼睛盯着天花板
也跑不出任何对象

我不想当笨蛋
我在墙上写满渴望
我可以大哭一场
房间还是空空荡荡

我绝对不逞强
该属于我任其自然
可是我也要安全感
在某个适当程度的主张
纵然是了解 眼光也是温暖

莎： 难道我真的是个笨蛋， 一直都错过一直在我身边的幸福？
杰： 我们只是用时间找到了我们需要什么。 时间， 让我们认识了自己， 也肯定了对方。
莎： 因为你， 让我知道真正的幸福是什么。

国庆日

一年一度的国庆日又来临了。
你有什么感想吗？
对于我们的国家， 你有什么想发表的吗？

发表？ 我们是一个所谓的民主国家， 可是我们的人言举止都被限制。
你认同吗？

公平， 有出现在我们的国家吗？
虽说， 独立是因为三个不同种族的努力所争取回来的。 可是， 为什么会有kuota的出现呢？
若说公平， 那为什么马来同胞可以享有政府的协助呢？ 而， 印度同胞和华人同胞都得靠自己努力再努力才为自己争取到有立足的权力呢？

好吧。。。
我们不计较， 我们往好的方面想： 没有你们， 也显不出我们的优胜和骄傲。。。
这， 你又认同吗？

很多时候， 我们华人想对自己的国家说：
我的祖国， 我们爱你。 可是你却只爱一个种族， 你知道我们有多伤心吗？
我们的爱， 就好像单恋； 永远得不到国家的回应。。。

我们的声音， 你听到吗？
我们的努力， 你看到吗？
我们的声音， 不过是想唤醒不愿进步的人。。。
我们的努力， 不过是希望我们的国家进步。。。
为什么你都不认同呢？

压力

什么是压力呢？为什么人都会有压力呢？

压力不是一种想象出来的疾病而是身体"战备状态"的反应，这是当我们意识到某种情形，或者某个人，或者某件事情具有潜在的威胁性的时候做出的反应。当这种情况发生的时候，大脑分泌出包括肾上腺素等的激素。肾上腺素通过血管流淌到身体的各个部分。当这些荷尔蒙流到心脏、肺和肌肉的时候，一种特殊的生理反应就发生了

所以， 当你面对压力时， 你就会很容易觉得头痛， 胃痛， 肩膀酸痛， 无法入眠等等。。。

而这压力是来自于很多来源， 比如： 工作， 家人， 伴侣， 同事， 朋友等等。。。

我的压力， 是催使我进步的来源。。。

适量的压力， 只会让我满足我的工作能力。

怪吧？ 这就是我的方式。。

最近， 我收到一个信息， 觉得可以和你们分享：

* Stressed (压力） 和 dessert （甜点）， 有着很微妙的相关。

Stressed 倒写就是 desserts， 所以[stressed is just desserts if you can reverse]。

（压力就是甜点， 只要你能逆向观看。）

人生有许多压力， 挫折， 转个念， 换个角度看， 它也就是我们生命中的甜点。

有意思吧？

所以， 当你面对压力时， 就给自己来点甜点吧~

Busy Work

Recently, I was super busy....

You must be questioning, what am I work as. Ok... Make it simple, which I'm actually worked like one leg kick~ But, my main job is using SAP to control & monitoring all Malaysia projects.
Besides that, I need to help on site engineers on some admin job as well...

Every mid of the month, will be the busier time for me. Because I need to do invoices to bill customer, need to prepare all the supporting documents for our finance, I will have to attend few conference calls with my boss which is in Singapore. I need to advise boss all the on going projects status as well...

This month, I'm not only monitoring Malaysia projects; I need to monitor Indonesia projects well. Why I have to do that so? Indonesia office do not have coordinator? No. There did have a coordinator, but she not capable to do so until Asia service manager, which is my Singapore boss & also Indonesia Project Manager also fed-up on her.

