礼义

发现现在的人越来越不懂礼义了。
可能社会的改变，人的思想和心态也随之而改变了。
所以都忘了这一切的重要性，也忘了饮水思源这个道理。

虽然我也不是很懂得正式的礼仪和规矩，但至少我还懂得尊重任何的场合。
这种尊重不需要岁月的洗礼，不需要社会的变化，也应该保存在每个人的心里的。
可是，我觉得可悲的是，很多读多年书的人，就连这种基本的尊重不懂了。

真是令人反感。。。

晚上，网上

夜深了，我还挂在网上，听着朋友给我的歌。
想起前天在公司时的情景。

一样的对着电脑工作，听着MP3，他录给我的歌曲。
里面的都是80/90年代的经典好歌。
可能感触，可能歌词的意思，让我几度雾水朦了眼睛。
没忘了自己还在工作，一再的将那雾水压回眼底。

一直以为自己的面具带的很好。
可是，今天却一一被好友拆穿。
让我一直掩饰好的委屈和感受，像爆开的水喉一样狂流。
因为我不喜欢给别人带来麻烦，所以将一切收起，自己独自熬，独自苦。
好友察觉我的不对，担心的致电来关心我。

老实说，很感谢他。
因为他在我失落的时候，给了我一把声音和安慰。
让我知道，不管发生什么事，我还有这个好友在背后撑着我，不让我独自承受。
谢谢你，好友。。

Merry Xmas

Today is 24th of December 2008. Tomorrow is well known Christmas day :) So, how you celebrate this wonderful day? Hang out with friends, exchange christmas gift with friends? Clubbing with friends? Dating with love one? Or stay home alone?

Me... I will go to a friend's house with a gang of hiking friends :D Since be alone, so just hang out with them.. better than staying home bored.

Anyway, wish you all merry christmas & have a wonderful day ^^

MeRry XmASss...

新外貌

是的，我说的新外貌就是我的部落格咯。。
因为，我想换个心情来写，所以也换个新面孔来拜见你们咯。。
不知道你们喜欢这个新面孔吗？

这个颜色，让我想起环保 :)
现在，我们应该都为我们惟有的地球努力，一起来环保咯。
这是我们应有的责任，我们不应该再破坏大自然了。
也不应该再为自己找任何的借口！

哈哈。。 好像严肃了点 ^^
还不知道这样的心情可以维持多久，但是，还是希望这是一个好的开始。
为自己加油加油！！ 耶耶！！

我的外婆

我和我外婆的感情，其实不是很深。在我的印象中，我们很少沟通。可能，当时的我年纪还小，也不怎么会和长辈沟通吧。也可能，我们住得远，也很少会去探望她的关系吧。。然后，在我慢慢成长后，我的外婆就开始有老人失忆症和无法正常说话，所以我们更加少沟通。

在我的外公往生后，我的阿姨就接我外婆一起住在雪兰莪。所以，在近几年里，我们就比较常去看望她。虽然如此，她还是没办法和我们正常沟通。我们只是叫叫她，问她吃饱了吗，最近好吗。。等等问题而已，然后我们就和其他的舅舅阿姨聊天。

去年，我外婆的脚不知道被什么咬到脚腕，一直很痒，也没办法复原。由于疏忽照理，带她去医院检查时，已经导致细菌感染了。加上，她的年龄于80多岁，身体的体抗力又不好，所以，一直恶化下去。开始时，只是红红和痒而已。过后，细菌开始吃进肉里，也慢慢的有个五角钱大的洞了。慢慢的，就看到骨头了。

事情的严重，阿姨们带她看过不少医生，也经常带她去清理脚的伤口，可是，却一直没好转。直到去年年头，医生建议把她的那条腿给锯了。当时，我外婆的意识迷糊，所以决定权就落在孩子身上。而孩子们不希望自己的妈妈受苦，所以决定动手术。以为手术后，一切会还原， 结果另一个噩梦在开刀后的4/5个月又开始了。

我外婆的另一只腿也发生了同样的遭遇。这次，她的意识清醒，而她的决定是不要开刀。因为她要她的腿，她已经失去一只腿了，她不想再失去另一只。。。所以，大家都决定尊敬她。而她不动手术，却很难生存久，因为细菌的感染，会导致一种毒素，而这毒素一旦攻致心脏，就是死期了。为了她的一条腿，她决定接受这种煎熬。看到如此，我真的很为我外婆心痛。

从她遭遇细菌到另一条腿到现在，她已经辛苦了大概半年多。今天，她终于承受不住，往生了。虽然伤心，但是，我觉得对她来说是一种解脱。外婆，我为你哀悼。。。希望你安息，来生不用受苦。。。

我觉得，我的外婆真的是很坚强。当她的腿被锯掉后，同一病房的病人，大多数都是咿咿呀呀的叫痛。唯有我外婆没有哼一声痛，也没有流过一滴泪。后来，另一只腿也遭殃时，我们知道她很痛，可是她也没有在我们面前叫过痛。真的很佩服。。。如果是我，我想我已经自尽了。。。

Kuala Selangor 之旅

这次，我是去Kuala Selangor （嗯，我不知道华语叫什么哦 :p）

一早，当然是在巴生吃肉骨茶咯。第一次吃干的肉骨茶哦。。。
嗯。。我想我还是比较喜欢吃汤的肉骨茶。可能我喜欢喝汤，所以，吃不惯干的肉骨茶。
除此之外，当然是吃巴生出名的包咯。。
我喜欢吃那个咖喱包哦。

住巴生的你，当然知道咯。。但是，不是住巴生的，可能就不知道咯。。
咖喱包里面是藏着一个装满咖喱鸡的锡碗。把包隔开，你就会闻到那美味的咖喱味。
然后，在将包撕成小块，再粘上咖喱。。嗯。。真是太美味了 ^^

吃完丰盛的早餐后，我们就去朋友的一间butik店参观，因为新开张嘛，多少也要给给面子咯。
接着，我们就出发去果园。

这个果园有两个公顷之大。这里的原主叫Uncle Chong Lai。

他为我们介绍他的禽畜和果类。
首先，是孔雀。但是，我们却看不到它开尾巴:(
然后，就是鸡，鸭，火鸡，等等的。。
至于果类就真的很多， 如：香蕉，椰子，冬瓜，黄梨，荔枝，龙眼，红毛丹，等等。。
当然，最多的就是火龙果咯。。 那里至少有500棵火龙果呢。。

Uncle Chong Lai 还告诉我们说，红色的火龙果最少都有50种种类呢。。
这是让我见识不少哦 ^^
最后，我也见识了Uncle Chong Lai 养的羊儿哦。。
呵呵。。第一次这么近接触羊儿哦。。好开心耶 :D
接着，我们就去附近的茶室吃那里出名的包和芋头糕。

嗯。。但是我还是比较喜欢吃巴生那里的包哦。。

吃了这么多，我们又去走走咯。。

这次，我们去的地方叫Kuala Selangor Natural Park。
这个地方我放在另一个题目里。这样你们就比较不会眼花缭乱 ;)

过后，我们又去吃咯。下午四点多吃晚餐咯。。哈哈。。。
至于这个晚餐，老实说，我认为不是很好吃啦。
可能，一整天下来太累了，所以没什么感官了吧。。哈哈。。

就这样，美丽的星期天就这样结束咯。。

舞蹈

离开舞蹈班已经半年了。
真的很想念哦。。
因为，我真的喜欢跳舞。

虽然，我已不如他人的柔软，敏捷。。。
但是，我就是喜欢那种感觉。
不管是拉丁舞还是国标舞，还是Salsa。
我都一律喜欢 :)

很想回去舞蹈班，可是，有太多的障碍了。
让我暂时还没办法回去。
我的负担，也让我承受不起那学费。

唉。。。

Blogging again

Haiz...
So boring. Not because of nothing to do, but don't know how to do.

Been assigned on a case. Try on it & been guide by the leader/mentor.
But, doing until half way, been stuck again. Need to wait my mentor come back from meeting only can continue.. Haiz...

So, damn boring now :(

What's the topic can be write here le?
Erm.... ok.. View from my new office...

My new office is located at 9th floor. Not really high, but at least still can see the scenery outside la. Now I'm sitting nearby the window. Right beside my seat is KLCC towers & HLA building already. It remind me that I been working in KLCC Towers for 2 years.. Hahhaa.. recall again @_@

If possible, I upload my new office photos when I got time later. Let you guys see how nice is here. Got sofa, got massage chair, got nice pantry, etc :D just I haven't adapt to it yet. Haiz...

Adapting on the job

Been working in new company about 2 weeks.
If you ask me, am I adapting into the job & culture here already?

Well, frankly speaking, I'm not...
Talk about the culture first...

Culture here is good, people here are friendly as compare I started joined in GE last time. But, I do miss my lovely colleagues in GE. I miss the day we always had breakfast in the pantry. I miss the day we always go out for lunch or tapao. I miss the day we had tea time for sometimes. I miss the day we had events together. I miss the day I busy in GE. I miss the job that I did in GE..
Hahhaa.. so much things I miss...

Regarding job...
When interview, I been informed that this job is more related to Finance. But when I worked on it these few days, I unable to link this with finance at all. But more related to IT products, eg: Server, hard disk, etc... Which I'm super blindless on those IT stuffs. Only the products, already make me blur & hardly to understand... I believe if you ask me finance stuff, I can answer you easily. But, if you ask me IT stuff, I really want to say I'm useless... Haiz...

I think because of this, so I miss my ex-colleagues so so much....

拍照

你喜欢拍照还是喜欢被拍呢？
我本人，比较喜欢拍照。但也喜欢做模特儿啦 :)
想要一架相机很久了，以前那架因为一些缘故，坏了。。
现在，如果要拍照，只有那手机党相机咯。

今天，公司通知我们，将会在一月的时候，让我们有个机会学习如何拍到好照片。
当然，位子是有限哦，加上是要付费的。
两天的课，收价只是一百元而已，我觉得，值得！
所以，我报名了。

报名的条件是要有一加速码相机咯。如果有自己的电脑和Photoshop，那么更好。
因为，将会教我们如何将不该看到的弱点藏起来。
哈哈哈。。 想到就开心。
可是，我没有相机。
怎么办呢？

唉。。。希望到时候有本事自己买一架，或者有朋友愿意借给我用用咯。。
期待期待。。。

Cameron Trip

Last Saturday, I went to Cameron with my ex-colleagues. We'd been planned this trip since September by 5 of us.

May be the date that we choose is too long, so everyone was feel that the time passing so slow. Also, there are so many things happened before we go for this trip. Few times, I really feel sad & disappointed when been informed that can't join, or need to work...

Finally the day is come & the number of people going was only 4, instead of 5. Well, we were angry, were disappointed, but we all still continue our trip.. & with no regret, we are enjoy the trip very much :D

The weather was so good, eventhough there is a bit raining. & it's cold.. Really nice & memorable trip.

We reached Cameron around 1pm. Due to super hungry, so we decided to take fast food - KFC. After that, we went to check-in at Tanah Rata. Then, rest a while & go out walk walk at few places.

Oh ya, recommend you go to a place: Time Tunnel... What is this Time Tunnel? Heheh.. This is the place where kept all those old old stuffs, eg: Kindergarden book (80's), games (80's), old type telephones, pessi cola bottle type, tables (70's), chairs (70's or 80's), paper dress for paper dolls, etc... It's really a place where kept all old stuff & our memory. It really bring us back to our young age :D I like it very much :D

Night time, we went to had Steamboat. Erm.. Not so nice, but still ok. Then, we went to had ice-cream. Hehehe.. This is nice oh. I had 2 scopes of ice-cream (strawberry + rum dry grape). Delicious~

After that, we back to apartment rest & start our own game: Mahjong with red wines.. kekke... About 12am, I can't tahan already. So, go to sleep :D

Next morning, we woke up early. We went to teh boh plantation. Initially, we wanted to see clown sea one, but unfortunately the sun shy, don't want to show face, so we can't see anything. But, we saw the nice scene before the crowd oh :D

Then, we went to have scone (English breakfast). The place is relax & cooling. Really wish to read book with a cup tea, with the nice weather.. wow.. really relax & enjoy :)

Anyway, I really enjoy the whole trip. Buddies, thanks to make this trip fun & hope you all enjoy the trip as well..

New Job

I start working in new company for a week already. In this first week, I was only attended for training, regarding the organization, team & job scope.

For the organization, I'd been read through some from the internet, plus some of the basic knowledge on the ethical, integrity issue, etc.. I think all these are about the same in most of the MNC (multinational company).... because the contents almost the same.

For the teams, the trainer told me how these teams work together & what's the team play a difference roles.. All these are important when work along :) I like this part, because I like to know the entire process for the organization. So that we easily to work together & as a big team :D

Lastly, is related to the job scope with the trained on using the program & tools. This is the most confusing & challenge part. Because I've no experience at all by using those software. That is not only 1 software, but at least 5 of it... In 2 days, I've to learn all these up & do my work after these 2 weeks training..

In this coming week, that is another training for me, which is about the product knowledge. Frankly speaking, I'm totally blindless on those products.. Don't know I'm able to handle those product after the training or not.. Bit worry worry...

Anyhow, I will try my best.. Because my boss is expecting something high on me. I don't wish to disappointed her.

失业+开工的感受

失业两个月的感受，真的是不好受哦。。。
每天都要担心又要花多少钱？
每一天都在算，几时才有公司邀请我。
每天都在想，经济不要那么差，好吗？
每天都在希望，时间不要过得那么快。。。

这种种的担心，并没有减少，直到我得到工作。
这种焦虑，没有尝试过的人，没有金钱负担的人是体会不到的。

终于，我找到工作了。
终于有公司愿意请我了。。
终于，我就要开工了。。
我真得很期待明天的到来。
很期待新的工作，新的环境。

希望一切都顺利。。

社会病态

今天，有人问我，钱真的有那么重要吗？

我相信，这个问题问任何人，任何人都会说是的，钱真的很重要。
尤其是现在这种经济危机的时候。

以前的人，只为了找两餐，不饿死自己或家人才去工作。
现代的社会，所有的人都为了钱而生活。
不管平穷或富有，年少或年老，都还在为钱而打拚。

这是一种病态。。。
人们都视钱如命，忘了自己的家人，忘了身边的亲朋好友，忘了自己的兴趣，忘了自己是谁。。。
这种病态的严重性，可以导致人们变得自私，自我，贪心，等等。。。
可是，有多少人清醒呢？有多少人了解呢？

以前，如果你问我，可能我会说，还好啦，够用就好。
可是，试过失业的我，我知道没有收入的难受和痛苦，所以，我会说钱真的很重要。
固然，我还是清楚的知道，钱不是万能的。
因为，我知道钱还是买不到很多东西的。
只是，人类有太多负担，太多要求了，所以总是不能知足。

你，也是其一病态者吗？

人间有爱

Last few day, went for a talk, organized by Tzu Chi.
From there, heard a nice song. So, I recommend to you here. When you not in a good mood, let's look at the lyric & listen to the songs:

人间有爱
（脆弱的心 因为有爱才坚强
彷徨中的期待 因为有爱而值得信赖
人间有爱 不再孤单 封闭的心已然打开）

感谢你 给了我 温暖的拥抱
让我摆渡过 生命低潮
一颗心 装满爱 风再大不飘摇
学会把肩膀 借别人依靠

用真心 给了你 了解的微笑
陪着你解开 心事困扰
看着你 抬起头 泪停了 那一秒
感动在胸口围绕

我相信人间有爱值得去期待
长久封闭的心终究会打开
体谅会化解伤害 关怀会化解疑猜
最动人的爱 是信赖

Enjoy~

I'm Back!

First, I would like to apologize to all my readers.. Sorry for not updating my blog for a long time.

Recently many things happened in my life. Good & bad (Majority are bad things...) So, make me have a suck & difficult time during this period. Unfortunately, these bad things still yet to leave me alone. I still have to suffer for sometimes.

You must be curious, what kind of things has been happening to me, right? Well... Let me think how I gonna to tell out to you guys.