Therefore, they come out an idea to get some help from me, where after some discussion. At first, I told them I need to consider first, because I'm worry I'm not able to handle 2 countries projects, especially there are a lot projects in Malaysia. But, after think & think, I planned to take the challenge. Because I want to learn more & faster in order slow & remain the same.

So, on the next day, I replied my bosses that I willing to take up the Indonesia job as well. My bosses are happy because all the projects in Indonesia are messed up. They need my helped to clear all the "shit", so that when new coordinator join, she can easily take up. Because of that, I become busy on both countries projects & also calls from bosses.

In additional, my contract almost full for one year. I been asked my boss regarding my contract. I know they will not stop my contract, but I just need to get a confirmation. But, the result still the same. He just told me that it's either extend my contract or convert me to the permanent staff. But, they still need to discuss with HR first. Then, my boss said the actual discussion will be in the mid of September, which might be after I coming back from Indonesia... Oh ya... I might going to Indonesia to train the new coordinator in the mid of September as well. Fine... Since then, I have to use this one month time to think wisely what I like to do & which I can improve. I know my bosses allow me to give any comments, but I still need to know more about the company & also my department instead of doing blind...

That's why I'm so busy recently...

信任

人与人之间， 信任很重要。
这，你认同吗？
我一直都是这么认为的。

可是， 有些人还是回不信任别人， 但还要叫那人帮他做事。
你懂吗？

我并不喜欢为这种人做事！
要是你的事那么重要， 那， 你自己不会做吗？为什么要叫别人帮你做呢？
要是你不信任我， 那么就别要我帮你啊！！

我不嫌弃别人不信任我， 如果他们没有要求我的帮忙。
若要求我的帮忙， 请务必信任我的能力， 别怀疑我！
不然的话， 我只会不爽的对你发飙！！

若是你的话， 你会怎么样？

Short Hair

I been having a long hair for some years...
I'm a bit boring with the hair already...
So, planning to cut it long time already~

Finally, I able to find a time to cut my hair last Saturday.
From the length of waist cut short until neck...
Wow...
Released~

The feeling to cut hair really good, especially from very long cut to very short.
For me, I always think that, keeping long hair just like keeping burden & pressure.
When cut it short, just like throw all the tension, burden out from our shoulders.
Feel so GOOD~

Light hair, windy hair, soft hair~
:)

Insomia

Yesterday, I was insomia again...
Do not know why...

May be in the morning I'd took a nescafe due to super sleepy...
While driving also felt sleepy...
Therefore, when reach office, I go to make a nescafe lo...
Then, at night, I slept slightly late than normal time I sleep.
But, when I fall on my bed, I still unable to fall asleep.

My brain was too actively thinking this, thinking that...
After laying on the bed for some times, slowly felt asleep, who knows...
The house phone was ringing loudly with "halau'ing" my 周公.
Shit!! I'm just falling asleep only le...

Ai... Took sometimes to make myself fall asleep again!!
Whole night, on & off waking up & sleep again...
Just like whole night never sleep!