Firstly, my family. Something happened (this keep for myself), so I have to work hard to get us to stand independently. Therefore, family relationship & financial is another issue for me..

Secondly, my work. Those bosses’ were giving me verbally promises since June 2008 until now. Nothing has done & no update for me even I take the initiative to ask them. Getting frustrated & fed up on their arrangement. Now, still I haven't get anything from them yet, but I've set up my mind on find a new job. Before I got a new one, still I have to work like hell in this company. (One person handling three persons' job. Crazy!)Really make me demotivated!

Thirdly, my love. END :( (I don't want to tell out here la, coz it might make me cry :<

Fourth, my health. Something happened. But, I think I will get better.

Fifth, colleagues' relationship. Due to some people & some political issue, the team becomes worst & cold! Can't feel the teamwork & warmest feeling already.

Sixth, no more already la.. If still got, then I think I really in a terrible situation. Now, at least I still got friends to support me & make me stand strong, so that I will not fall easily.

Thanks a lot, my dear friends

Worth or not?

Same questions still surrounding on my mind.
Which is whether is it worth still working in this company?
I know there is pros & cons on the job, that's the main things that I need to consider.

Whether I want to continue working in admin line or back to my banking & finance line? After explore myself in other line for 3 years time, I did learnt something which others might not try before. But, after this 3 years, am I still want to float on difference line?

Currently, I'm waiting the offer letter from my current company. With the job description & salary given, I need to think wise, is it worth for me if I continue to work here? I also need to think about it, what is my future career can be move on after few years? Is it wasted if I work in admin line from a banking & finance background? If I want to turn back to banking & finance line, is it too late? Is it means I need to restart my career path from zero again? Am I willing to stay forever in the banking line?

If I stay, I know I will lose my personal time. I have to sacrify my own time to do more things with not much salary. I have to work harder than others only can achieve my target. But, I also need to let go my dream.

If I go to my own line, I can work on time 8.30am - 5.30pm. After that time, I can do whatever I want. I will have my own time more, I can continue my own dream. But, it might be boring by doing the same things. I will feel no challenging in my entire life.

All these questions are flying into my mind since June until now. But I still haven't come out any idea. I need more comment and advise. Who can give me more comment? What should I do?

Aiks...

生病了

虽然颈和肩膀还没有好，我还是来上班了。
因为，我的第六感告诉我，我的大姐大一定还是在拿病假的。
如果，我在拿病假，星期一一定会很惨。
所以，决定来公司看看。。

来到公司，果然一盒一盒的东西都摆在我桌上，还有一些文件。
慢条斯理的整理了一下，然后就打开我公司的手提电脑。
谁知，有些问题而无法进入server做东西。
留个信息给他（因为不想吵醒他），希望他可以给我一些意见。
结果，等了15分钟，还是没有回音。心想，应该是还在睡觉吧。。
不耐烦的，尝试re-start我的电脑，希望这样有效。
果然，这真的有效。不过是我的密码过期了，只要换新的就可以照常使用了。。

直到下午，和朋友吃个午餐后，回公司。。
我就发觉自己有点不对路了。
感觉头重重的，有点模糊，喉咙也很痛。。更不用说原来的痛变得更痛了！
才猜想，我应该是在发烧了。

整个人累累的，全身酸痛的感觉。。
无法专心工作。。
我要回家休息了。。

颈和肩膀痛

昨晚，不知怎么的，半夜三点多突然醒来。
醒来后，却发现我的右边的颈和肩膀很痛。
我以为只是一时压着，过一会儿会没事的。
谁知，一痛就痛了几个小时，直到闹钟响起。。

原本，我还以为不怎么样啦，我还是可以照常上班的。
可是，当我出门驾车来公司时，我觉得很辛苦。
因为，我连转头去旁边都觉得痛。
就连我想提起我的右手，都有问题。

最后，终于觉得不行了。
所以就给我老板一个信息，告诉他我要拿半天假。
然后，清理掉手上的工作，大概12点多回去。。

好痛哦！！
我的同事们还拿我来开玩笑，真可怜哦:(

珍贵的东西

珍贵的东西？我开始忘了我珍贵的东西是什么了。
所以，我需要时间寻找我珍贵的东西。
当找到后，我却需要更多的时间来打开这份礼物。
当礼物被打开后，才发现，原来我浪费了这么多时间在这么不起眼的东西。
当再次失去后，才真正发现，它是多么重要的。

我们往往都不会珍惜身边的东西
当一次又一次的机会溜走时，才后悔当初的不珍惜。。。
可是，往往都太迟了~

天空

我的天空是什么颜色的呢？
我看到别人的天空是彩色的。。
我羡慕着他们，如何将天空染色。

我的天空，总是灰蓝色的。。
为什么呢？
是因为我的心情总是灰灰的吗？
我要如何将天空变色彩呢？

你的天空又是什么颜色的呢？
如果你的天空是彩色，可以教我如何让它变色彩吗？
如果你的天空不是彩色，你会像让它变色彩吗？
你会如何做呢？

大事小事

小事变大事，大事变小事。。

小事为帮妈妈买日常用品

大事为交年度报告给大老板

如果将这两件事调转。。

会有什么事发生呢？

我想，老板将会辞掉我的职位

过后，我连买日常用品也成问题了。。

这应该也算有趣吧~

等

很多时候，我们都在等。。
究竟，我们在等什么呢？
等时间到来吗？
等缘份到来吗？
等死亡到来吗？

心烦

当你心烦的时候，你会做什么呢？
当我心烦的时候，我会不做任何东西。。
我会选择睡觉，看戏，玩游戏等等。。。
只要可以让我的脑不想东西，可是却忙碌着，那就很好了。。

做个梦？我也希望我能。。
可是，我并不是一个容易做梦的人。
所以，如果你能做梦，那就做个梦，轻松一下吧。。。

洗澡

如果洗澡真的可以让我洗掉烦恼，那么我一天里就会洗几次了。
每当有什么事情发生，我就一定会往冲凉房走去。
在里头，不断的刷呀刷的，直到烦恼完全被洗尽为止。。。

可是，我知道洗澡并不能将我的烦恼洗掉。
它不过让我暂时离开繁忙的城市，留个狭小的私人空间让我的泪和水结合在一起而已。
当从新走出那间冲凉房，我就应该以笑迎人。。

烦人的事情

很烦很烦~
最近很多事情发生。。。
烦人的事情不曾减少过。

面对家人，减少了原有的沟通，也减少了不该有的摩擦
面对工作，只有不断的增加，肩膀的压力只有不断的加重
面对朋友，只有不止的没空，也冲淡了我们的友谊
面对感情，减少了见面，也减少了甜蜜的接触

该如何改变这种烦人的事情呢？
该如何改进这些问题的发生呢？
他们的不明白，我又该如何解释呢？
我的累，我的忙碌，我的烦恼，又有谁愿意为我分担呢？

超累的一天

今天是全公司的员工最早到的一天。
为什么呢？
因为，我们公司的Regional Sales Leader到我们公司。
我们被通知要在早上八点前抵达，然后和老板们吃早餐，吃完早餐就开始会议。

会议从八点半开始到九点半。然后回到我的工作位置一会儿，就被通知要下去了。
因为我们将会坐巴士去Subang 的分公司见Vice CEO和会议见面。
这个会议从10点延续到三点多才回到公司。

一下车，我的老板就马上抓着我，和我谈一些事情。
这个讨论不是很长，因为我们还有另一个会议等着我们。
急急忙忙的赶回公司，另一个老板又抓着我，要和我谈事情。
所以我又进他的房间和他谈了大概半个多小时。
谈完后，又赶紧进去会议室，继续听我们部门的会议。
这个会议很长，谈了一堆垃圾，我不大能接受。。。
可是，还是的待在里面，真可怜。。。
终于，下午五点半，终于会议结束。
但是却要陪老板们吃晚餐。

而现在，我还在公司读我今天的email，和做一些工作。

这真的是超忙的一天。
累累~

Free Lunch

These few days I having free lunch with nice food.
How nice is it, right?
Yeah... It's really nice, just like have to entertain/social with people.