Yawn~

随手一笔

春天快来了
花儿开得多美丽
鸟儿唱歌吃虫子

美丽的天气
加上美丽的假期
躲在家里多可惜

随手拨个电话给你
听到你说： mushi mushi
我笑了回你： 虫子

相约在外时
你特的穿得帅气
我特意穿得美丽

忘了季节不适
看到和路人的差异
换来路人眼神怪异

而结果的是
你笑我穿得可爱
我笑你穿得傻气

人生计划

你有计划过你的人生吗？
你想过你要过怎样的人生吗？

在几年前， 曾经去过不少的讲座会， 关于人生计划， 人生品质， 等等。。
明白人生应该要计划， 要要求。。
可， 多少个人又能做到呢？

我曾经也梦想过我的人生。。
也计划过我的人生， 可是都还没有真正实现。
这样， 是不是我的人生计划有问题呢？

工作快两年了， 薪水没有起到多少。
虽然买了一辆二手车， 但是还得供一段日子。
有时候， 可以去去便宜的地方旅行。。

但是， 还是觉得离人生的计划还很远呢！
我的计划必须要更改及进修。
因为， 我不希望我的人生计划就这样放弃掉。

你的计划实现了吗？
你如何实现这些计划的呢？

固执！

从小， 我就是一个固执的小孩。
凡是认为对的， 就会去做。
凡是决定的事， 就不会理会别人的反对。

就比如说， 我的家人并不赞同我去当什么学员团体会。
可是， 我为了兴趣， 为了好奇， 我就去考了个面试。
结果， 也成功的加入学会。

我的家人不喜欢我参与太多的活动， 可是， 我的观念却是要学习一些书本上学不到的知识。
结果， 每天在学校待好几个小时才回家。

我好不容易申请到一见离开家乡的大学， 可是我的家人因为不舍， 所以也不是很赞成。
我却一意孤行的， 坚持要到那里读书。
好不容易大学毕业了， 回到家乡找工作， 也不顾家人或亲戚的意见， 坚持选择一间小公司上班。
一年后， 也不管别人说什么， 因为不满意公司的所作所为， 就辞职了。

这些种种， 都只不过是我的固执。。
虽然如此， 我也因为这个固执， 我碰了很多壁。。
也让我学习在碰壁后， 要学会再次站起来。
这也算是一种好处吧。。 哈哈。。。

可，我也希望， 在年龄的增长， 我的固执不随之而减低。
因为， 碰壁久了， 也感觉到累了。。
呵呵~

Mad~!@#$%^

Early morning, make my mood change mad!

Before I doing it, I already asked help & advise from the expert: A. He advise me how to do it. So, I follow the instruction by him.

After a month, which is this month, this morning...

A asked me, why I doing this way?

Then, I replied: Remembered last time I asked you....

I really don't like this kind of people..

You teach & advise me doing in this way, since you are expert & of course I follow la...

Who knows.. after sometimes or when you found something wrong, you come to blame on me!

I don't like the feeling of people blaming especially that is not my fault!!

Luckily I did save the conversation with A & I refered back the conversation as he advise me that time. Even though he blaming me, but I remind him that I just follow whatever instruction that given by him.

Ai... after some times, the case solved. But my mood still gone!

Sien!!! Early morning spoilt my mood!

Represented Flower!

Since young, I like White Lily (Lilium longiflorum) very much, because it gives me a feeling of pure, chaste & dignified.
When I was checking on this flower from the website, I only noticed that this genus Lilium are herbaceous flowering plants normally growing from bulbs, comprising a genus of about 110 species in the lily family, Liliaceae.

Here are the photos of lilies:

Today, due to free & bored Sunday, I was browsing a forum. I simply go to any topic which attractive my attention. One of the topics is type of flower, which represent on your birthday.
From the article, the represented flower for my birthday isn’t lilies, but Rosemary. In Chinese, it called 迷迭香.

This is the description for this flower:
花語：想起我花占卜：您對人親切，友善，善於關心，安撫別人的情緒，是個很好的傾訴對象。不過，您不擅長表達自己的情感，亦不懂得用撒嬌、使性子等小手段來引起別人的注意，經常獨自神傷，若找到真正了解您的人，您的生活將充滿愉快。花箴言：您只想編織一個美麗的愛情夢。

Besides that, I went to google to find the details of this flower as well.
Rosemary is a woody, perennial herb with fragrant evergreen needle-like leaves. It is native to the Mediterranean region. It is a member of the mint family Lamiaceae, which also includes many other herbs. Forms range from upright to trailing; the upright forms can reach 1.5m tall, rarely 2m. The leaves are evergreen, 2-4cm long & 2-5 mm broad, green above & white below with dense short woolly hairs. The flowers are variable in color, being white, pink, purple or blue. The name rosemary has nothing to do with the rose or the name Mary, but derives from the Latin name rosmarinus, which literally means “dew of the sea”, though some think this too may be derived from an earlier name.