The first free lunch was yesterday at Renaissance Hotel.
The reason to have this free lunch is because my department sales having a 3 days seminar & we has booked the seat of 30 pax. For the first day, normally are full. But after the day, the number of pax will getting lesser. So, on the last day, which is yesterday, it's only 25 pax including our instructors. Therefore, my sales person called me up to have lunch over there.

Then, second lunch, which is today.
This is just because of coincident. It's actually 4 admin of my company are invited to have lunch with KLCC tenants. But, one of the admin suddenly has something go on, so she get me to replace her. Therefore, later I will go to Traders Hotel for a free lunch too...

Well.. How about tomorrow? What lunch is that?
Yeah.. This round is because of the new GM take over the place. So, he is inviting all of us to have a lunch & meet up. This lunch is at Chakri (Thai food), KLCC.

So, in these days, I have save in my pocket, & put it into my petrol..
hehhe...

起价！

今天听新闻说道，政府将会在下个星期一商谈屋价问题。
我听了，真的很生气，可是却什么都做不到！

在汽油起价后，所有的东西都被影响，也随之起价。。
如此的改变，让我们的国家经济受影响，也让我们陷入危机。

政府，不是应该为我们人民着想的吗？
不是应该为我们人民争取我们的人权吗？
不是应该让国家进步，发展的吗？
可是，为什么我们看到的却是欺压我们人民，也看着国家一天一天的退步呢？

而我们的生活，却一天比一天辛苦，难挨！
到底有谁可以帮我们声怨，让我们过得好一些呢？

Pek Cek!

Haha... My buddy was not understand what I'm writing here, so I have to re-write or make it clearly. As I also don't know what I'm writing before :p

Ok. Make things clear. My company is a US company, so everything will listen back to US office. Now, US office has announced that every small country is only entitled to have one services coordinator & one CSR (Customer Service Representative). *CSR job is more to ordering, also can said as a purchaser.

Since the news been spread out, that means I will be kick-off from the company due to my contract also around the corner already. Erm... should not said "will be", but confirm! Because my Services Director been talked to me about the issue.

Coincident that, the CSR role is vacant on next month due to the current CSR resigned. In order to keep me in the team, my SD ask me to take over the job. At the same time, I can support on both side even I been transfer roles. I don't want to accept the job yet, because the salary & benefits that I request, they unable to provide me. & also it make me feel like I been downgrade. In that case, what for I have to accept it, right? It's really unfair for me what...

I pek cek is because I was on discussion with the Sales Leader last few days. He asked me a lot of questions which not supposingly asked by him one. While he's asking, he is teasing & say bad about my current department. Some more, he also challenge me why I can & have to claim OT. He has no authority to cross check my job, if he got any doubt, he should go to my boss ar, not come to me!! Really not happy when talking to him for that 30 minutes time!!

That's what happen recently! Really make me sick on the situation!

My Heritage Face Recognition

Was seeing what my buddy play around on the photo here. So, I have a try on it too.

I took my recent photos which taken in a friend's wedding last week & the result come out as below:





How you think?

New Job Offer

I think I've inform you that I would like to look for new job, right?

Yesterday, one of my colleague which is new joined was tender her resignation letter. The reason she want to resign is because of she got a better offer which near by her house.

Now the position is OPEN. The news was spread so fast, only one day, everyone is knowing that the gal is going to leave this company. Since it is open & I'd been talked to my services director that I would like to be a permanent staff instead of contractor. Today, my services director is asking me to take the opportunity. It might be a great chance for me to be a permanent staff. Some more, he been asked around & he got a very positive feedback from others about me. Therefore, he is asking for my intention on the move.

On the same day itself, Malaysia sales leader has asked me enter his room on some discussion as well. Before I step in, I already know what he want to discuss with me. I know company are trying hard to make me stay. So, I was on discussion with the SL for about 30 minutes time. We talked openly with telling whether I'm interested on it or not, regarding OT claim, salary, etc.

At last, I was informed him that, I need time to consider about it. Sure, I really need to think deeply about it. If I really take up the job, I'm sure that the salary adjustment will not change much. Besides that, I know CSR job can't be claim OT, then I have to make sure I can cover my expenses after that. This is the main issue I have to think of...

The rest, I think is not important for me. Because I will treat it as a learning pace again & learn a new stuff to improve my knowledge & experience. So, that is not a big issue for me.

How? What should I do? I still don't know yet...
Frankly speaking, the working environment here is quite OK. I quite like it. But other than that, whether is it worth to take up this job? I'm pretty sure if I take up the job, I still have to backup on my current job. Always, I have to support my current team until no a firm date. And I'm pretty sure that I will only get one person salary with a super high workload throw on me.

Think think think...
I have 2 days time for me to think about it...

Car scratch + heart pain

My sis just bought a new car - MyVi. As you know, staying at apartment, there is only one parking lot per unit. So, same as I.

Since she has a car, she always told that her car is new, so she want park at my lot. & because of she always back home early than me, so definately she got my parking lot before me. So unfair! Her car is car, my car not car la?!

Yesterday, same case happened. She park my lot & didn't inform me as well. When I reached home only found she has park my lot. Fine, I have to reverse & turn out to get a parking outside.

As lucky, I found a parking which near the guard house. I really thought it's lucky enough. Well, this morning, when I get my car, I found that my car (close to the right front tyre) been scratch badly. The scratch is quite deep & serious. When I notice it, I was so shock & my heart are so pain until now.

So sad!! My heart is bleeding & crying...

* Yesterday went to take a photo of my car. Here is the scratch!


For the white scratch, I think that can be polish back to original. But for the Black scratch, I have no confident it can be recover :(

HTC - Touch Cruise

Remember I've told you that my mobile got some problem?

Yes, my mobile very moody recently. Sometimes when people call, it purposely don't want to ring or automatic off the handset. Well, I'm patient enough to re-on the phone again & again. Just because I don't this is a big issue for me yet. The main reason is: I've no money to buy a new one.
Last Friday, there is a 1st Handphone Fair in Malaysia, which nearby my house. As in the brochure, is written the discount is up to 70% off. So, me & Ken have make a decision to pay visit at the fair.

When we reached there, it is not as crowded as what I'm expected. & there is not really much phone model publishing. Well, we walked one round & while ahead back to the parking, Ken found the PDA phone that he is admiring for sometime ago.

We walked toward to the counter, test the PDA phone & ask for the price. As per Ken, the price is about 15% - 20% cheaper than the market price. The PDA phone look slim & smart as compare to blackberry.

After 20 minutes thinking & calculating, at last Ken decided to take it with 2 units. Why he take 2 units? Yes, he bought one for me, which I told him not to buy for me. But he insist to get one for himself & one for me. Said this is our couple phone. Get fainted, right? But, he win the arguement :(

Now, I'm using this PDA phone - HTC Touch Cruise.
By the way, I still not familiar using PDA phone yet, as there is no keyboard for me to type.

Below is the image of the phone:

I pretty like it now, but I think I still need some times to get used on it.

Thanks, dear~

生病+无聊记

今天，终于拿病假了。
在家休息，是好事。可是，也很闷哦。。

还是一样很早醒来，因为习惯了嘛。。
不同的是，我还可以赖在床上，不要醒来哦~
直到八点多，觉得很浪费时间，所以就醒来了。

因为不想做工，所以就开了连续集来看。。

原来，在家休息也很无聊的。。
幸好，还有我的宝贝儿子陪我玩。。呵呵。。

很无聊哦~
吃了药又好像懵懵懂懂的。。

A Busy Sunday

Yesterday is my busy Sunday. I'd been long time didn't have a compact Sunday as yesterday. Why I said so?

Erm.. I think most of my Sunday I will only stay at home watch drama series only since I've stop my dancing class.

Yesterday, I went to hiking with my hiking gang. This round we went to Ah Pak Hill @ Cheras. Early morning (5.45am) woke up & waiting for my friend - Lokman to come & pick us (my sis & me) up.

Wow.. this round, I do badly. Not sure is too long no exercise or got health problem. Only half way, I'm like almost dying. I feel like I can't breath, my brain like lack of oxygen, I felt dizzy, etc... Luckily Lokman & my sis waiting for me. ^^ Feel so pai sei.. Drag them slow already.