These are the photos for rosemary:

Even though rosemary is represented my birthday, but I still love white lily as usual... :p

知足吗？

你对你的人生知足吗？

很多人很喜欢怨天怨地的埋怨他们的生活有多苦， 他们的人生有多凄惨。。。
可是， 在某些人的眼里， 那不过是他们从来没有看过比他们更悲惨的人。
你认同吗？

我认同。。
为什么呢？

在我身边， 有着真正悲惨的人和满天埋怨的人：
1. 满天埋怨的人
他，有着健全的四肢。 他有着一流的口才和变数快的头脑。 可是， 他却喜欢赌博。 每赌一次， 就让他的人生面临痛苦多一点。 而他的痛苦并不是什么， 不过是他没办法还那一次又一次的赌债。
所以， 他就经常埋怨老天爷为什么不让他多赢一些钱， 又或者为什么老天爷总是不让他中字呢？ 为什么老天爷总是不帮他呢？ 为什么老天爷总是帮别人呢？
就因为这样， 他认为他的人生是痛苦的。。。

2. 真正悲惨的人
她， 有着健全的四肢。可是很不幸的，在20岁时， 发现脑里有肿瘤。 虽然是良性的， 但是这肿瘤却压着脑里的神经线， 所以， 必须动手术将它去处。她的家人无怨言的筹钱让她动手术。动完手术后， 以为一切都会变好的。。 谁知， 这肿瘤却是阴影不散一直在她脑里。目前， 她又动了另一个手术。 原本她的行动已不如从前： 眼睛看不清， 耳朵听不清， 走路不稳定等等。。现在， 还不能自然排泄赃物， 家人看到都心疼。如此的人生， 她都没有埋怨半语。。。

看到这儿， 你还会埋怨你的人生吗？
老实说，我没有埋怨过我的人生， 我的出生， 我的家庭。。
因为， 我看到比我凄惨多倍的人和家庭。
所以， 我知足了。 我满意我目前的生活， 满足目前的一切。。
所谓， 知足常乐~

感情

曾经写过那么一篇文章， 可是， 一直都没有方上来。。
现在， 总算是有时间让我放在我的部落格里了：

感情， 并不是你想怎样就怎样的。。
感情毕竟是两个人的事。。
你不能总是想自己~

我的世界里， 曾经有过你。。。
在离开有你的世界时， 我也删除我世界里的你。。

很多人一定很好奇，为什么要离开你的世界呢？

远距离的感情， 让我了解我必须更加坚强， 尤其是你不在的时候。。
感情的变质， 让我更了解你不再是我的对象~

远方的你， 无法忍耐寂寞的你。。
就有那么一个人为你解闷， 不管是谁， 再冷的心， 也应该会因此而溶化吧？
既然如此， 为何不放手呢？
为何不将你删除在我世界呢？

我不愿意继续成为彼此的包袱。。
我不过是想让自己依然精彩的生活着， 尤其是没有你的存在。

- Map -

Are you good in drawing map?

Are you good in reading map as well?

Well...

I think I'm quite good in guiding people to the right situation.

So, reading a map & also draw a map is not difficult for me..

Haha... "Tak Malu oh?"

Don't care la...

Give you some example, when you ask your friend for a new destination which you don't know, you will choose to draw the map or just write down left right, this & that?

I'm not to bluffing you here... If the friend is guide me at the place that I familiar to the destination, then most probably I will draw the map from the familiar place.

If I not clear about the place, then I will write the instruction first, then only draw the map.

Today, why I suddenly start on this topic?

Is like this... Early morning, my mom pass a paper with a hand drawing map to me.

The map was super great... Let me show you here:

How was it? Is it great?

I do not know where this Pasar located, & also do not know what petrol station is mentioning here...

Are you guiding people to the destination through this way as well?

Finally, I really give up on the map & called my sis..

I know she is a totally road blind... So, I didn't hope much on her...

At last, she passed the phone to her colleague & her colleague guide me from the phone.