Then, about 9.30am, we get back to the ground :p
For me, I consider quite fast already lo, coz I remember long time back, I took quite long time one. hehe...

Simply take a breakfast at the ground, then we back home for a short rest.
Take a bath & watch 2 series of the drama & ready to go out again.

This round is go to the Book Fair @ KL Conventional Center. When reached there, is around 3pm already. It was super crowded with the people. Terrible...
But, still met few friends in the fair. Hehe..

About 6pm reached home, take a bath & have a light dinner. Then waiting for friends to come & fetch me out for yam cha :p We went to Look Out Point with the nice night view. We talked a lot on the hiking & travel. Hehe... All hiking expert with addicted on the hiking stuffs.

About 11.15pm only I get back to my sweet home.
What a compact Sunday, right?
Yeah, it was super tired too...

糊涂

今天很糊涂噢。。不知道是不是不够睡还是什么。

一早醒来，超不想来上班哦。可是有没有借口哦，有没有不舒服。。
所以还是勉强自己醒来咯。随便冲个凉就驾车上班了。
驾车时，也好像还没睡醒似的，而幸运的，没有塞车哦　^^

然后，到公司，由于很饿，就煮包即食面吃咯。。
吃了后，迷迷糊糊的开了部落格来看，可是却没有写东西。
然后，就开始似忙又不忙的对着电脑。等到我的早餐同事抵达后，我们就在Pantry 聊一下。。
冲了一杯Neslo (Nescafe + Milo)来喝。结果，不知道是没放糖还是什么，整杯东西没有味道的　:(

再来，原本要做A东西的，结果做了B东西。
原本要拿C东西的，结果拿了B东西。。

最后，连简单的数学也算错。
哎哟。。　到底我怎么了？

新家

今早，我在开车上班时，无意间听到这首歌：

新家-阿杜(A-Du)

天堂的家什么样
是不是都长了翅膀
风暴将临带我们逃

我们用爱打造
原谅过往再拥抱希望
紧紧拥抱我们的新家
家是每个小孩的梦想
泪和汗流过的胸膛
爱一块一块的砌上
装上门窗迎接阳光
家是每个心灵的天堂
伤痛了逃回的方向
爱一天一天的茁壮
家就是天堂

天堂的家什么样
是不是都长了翅膀
风暴将临带我们逃

我们用爱打造
原谅过往再拥抱希望
紧紧拥抱我们的新家
家是每个小孩的梦想
泪和汗流过的胸膛
爱一块一块的砌上
装上门窗迎接阳光
家是每个心灵的天堂
伤痛了逃回的方向
爱一天一天的茁壮
家就是天堂

家是每个小孩的梦想
泪和汗流过的胸膛
爱一块一块的砌上
装上门窗迎接阳光
家是每个心灵的天堂
伤痛了逃回的方向
爱一天一天的茁壮
家就是天堂

很喜欢这首歌，我觉得家不只是小孩的梦想，还是每个人的梦想。

Long Gas!!

Hey!! Why so long gas one?

Always ask me to do things in the last minutes, especially the time I want leave early!!

Please la.. stop those rubbish la, ok?
Go straight to the point, ok??

Really beh tahan him already la!!

Wasting my time, I have my personal time also le :(

萤火虫

作词:伊能静
作曲:陈秀男 陈大力
njcrx@163.net

萤火虫萤火虫慢慢飞
夏夜里夏夜里风轻吹
怕黑的孩子安心睡吧
让萤火虫给你一点光

燃烧小小的身影在夜晚
为夜路的旅人照亮方向
短暂的生命努力的发光
让黑暗的世界充满希望

萤火虫萤火虫慢慢飞
我的心我的心还在追
城市的灯光明灭闪耀
还有谁会记得你燃烧光亮

加油！

看到远方中国的地震事件，你有何感想？

每一天追着新闻报道，希望看到的是没有再多的死亡人数，希望看到的是人们努力求生的遗志，希望看到的是没有放弃的念头。。。

每当新闻播放时，看着一个一个被抱出来的伤者和尸体，眼泪却不由自主地流出来。是因为老天爷在惩罚人们在破坏地球吗？为什么要让那么多人陷入这种情况呢？

以下的网站是香港歌手为中国人民打气的歌，中国的人民，加油，在你们的背后，还有我们在支持你们：
http://www.youtube.com/swf/l.swf?video_id=_sHZ2QengvA&rel=1&eurl=&iurl=http%3A//i.ytimg.com/vi/_sHZ2QengvA/default.jpg&t=OEgsToPDskJIf9PL_7wP2vj9FjwI6Bhn&hl=en

不要轻易放弃，你们还有很遥远的未来等着你们，牺牲的亲人不希望你们因为悲伤而放弃难得生存下来的生命。多苦的煎熬也要咬紧牙根，我们一起努力的走下去！

我为你们打气和献上最深的祝福！

离开

最近，很想离开马来西亚的感觉。
不知道真正的原因是什么，可是就是有这种感觉。好像暂时放下在这里的一切，不管是亲情，友情还是爱情。 有点累的感觉了。累到不想说话，不想工作，不想做任何东西。

那天，和我妈妈聊天，我告诉她我有这个念头。 她直接说， 她不舍得我去那么远。 我知道她担心我， 疼我。可是，我会选择出国公干的另一个原因是我可以赚多点钱， 那么我妈就不用那么辛苦。

我和我妈的感情算不错。只要我妈要我帮忙的，我都会尽量做给她，很多事她都会找我谈。 如果我真的出国，我知道她会很寂寞。我也会很舍不得她。。。

虽然如此，可是却没有打消我想出国公干的念头。我想去闯我的人生，我想去外面看看这个世界，我想尝试很多我没有尝试过的东西， 等等。。

至于他，我不知道他会怎么想，我也不知道他是否会支持我，等我回来。。。

Butter Cake!

Such a long time didn't bake cake already.

Last week, was in mind that wanted to a butter cake. Therefore, when fetching my mom to Carefour, I was getting those ingredients also.

Yesterday, was free at home. So, starting to spare some times on my planning.

Finally, this is my result!

Hehe... Physically, quite successful~

From eating, still consider ok la. I just felt it's a bit hard lo.. May be too much flour already :p

Pig & Me

Was playing a test. Below is the result:

Your choice of background shows that you are responsible, straightforward and a realist but can sometime appear confrontational and challenging.

The direction your pig is facing indicates you being innovative and action-orientated, you often think of new ways of doing things and take action to deliver them.

The amount of detail in your pig means you are driven by emotion and find detail boring. You follow your gut feeling and can be a risk taker.

Because your pig has four legs, some may say you are stuck in your ways but actually this reflects your strong beliefs and your stubbornness in defending them.

The larger the pig's ears, the better listener you are.

The longer your pig's tail, the better your sex life – need we say more!

朦胧的天，朦胧的心

今天的天气不是很好，现在却下起大雨来。。。
天黑得就好像晚上七点多了，其实却只有下午四点多而已。
如此的天气，也朦胧了我的心情。

今早的天气还算可以，只是有点烟雾的感觉。
但是现在，却下起轰隆大雨，迷蒙了整个天空和道路。
原本还OK的心情，也开始雾罩起来。

安静的街道，也开始忙碌起来
路上的人们，匆匆忙忙的避雨
晴朗的天空，突然发起牢骚来
而我，开始上网滴滴答答的打起字来
无聊的心情，还是迟迟未散~

今天的时间怎么走得这么慢？

Nokia 6230

This is the phone that I'm using now: Nokia 6230. It already be with me about 2 years.

I can't said this phone is super great, but at least, I still consider it is good for me. It got radio, MP3, 1.3 megapixels, etc. At least, I still can make a good call & sms. (I just have a 512mb memory card, which allow me to store a lot of songs & photos)

Recently, this baby is very naughty, keep on creating problems for me. For example, people calls without ring tones ring even I already set to high volume; people calls, off the phone automatically eventhough it is full of battery; people calls with no ring tone, but not even show miss call on the phone, etc...

All these was happened since one month ago till now. At first I was thought it is because of the maxis line, who knows... till now still the same & I have to force myself to believe that it is my own phone problem. Quite a lot of friends complaint me that not answering their calls, including my parents. But, I still don't think to change my phone yet le.

So, if you call me & I didn't answer your calls, please do understand that my phone got problem, not I don't want to answer you oh, ok? If you unable to get me through phone, you may sms me or email me, then I will get back to you asap :p

Gathering @ Langkawi

Since my graduation trip until now, I have about 3 years didnt go trip with my uni coursemates already. Damn miss them ya...

This round, we really take our words to organize the gathering at Langkawi. And TOMORROW (16-May-08) is the day of the gathering!!! YEAH!!

Since January 2008, we already on plan to Langkawi. We been met up for few times to discuss for the date, transportation, accomodation, etc... (But I only able to meet up for once :p) This round, we really make it work...

We only have 11 persons for this trip.
1. Pei Chin
2. Grace
3. Wei Seong
4. Yean Seong
5. Regina
6. Keg Wea
7. Pak Fui
8. Keong Chew
9. Ah Phin
10. Sok Yin
11. ME!!

Eventhough not everyone able to join, but never mind, I believe it will be another great memorable trip.

So excited now.. May be because my boss is not around today & the important is tomorrow is the trip ^^ But before that, I have to complete a lot of job today, else I can't back today. A lot of important job that need me to settle in this week. But since tomorrow I will not be around, therefore no matter how, I have to finish all the pending job :( sad sad...

Langkawi, wait for me. I will visit you tomorrow!!! hehehe....

Responsibility

Do you think responsibility is important?

Yeah, responsibility can refer to many things. For example: at work, responsible as a boss or a staff. At home, responsible as a father or a son. On the road, responsible as a driver. In a party, responsible as an organizer. and etc...

For me, responsibility is one of my character. I treat it as essential, because it show our seriousity on doing things. At work, I always play my roles to make my job done & successful. Because I would like to show my capable to my superior & myself. I want to be value & treat fair by the boss & colleagues. Somehow, I do not know how these people work like don't even care. When things happen, they can play Taichi to push the things to those innocents one. I don't even know how the bosses don't know about it & just simply trust on one party. Who play the right roles & who play the trick?

At home, I didn't play a perfect role as a daughter. This is because I put most of my time at work, therefore I have no time to accompany my family. But, sometimes I will spend my weekend time with my lovely mom: bring her to wet market, bring her to buy daily stuffs, bring her to shopping, bring her to watch movie, etc... This is what I can do for her whenever I have times.

On the road, I think I did play a good roles as a driver. When I make turn, I will give signal. When I cut queue, I will give signal & make sure it's ready to cut the queue. When my car breakdown, I will put double signal to inform others. When raining heavy, I will on my double signal & drive slow. When I feel sleepy, I will drive to rest area to have a coffee or rest before start moving. I don't like those driver always treat that the road is only for their own, never think of other people. The selfish & impatient attitude are the reason always make accident happen.

In a relationship, I try my best to be a good & understanding girlfriend. I lent my ears for him, to share his sadness, excitement, disappointment, worried, dream, etc... I give suggestion or comment to him if he willing to listen on it. I accompany him if he need me. I cool him down if he is in an anger. I believe it might take times for me to be a perfect girlfriend.

In a friendship, I do not pay much responsibility on it. Because I always thought that friends will always in our heart eventhough we have long time never contact each others. Therefore, I seldom take innitiative to contact them, to update their news always. I'm acting as passive role, to wait them come to me, wait them take the first move, etc... Or I will only make a call to them only once a year or even longer. I might need to improve this for myself & my dearest friends. I believe some of them are disappointed & fed up on me. But, I hope I still got a minor place in their heart :p

I try my best to play my role, do you?

黑色的云吞

昨晚，我和以往一样，加班后驾车回家。

可能有点累吧，所以就加快一点速度，好让自己可以早点回到家休息。就在一个转弯的转角间， 突然有一个上下都披着黑布的摩多骑士出现在我的眼前。这个黑衣人， 是真的有点吓到我。 为什么我这么说呢？

好吧。。 你就用你的想象力吧：
一个全身上下都是黑色的东西在你的左边“飞”过 - 没看清楚，真的以为是什么东西飞过
再看，上面的那块布，就随风的飘啊飘啊 - 也不管是否后面的人看到前面的路况
还是在转弯区飞出来 - 证明她妈妈还有本事生！撞下去也不知道谁是谁非啊！

真他妈的！
有时候真的不知道这些人是不是因为脑部经常被包着，所以不能运用正常。。要包云吞头也想一下， 驾摩多，不顾及别人，也想想自己的安危啦。。

所以呢，我有点累和悃的情况，马上清醒起来了。

工作？人生？

很多时候，在我们出来工作后，我们的时间和一切都放在工作上。

我们却。。。
忘了我们的人生
忘了我们的目标
忘了我们的睡眠
忘了我们的每一餐
忘了我们的家人
忘了我们的朋友
忘了我们的家庭

这种种的遗忘， 虽是短暂， 但带来不少的副作用。。。
当我们清醒的时候，可能都已经太迟了。。。

醒来后的人生- 可能很难再精彩起来了
醒来后的目标- 可能因为年龄的问题，被逼放弃一切了
醒来后的睡眠- 可能经常都得失眠了
醒来后的每一餐- 可能已经变成习惯性的胃痛了
醒来后的家人- 可能已不在人世了
醒来后的朋友- 可能都失去联络了
醒来后的家庭- 可能都有隔膜了

这种种的可能，是你最后要的结果吗？为什么不曾现在就改变现在繁忙的生活呢？

遗忘了的部落格

今天，因为工作的不快， 再加上伤风，所以没什么心情工作。在大家回家后的时间里，我就上网。

上了一个几乎被我遗忘部落格网站，浏览了我曾经的文章，顺便也浏览了朋友的部落格。才发现，原来我已经和他们脱阶一段日子了。 他们的心情我忘了看，忘了关心，忘了在乎。。。有一点难过。

曾经，这个部落格陪了我一段时间， 不管在我开心，不开心，我都在那里留下痕迹，然后再看看朋友给我的见解。这个部落格就好像是我的心情日记，天天记载着不同的记忆。可是，当我有了新的部落格后，我忘了原始的部落格。是因为我贪新忘旧吗？可能吧。。。 也可能我没有太多的时间维持两个部落格吧。。。

也许这只是一个借口吧。。可是，我是真的遗忘了它。我想我还是没办法维持两个部落格，可是我会将其他朋友的部落格加入在我的网站里， 那么我就不会忘了他们。

希望这不会再让我脱阶太多吧。。。

十字路口

每个人都会走过不少的十字路口，不管是大的十字路口还是小的十字路口。在每一个十字路口前，我们都要做出选择， 到底我们应该往哪儿走， 我们的选择又是否正确。

在人生的路途里，很多人害怕做选择，害怕做改变。因为，很多事情都不一定跟着我们想的一样。所以，往往在做选择时，我们都犹豫很久， 而到最后，可能什么都没做。

我的人生也到过不少十字路口。曾经，我也会害怕做选择，因为，我害怕我的选择会比目前的还糟。后来，经过深思，我知道不管我作出什么决定，我都必须勇于面对。不管未来的路会是如何，选择后的道路也一定要继续向前走下去。如果我无法做出决定，我永远只能原地踏步； 如果我做了选择后有退缩，那我永远不知道辛苦的过后是甜蜜的收成。

站在十字路口的你，又会怎么选择呢？

给你的惊喜

自从有了车后，我已经没有再搭公共汽车了。今天，我为了给你一个意外惊喜， 一大早开车到火车站， 坐火车去找你。几乎两年没搭公车了，到了火车站东张西望的找在哪里买票，在哪里上火车。。 哈哈。。。有一点搞笑哦。。。

买了票， 上了火车，我就发个信息给他。告诉他等下要他的帮忙， 因为我弟弟会在芙蓉的火车站，不会路。 可是，半个小时后，我都还没有收到他的回复，我想他应该是还没睡醒吧。结果，我就拔个电话给他。 告诉他，我弟弟大概十点会到哦。。 而那个时候，已经是9.45am了。你说，你要大概半个小时准备，我说好啦。。 可是，过后我也坦白的对你说，在火车站的是我，不是我弟弟。。 那时的你，被我吓倒了吧。。 哈哈。。。

到了火车站，我还是等你的那个。。幸好我有MP3 player和书，所以没有那么闷。终于， 你到了。你带我去Vincent的家载他， 然后一起吃早午餐 (branch)。吃完东西后，我们就送Vincent 回家。原本，你要带我去Karaoke的，由于太早了， 所以店还没有开咯。 然后，你要到朋友的家修理电脑， 又要去找顾客拿一些东西。所以，我就陪你一起去“工作”咯。。。

当你的工作完毕时，你带我去你的家拿我的电脑。 因为我的电脑有问题，给你带回家修理修理。突然间，天下起雨来。 把原来你要带我去的地方给取消了。结果，我们就只是呆在你的家看戏咯。大概五点左右，我又搭火车回家了。原本我是以为你会去文东的，那么你又可以陪我一起搭火车。 可是，却临时取消了。结果，我还是一个人去，一个人回。是有点失落啦，可是，也不想你太累咯。。。

就这样，我的星期六就给了你啦。。。

Current news

From my blog, I think it's easily to show that how busy am I recently. I can't say I'm free now, but I just would like to update myself to friends on my recent life.