& then I come out my own map:

Is it clear a bit? At least I know which market she is refering & which way I should used, etc...

From here, I think guiding people road & also be a human is almost the same lo...

If your map is not guiding people clearly, how you want to make other people understand you, how your customer know what you are selling, etc...

Swimming

Have I been told you that I'm phobia on water?
Of course not water for bath lo...
Is swimming pool or sea...

Alright...
I'm such a wasted people who don't know enjoy swimming...
Since young, I scared of swimming until now...
Few years back, been saying that I wanna learn swimming & overcomes the weakness.
Who knows... few years after, I still idiot on swimming... (FYI,I didn't go to the proper swimming center learn la..)

Today, a friend said he can teach me how to swim by free of charges.
Haha... the first thing that I replied him is: are you sure you wanna teach me? My mom they all tauch me almost until vomit blood le..
Don't worry... I been tauch a lot of people already. I'm confident (80%) you can swim after I teach you.

Wah... Amazing..
& he really make me surprise that he is so confident to teach me swim successfully...

By the way, he kept on persuading me.
I know he just want to teach me & save me from the phobia.
I am appreaciating, but I'm really not dare to confirm I'm able to do it.
Hahah.. so useless...
By forcing, I know he will pull me to the swimming pool for one day..

Actually I really wish I can swim in one day...
Coming soon, I having a trip at Seaside as well..
I wish I can try on the diving or any water activities..
If not, must be wasted for me lo...

恋爱？！

很久没有恋爱的感觉了。。
几乎忘了什么是恋爱了。。
什么是脸红心跳？
什么是甜蜜蜜的感觉？

为什么没有了恋爱的感觉呢？
是因为从前不愉快的感情吗？
是因为我的要求太高吗？
还是因为我不符合大家的要求呢？

都不是。。。
只是都认为还没有碰到想要交往的对象而已。。

曾经有一段时间， 的确不愿意接触任何感情的事。
凡是有人想接近时， 就会不知觉得往后退几步。
凡是有人想了解多一点时， 就会停止和那人联络。
凡是有人想表白时， 就马上逃之夭夭。。。

就这样， 我就过着这些单身的日子。。。
是可悲吗？ 也不然。。
单身的日子， 也不赖。。
自由自在的~

虽然我知道你想说我老了。。 是时候该安定下来了！
对！ 曾经一个老友问我： 几时才要安定下来呢？ 几时才要找另一半呢？
哈哈。。。 很熟悉的问题哦！
我的答案是： 认为合适时就会安定下来的， 但是应该不会那么快吧。。

气炸吧？！
朋友， 别担心。。
如果有适合的对象， 我会安定下来的。。
我一向都坚强的 ；）

A Secondary School Friend

Today, when I check my friendster..
I accidently saw my secondary school friend's photo...
In his friendster, he did put his msn id, therefore I immediately add him in my list.

I was so happy when I saw this friend.
Erm.. How to say le?? Actually we are not so closed in between of us, but we are closed with the friends which around us... (understand?? haha.. a bit confusing, right?)

Well... never mind...
Just know I'm happy...
Because he make me recall all the happy memories during secondary school..
We all are lost contact since after form 5, which means there are about 6 years never meet up & even a sms.

After an hour that I add him in my list, he online too..
The first question that he asked me was: Who are you?
Well... In order to make sure myself didn't make mistake, so I asked him: Are you XXX?
Haha.. surprisingly that I still remember his name... lolz..

"Yeah.. Who are you?" He asked again...
Yeah Bingo! "I'm XXX, do you still remember me?"
......
Erm... Never mind.. I'm just add you in my friendster. You may view my photos in my friendster.
OK OK.. you hold on for a while..
Ok.. Take your time..

Dig Dog Dig Dog.... (Time passed...)

Oh! I remember who are you already!
Ops... Finally you recall back.. Luckily.. If not, I will feel very pai ser.. :p
Sorry Sorry... Really can't recall the name. But still can remember your face.. Hehe...
Great.... How are you recently?
.......
.......
.......