So fast, I'd been working in this company for 1.5 years already. If you still remember, I'm just a yearly contractor in this company. As I compare with other contractors in this company, they all work on time, which is 8.30am - 5.30pm. After that time, they will say bye bye already. Not as me, worked till so late & few persons job, but only get one person salary. UNFAIR!

Well, my contract is going to end in another 5 months (30-Sep-08). Two years with contract, I feel unfair & unsecure. Frankly speaking, I like work in this company. The environment, the culture here is very free & open-minded type. That's why I like it. But, I also want to be fair only.

I been talked about this issue with a colleague before & it might be spread to my boss. Few days ago, my boss was come to me. He was asking me on the jobs that I handle now & any complaints, etc... I was telling him the truth that I'm really overload with all these jobs, especially work with Indo team which is not cooperate with me at all. After bla bla bla, my boss asked me, have I ever think to change my job scope now, am I going to move on to other position? Again, I told him that I don't know what is the open position & I don't know where I can move to, I need his comment. Then, he offer me whether I'm interested to be SAE (Service Application Engineer / Proposal manager). For me, I always willing to learn, to challenge. That's why I told my boss that I don't mind to learn more, just I want to be permanent & fair. My boss noted & he said he will try to work on it. But the things is it take times, it's not one or two days things which can change immediately. He also need to get someone to take up my current job.

Yes, I agreed it take times, but at the mean time, I also need to get some backup for myself mar. Especially my best buddy just feel disappointment on the same issue like what I have now. I worry I'm also facing the same issue as her mar. So, who want hire me or whose company got empty vacancy?? Please notify me if any. 'Coz sooner I'll be unemployed already =(

人生哲学

你认为人生是什么呢？

很多人会说，人生其实就是一场赌局

赌的是， 人生的道路

赌的是， 生活上的满足

赌的是， 无法计算的未来

那，我再问你：

如果要你用一种东西来形容人生， 你会用什么呢？

很多人会说，人生很像一部戏

每个人都有自己的故事和道路

看戏的，就只是看戏

没有经历的，永远不会明白

曾经却有一个人对我说

人生其实就好像红绿灯

当绿灯的时候，我们永远不知道接下来的多少秒后会变红

在我们冲刺的时候，不知道前面的红绿灯已经转黄为红了

这就是所谓的人生

忙忙忙！

很久很久，我没有上来我的部落格，没有写任何的文章了。。。
很抱歉，因为最近真的很忙很忙。
在忙什么呢？好啦，现在来报告我的近况啦。。。


一如往常，我忙于我的工作。以为去了印尼一趟，应该可以放手让我的“徒弟”接手的。 谁知，我不但没办法放手让给我的徒弟， 反而做得更多。因为，在我回马一个星期后， 我的徒弟突报入院开刀。 原因是肺系统有问题，导致呼吸困难。结果，我不但要赶大马一个星期累积下来的project， 我还得继续接手印尼的工作。

过后，就是新年了。新年期间，虽然没有什么特奇的事发生，但是还是享受了4天公共假期。回到公司，又开始忙工作了。。。而后， 就是每个星期日去爬山训练自己。因为，三月头会去爬Mulu Cave, Miri。 也因此，被逼暂时停止我的舞蹈生涯。

从Miri回来，我的工作犹如一座山的等待我清理。除此之外，其中一个同事离职了，公司还没有请到人。结果，我们将她的工作分为三个人来处理。 不是我们没用或办事能力不好， 而是我们自己的工作已经多到没办法再加了。我的最高纪录是一个人做五个人的工作。 我真得很累很累。。。也不知道我要忙多久才可以将问题解决， 让一切顺利的搬上轨道。。。

今天，我总算到一段落了。虽然不知道成功率到哪里，可是， 成绩应该还算不错吧。。。 所以，今天我给自己偷一个小懒。早点放工回家。。。

这就是我最近的生活，一个忙碌的生活，没有娱乐的生活。。。

情人节快乐

昨天，是2月14日，情人节。。。

是我有生以来，第一次庆祝的情人节。
虽然这并没什么特别的庆祝，可是有你的陪伴，我很满意了。

当天，我和往常一样上班，比往常早一点到公司啦。。。 因为，我必须在放工前赶完很多工作。 结果，我还是比预算的用多了一个小时半才完成手上的工作。
然后，赶紧回家冲个凉，等待你的到来。 我不知道你将要带我去哪里庆祝这情人节， 因为你说，你想给我一个惊喜。 所以我不再多问， 也用长一点的时间在衣着上 :p

当你到来时，我们随便吃了一些东西，然后我们就出发去目的地。 你带我到一个我很想去的地方， 也是我一直想过情人节的地方。 虽然那里不是什么特别的地方，却我一直想要的。
那就是，海边。 那里有一个情人桥， 可是很不幸的，情人桥刚好正在维修，所以我们就只好坐在靠海的椅子上聊天，看海，听海浪声，看月亮，等等。。。

虽然这样的情人节很闷，可是我还算满意啦。。。 如果有红酒陪伴，那就更好啦。。 呵呵。。。
就这样，我们过了一个很普通的情人节。
谢谢你。。。

新年

很快的，新年就这样过完了。
我的新年，几乎每一年都一样。

今年也不怎么例外。。。
年三十，在家吃一顿丰富的午餐。 然后就褒戏到深夜，守夜嘛，所以越迟睡就越好咯。。。

年初一，在家拜拜和吃了午餐后， 我爸说要去庙里拜拜，所以就去了庙。回到家已经6点了。冲个凉后， 就出发去三姑的家。 那里集合的所有的姑姑， 表姐，表妹，表哥，表弟，等等。。。
老一辈的，都会开台打麻将；而我们年轻的一辈，就会为在客厅里看电视，拍照，聊天，玩牌等等。。。

年初二， 和家人出去吃个午餐后，就去医院探望我的外婆。然后，就去阿姨的家拜年。由于我是唯一的司机， 加上我太累了，所以在阿姨的家睡了一会儿。哈哈。。。 然后小聊了几个小时，就载着家人回家休息。

年初三，由于没地方去，所以就睡得很迟。 睡醒后， 又开始褒戏看。。。

年初四，他陪我出去走走。。。 然后看了一部非常废的电影：Coverfield。 简直就是浪费钱！这是他陪我看的第一部戏。。 唉。。。

年初五，开工！

就这样，我的假期就用完了。
多么无聊的新年啊！

感情

曾经以为我的心很难再被感动了， 却没想到这么一个他如此轻易的将我的心打开。
他找到了我心门的钥匙， 也轻易的住进了那间空房。
不知道是什么原因，就是如此的简单。。。

虽然在一起不是很久，就只有短短的一个月。。。
感觉就好像相处很久了，很温馨。。。
不知道这是不是短暂的，还是长久的。。 就只知道，在这一秒钟，我很开心。

坦诚的对白，是我的弱点。
可他，等待着我对他的每一句真心的对白。。
虽然我并不知道，他对我说的话有多少真诚，有多少虚假；可是，我却决定选择相信他。

因为他，我换了爱的方式。
一段信任，坦白，体谅的感情。。。
这一切都是我所期望的，也是我将要做的。
可能你会说我很笨，但是，我却真的想尝试真心地对待。
我不知道我的真心，可以换来多少的真诚； 但是这一次，我决定赌一次， 唯一的一次。。。