We was talked for 2 hours in MSN....
I'm so great that able to meet old friends back in friendster..
I really wanna thanks a lot to Friendster!

Thanks for bringing me so many sweet, harmonies, happiess memories...
Happy Dayz~!

Blushing

Are you those people easily blushing?


From the time you know me, how do you think on me?
Most of you might think of I'm not la... So tomboy, so easy-going type, right?
But TODAY, I think I am...
Can't believe, right?


You know what? I think today I had been having a red red face for about 3 times...
Not because of the hot sun, or sick!


1st blushed:
I went out for lunch with a gang of Uni friends (all guys & only me special).
Since we all are quite close during Uni time, so we talked whatever topic that come out from our mind...
One of my friend is going for a business trip at China next week. Then, we all start teasing him on finding second "wife" (包二奶） at there. p/s: he haven't marry yet oh!
We even go into details, where to get this woman & how to make them happy... There are sensitive topics...
I think due to a bit hot at that restaraunt, & we are laughing on those conversation...
So, my face go blush...
Well... Sure these people noticed that & teasing me back lo...


2nd blushed:
We are having a farewell tea-break in pantry. Then, all the colleagues was gathered in the pantry..
Since my room just next beside to the pantry, so most of the time my colleagues will come to pay me a visit first, then only leave together.
Today, as usual...
They know I have a big monitor & my big monitor is on the best position...
So, they are curious how I located my monitor...
(Let you know la.. Actually got 2 reasons that I put on that position:

1. Blocking the sunsight which I mentioned on previous blog
2. Blocking my boss view from me

Hehehe...Naughty oh?


Ok.. Back to 2nd blushed...
One of the colleague try on my position & then she go to spread to the rest of her team that my position really blocking my boss's view..
Then, they all started to tease me... & my face also suddenly turn red in the fast speed..
This is the best evidence for them, I think...
Therefore, they continue the topic until my ear also turn red... So shame! :(


3rd blushed:
We are sitting close to the food in pantry... & my boss is taking the food as well...
Who knows, my naughty colleagues go to "kacau" my boss..
Asking him is he bully me until my face so red, this & that..etc...
Ops...
Really make me "pai ser" le... & my face become a tomato already!!

Now, are you still surprising that I will blushing?

Farewell Tea Break

Today, our company having a farewell tea break for a colleague who worked in this company for at least 10 years.

10 years... Is not short... Can said it's long...
We can change a lot in this 10 years time.
Well.. Today I'm not going to talk about how long can stay in a company la..

Back to the topic, Farewell Tea Break..
I'm not close with this colleague as we are not in the same department.
When we saw in the office, we just said hi or only nod our head to show greet to each others.
Due to my introverted character, I seldom start a conversation to people eventhough colleagues.
Weird? I think so...

Before the tea-break start, there are some speech given by the department head & also the colleague who going to leave tomorrow.
Got one phrase I'm quite agreed but I'm still learning on it:

* Communication is very important. Sending email is one of the communication, but face to face communication is the most essential one.*

Do you agree? Sometimes I saw my other colleagues, they are well in communicate with the others eventhough they are just new in the company. So envy on them.. Because they able to do that...

Well... I have to work hard to make myself improve in everything, not only career, but my network as well....

Patience?!

Recently was keep on thinking a question....
How can a person work in the same company for few years?
What make them stay for that long periods?

Is it they are patience enough?
Is it they are those calm person?
Is it they didn't care much for the rest?

Well... For me, I think this is the challenging part for me..
I was graduated for 2 years & I been worked in 2 difference companies already.
I come out from the first company is because I felt that there is nothing for me to learn from there already.
Besides, I'm also don't like the management style in that company too...

Now... I'm working in a such big company...
But, I still not happy with it..
I'm thinking of, am I too choosy & expectation is too high?