你会支持我吗？
我希望得到你的祝福，因为你的祝福将会是我的力量。。。

外婆

在将近新年的日子，每个人应该都是开开心心的。。。
可是，很不幸的， 我的外婆就在这个时候进出医院不少次。

起初，只是一些小问题：被蚊子叮到而已。
由于人老了， 所以体抗力和复合能力都比较慢。 再加上不断地更换工人，所以在照顾上有了不少的疏忽。
就因为如此，我外婆的脚慢慢的从一个小伤变成了一个大伤。在我家人被通知时，我外婆的脚已经有一个五毛钱大的洞了， 还有脓的痕迹。。。
每一晚，我外婆都因为痛而不能入睡， 也因此渐渐的瘦了很多。
（我的外婆已经有老人痴呆症了，而且也不能方便自如的讲话和听别人说话了， 所以没有人注意到，直到好心的工人通知）

在近这两个月里， 我的阿姨们都进进出出的载我外婆去医院清洗她的伤口。 可是，很遗憾的是。。。上个礼拜，医生们说她的细菌已经侵入骨了， 必须马上决定动不动手术。
我的外婆已经八十多岁了， 她已经不能承受这么多痛苦了。 可是，如果要活命就只有动手术。医生也说，动手术后并不一定一百巴仙会恢复的， 那时要看病人的复会能力。

结果，大家一致决定动手术。 星期五那天，我外婆被推进了手术室。 出来时，两条腿变成了一条腿。 不知道该用什么心情来形容。。。 就是难过。。。

今年，大家都没心情过新年了。可能就只有随便吃一餐就算了。

Business trip @ Jakarta 2

Today, is the 4th day given training to this new gal...
The experience is bad!

Why I said so? I also do not know where I should start.
Her pick up is very slow & don't really pay attention.
At first I thought that is because of a lot of interruption. But until today, Today is a holiday! No one is in the office except me & her. No interruption at all...
But, she still unable to cope it...

Why?? I'm asking myself... Is it my manual very difficult to understand? I sent to my friend & some other coordinators. They said it's completely simple with following the steps.
Then, what is the problem? Is it she don'y understand? If yes, everytime when I asked, are you clear until this moment, then she said yes!
Then, I gave her some spot quizzes... Which really make me frustrated!
The same things, the simple question, she already cant answer me! How can I expect her to planning on it? Even read the manual also got problem, then how I gonna to continue teaching her?

I was complaining with my colleagues that I gonna give up teaching on her. I'm gonna tell my boss that give me double salary & I work for 2 countries instead of teaching her & giving me trouble. I even told my colleagues that can I go back Malaysia now & ask SAP analyst come to continue it for me. Well.... all just what I wish I can only.

At this moment, I really out of my patient & I asked to follow the manual, I monitor it besides.
But, she still unable to do it. I almost shout at her & ask her think properly before do it. Then, she replied me: "I think you are too tired already, why not we take a break & continue after lunch."
Wah ser!! What will you feel when you heard about it? Going to faint? Going to vomit blood? Going to heart attack?

That's how I feel in Jakarta trip with totally exhausted...

Business trip @ Jakarta

Finally, I'm in Jakarta already.
As final plan, my boss really committed his word & send me to Jakarta to conduct a training to the new staff here.

Today, is the second day I stayed in Jakarta. What is my feeling in Jakarta?? That is the common questions that all my friends & colleagues asking me, even my boss...

Well... My answer is Jakarta is not as complicated as what you think. Yes, can't deny that Jakarta is very crowded with people & cars. That's not common if you can't see any cars on the road. People here are very polite & good manner, it's not like Malaysian. But, I think Malaysian will not used to Indonesian's driving skills. We are used to drive fast & impatient, but for Indonesian, they are driving slow & peace. How slow they are? Yeah.. May be it's only 20km/hr or 40km/hr. I think the speed is only happened in Malaysia when it is traffic jam.

Next question, have you explore in Jakarta already? Unlucky, I still haven't explore any in Jakarta yet. I was suffering on conducting the training. The training is not going smooth as what I planned. I was slow down my schedule & loosen the schedule, so that she can easily pick up. But, I think I lose. There are a lot of issue happened here, a lot of interruptions, & also the student is not really pay attention. I'm really try my best to teach her, but I noticed that, I'm getting lose on my patient. You know, as from my planned, I'm going to teach 2 topics in the first day. But unfortunately, I only able to conduct one. So, the next day I went to the office early & planned to start early too. Who knows, she is doing other things in the morning & we only start the training around 11am. As planned, today I got to teach her for at least 4 topics, but again... she spoilt my planned again. She pick up slow, not paying attention & etc...

Ai... It's really tired to conduct this kind of training.

Continue when I'm free as I'm tired now.

New Year 2008

How you celebrate New Year 2008?

For me, this is the first time that I celebrated & countdown at Bukit Bintang eventhough I'm born in Kuala Lumpur. Haha... Must be feel surprise, right? But, that is the fact.

At first, we planned to celebrate it at The Curve. After fetch the 2 friends in PJ, they said they are too boring to celebrate in PJ again as they everyday walk to work at there, etc... So, I called up my sister to check up for the traffic condition in KL area from website. Seem that, the traffic was fine. Therefore, we decided make a move to KL. But, when the time we move up, we stuck in the jam due to "Lori Rosak dalam 3km". & this lorry make us stuck in the jam for at least one hour. We all are starving in the car & almost can imagine the food are just in front of us... Haha... (sound a bit serious already...)

Finally, we reached KL at 10pm & surprising that there is no jam at all. We quickly get into a parking & crab the food to feed our super duper hungry stomach. When we all see the food, quickly put into our mouth. I'd been forgetted that I can't eat in fast & much after super hungry. Just in the half meal I had, I been attack by the gastric... :( But, still I continue & walk to the destination after the delicious dinner.

When we reached Bukit Bintang, there were really a lot of people over there. There still got 1.5 hours to reach 12am. But, the crowd over there were playing around with the spray, party ribbon, whistle, etc... Besides, there has a stage & few local singers are presented on the stage. The situation are so hot & happening. The whole road was full of people & rubbish.

We keep on tried to find a place to stand & look at the stage. But unfortunately, I'm too short... Unable to see anything... At last, we move to the bridge of Lot10 & Sungei Wang. Because I got a friend will join me as well & we promise to get each other on the Monorial Station. While waiting for my dear friend, suddenly start raining heavily... But, the crowd still not moving away from the road & luckily we all are on the bridge with cover top.

Finally, my dear friend reached around 11.15pm. But the rain still on with slightly light a bit. Then, we got 6 persons altogether & we started to move to the stage with hand hold hand. Basically, from the bridge to the stage is not far, it just may be about 300 meter, but it took us 20 minutes to reach there. From the way we moved on, those people with the spray were keep on spray on us due to we all were still "clean". Then, we all wanted to skip on the spray, we were "running" here & there & hide at the back of guys... Haha... Funny that, our guys here suddenly become snow man... :D

Time passed fast & 12am reached... Everyone wish each other happy new year 2008 & all the crowd were move to the middle of the road & enjoy the fireworks show on top of us. Due to our ladies are all small size, we all been squeeze into the crowd as "sardin fish". Our face showed the sweat, rain & also tired~ Haha... But, still funny, happy & unforgettable memories.

After the countdown, we take a move to a mamak stall at Jalan Alor. We take a drink & have a "gila" chat... Out of 6, I only know 2 friends. The rest are friend's friends. But, we all seem like old friends already coz we all are same type: Crazy! :p

After drink for an hour, we split into 2 cars again & back home. But for my side, 4 of us were not back home yet, but for supper. We went to SS2 had a supper & play around again. Around 3am only come out from the cafe & back home.

That night, I was reached home at 4am with super tired & satisfied, but no next time at Bukit Bintang.