Erm... I also don't know.
I just know that I don't like to clear people shit!
All the mess & shit passed to me, then they all relax over there!
I don't mind to be "One Leg Kick", but I'm mind I have to work on other people job which that is their own responsibility!

Today, I was whole day listening on buddha songs.
Just wanna to calm down my temper.

Be frankly, I like the job here.
But, I don't like to work with those irresponsible people...
You know? It's really hard for me to work with this people...
I do not know how long I can stand in this company. It really like challenging my patience here...

Tell me how to make my patient become strong?
Teach me how to work with these people...

Baking Cakes

As I know, a lot of people like eat cakes. But it doesn't means they like to bake cakes too…
For myself, I like to eat cakes too... But I also like to bake cakes for my family & myself.

I was planned to bake a cake for sometimes, but due to busy day, so hardly for me to bake one for sometime.

Yesterday, I achieve my planned finally.
I was baking 2 difference types of cakes in a night:

1. French Lemon Cake
2. Raisin Cake

Baking cake is not difficult anyway, but the important is the timing & ingredients has to be applied correctly…

You may ask, how were my cakes yesterday, right?
Erm... A bit sad… Why?

I baked French Lemon cake first. Everything was fine & correctly applied…
Who knows I see wrong one step at last. My baking oven is using Fahrenheit, but my recipe is using Celsius.
I was notice that after I put my cake into the baking oven for sometimes…
So, the temperature makes my cake failure due to over baked :(

For the second cake: Raisin cake…
This was super easy to make.
But, I personally felt that this cake is too sweet even though I been reduced some sugar already.

Eventhough it was sweet for me, my family still finished up within few minutes.
Haha…
Quite satisfied with it la…
Need to ganbate for next time already…

p/s: will post up the photo of my cakes for you once I copied the photos from my camera…

幸福

幸福， 到底是什么呢？

是无形的， 是无味的， 是抓不到的。。
那么， 我们要怎么知道那就是幸福呢？
我们又怎么才得到幸福呢？

突然， 有个声音告诉我：
幸福， 是要用心去感觉的。
幸福， 是有味道的， 犹如我们的舌头； 不同的是， 心情也影响了这味道。
幸福， 是无时无刻的在我们的身边的。

是吗？ 幸福真的都在我们身边吗？
为什么我都认为我的幸福不在了呢？
是因为我从来没有珍惜过吗？
是因为我放弃保护我的幸福而让它流逝了吗？

你感觉不到幸福， 是因为你太幸福了。
你每天过着无忧的生活， 每天顺利的完成工作， 每天的心情都美好， 等等。。
如此的生活， 你怎么感觉到幸福的滋味呢？
你应该多接触其它的人， 如老人院， 孤儿院。。
你就会体会， 什么是幸福， 幸福的存在等等。。

是的。。 你说的对， 我的确太幸福了。。
我的幸福来自很多地方： 谈得来的家人， 顺利的工作， 不逊的友谊， 中立于同事间， 等等。。
这么多的鼓励， 我应该学会如何知足， 那么我才会真正感觉到幸福的存在。

可，这声音是谁呢？
原来， 是幸福在和我说话。。。 呵呵~

形状

曾经有朋友问我： 你喜欢什么形状？
很突然的问题， 可是， 我的回答也很自然， 很简单， 犹如不假思索的从我嘴里冒出来： 星星。

“为什么呢？”
哈哈。。 又是一个很好的问题。
老实说， 我并不知道为什么， 可，我就是喜欢星星。

我总是喜欢在夜里， 特别是海边的夜空抬头仰望那乌漆漆的黑色帆布。。
然后看着那一闪一闪的小灯光。。
感觉是神秘的， 也是渺小的。。
也好像只有星星才了解我的心事。。。
就这样静静的看着星星， 我的心事就好像自然化解了。

除了天上的星星， 我也很喜欢海星。
虽然这个星星是碰得到， 但它也好像明白我的心。。
静静的听我在心里哭诉。。

很奇怪吧？
凡是要我选择， 只要有星星的形状， 我都会选择它。。