进度

记得我是在12月11日买十字绣回来的。

从那个晚上开始动手绣。
那时的进度很慢 （当然现在也不快到哪里去啦）

不过，我却看到一些成绩了。
很高兴哦。。。
这里就是我目前的进度：

如何呢？
是不是看到一些图画了呢？
这里只不过是四分之一的70八仙而已咯~
还有很多要绣咯！

要继续加油咯~ 希望可以在明年3月前赶完~！
Ganbate! aza aza~~!
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目前的进度：1-1-11==========================================================
目前的进度：4-1-11
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几天没做，维持在这个进度而已：10-1-11
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这两天的进度：21-1-11
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新年期间的进度: 7-2-11

为你祈祷~

昨天，信息给我的好友。
因为担心她父亲的健康，也担心她。
有好几天没看见她上网了。
所以，拖到昨天才给她信息。

结果，她告诉我，她的父亲在几天前过世了。
我很难过，我也担心她。。。
我不知道她是否赶得及回家看她的父亲。
我不知道她是否可以熬过来。
我不知道她的母亲是否可以坚强起来。。

很多的担心突然涌上心头。。
因为我知道她很爱她的父亲，也知道她很担心她的母亲的健康。
我很想帮忙，可是却什么都帮不到。

我为她一家人祈祷。。
希望他们一家可以走过这痛苦的日子。
希望他们可以健康开心的过日子。
因为我相信她的父亲也一样的~

如，加油！
需要帮忙的话，请让我知道。

一个人

面对一些事，我还是一样会感觉到害怕的~

我以为我不再害怕了，以为我可以接受新的追求。
原来我还是一样懦弱！

从我去Lake Toba回来，很多朋友问我：　你的男朋友哦？他有机会吗？等等的话题。。。
老实说，他不是我的男朋友，我也从来没有想过他是否有机会。

被朋友们一再地问，我想了一想。。。
我的答案是：　请不要追求我，我害怕！
也没有特别的感觉。。。　只是一味的害怕和祈祷他不要喜欢我！
我只想维持现状，只做朋友，我不想改变～

这种改变让我觉得胆怯。
然后，我才发现原来我还是适合一个人。
不是我放不下以前的事，只是不知道怎么去接受２个人的生活了。
不知道怎么和别人相处了。。。

所以，维持目前的生活是最好的～

求签

昨天，我陪朋友去天后宫拜拜。
我没有拿香拜，只是在神庙外面用手拜拜而已。
因为我不知道要怎么拜。。。呵呵 :p

然后，我看到很多人都在那里求签。
这里的秋千方式很特别，我第一次看到这样求签而已。
不需要跪在地上，不需要抛阴阳卦。。。
只是需要在签筒里拿起全部的签（那里的签很大支的哦），然后在心里求心愿。
然后放手，如果有一支签特别的高出来，那么那就是你的签。
如果有几支签高出于其它的，那么重新许愿和“抛”过。

而我也在那儿就了我人生中的第一次签。
我的签是上上签（我自己认为而已啦。。。）

我的签说：
灵鸡一啼，天渐渐亮了，凡事就看明天吧！云开月出，光照天下，你更可看到天平景象了。

这首签诗的寓意是，黑夜过去了，鸡一啼，黎明就接着来了。一个人一生不会都走霉运的，当那时来运转，正如[云开月出]，会有一番新气象出现的！

抽到此签，如问做事求财，可以说渐渐有希望了。

这首签诗是苦尽甘来之兆，所以问功名，表示你十年寒窗，有出头的日子了。问婚姻，表示有情人终成眷属。移居平安，出外可行。

是不是好签呢？呵呵~
但愿如签所说的吧。。。哈哈~！

Christmas gift in 2010

Today, is a good and surprise day for me oh~!

In the morning, I received a Christmas gift from my lovely colleague. I haven't open & have a look on it yet. But, I guess I will love it very much one :) because she is a very lovely & concerned gal ^^

In the afternoon, I had lunch with one of my university good friend & received another gift from him. Actually I knew he will give me one of the gift already, which is the miniature from Serbian. I don't know that he had actually bought a set of another kind of miniature for me.

I'm so so happy.
I will show you the picture later ^^ (once I manage to shoot for it)











Tonight, my department got dinner celebration for the year end close as well.
Hehe~ Hopefully another joyful event oh (^^)

Last trip in 2010

Tomorrow evening, I will be on trip again.
This round, I will go to Lake Toba, Medan, Indonesia.

Let me intro what about the special of the lake first:
Lake Toba (Danau Toba) is the largest volcanic lake in the world and is in Sumatra, Indonesia. Samosir island within the lake is the island within the island of Sumatra.

Lake Toba is an immense volcanic lake covering an area of 1707 sq km (1,000 sq km bigger than Singapore) with an island in the center. Formed by a gigantic volcanic eruption some 70,000 years ago, it is probably the largest resurgent caldera on Earth. Some studies say it might have been associated with causing previous ice age/climate change and the largest human population bottleneck ever. Genetic estimates suggests that there were only a few thousand individuals that survived the catastrophe. The island in the middle - Pulau Samosir - was joined to the caldera wall by a narrow isthmus, which was cut through to enable boats to pass; a road bridge crosses the cutting. Samosir island is the cultural centre of Batak tribe who are mostly Christians in the modern days.

This trip was planned in last minutes, and invited by a friend.
We decided on 30-Nov-2010 and booked the air ticket immediately (of course AirAsia got promotion lol :P)

Our budget for this trip is RM450 for 3 days 3 night per person (inclusive airfare oh)
I consider this is cheap, therefore I decided to go this trip.
This will be my last trip in year 2010. hehe~

I know, you gonna said I always said I'm broke, no money, but still going here and there, right?
Yeah... Actually I was struggling when my friend invite me.
I was thinking whether I afford to pay after this trip or not? Coz I gonna make lot of payment after/during the trip. Of course, the payment is for my house one lo~

At last, I still decided to go! The reason is I might have to stop traveling (oversea) for a moment, at least whole year of 2011. Else I will be in deep trouble of my financial issue. And also calculate the money that I have at the moment, I think I still survive for this trip. Therefore, without think much, I make my mind & GO!

Terrible, right? Ha~! Yeah!!!
I'm crazy now~~

Homework - Cross stitch

My weekend going to be busy now.

Last Saturday I went out with friends after few weeks staying home.
We went to Sunway, thought to shoot photos for the Christmas decoration. Who knows, it quite disappoint me, because nothing much to shoot & not much special for me.

Therefore, we went for window shopping (initial thought la :P)
Then, I saw few nice gift shops, without concern much & enter into the shop.
At one of the corner, I found a very nice cross stitch.

It's suitable to give my sister & brother-in-law as wedding gift :)
After consider for 5 minutes, I decided to buy lo... (price not cheap oh :S)

Here is the picture of the cross stitch~
Dang dang dang dang~~!
What do you think? Is it nice???
Yeah Yeah, I damn like it lolx...
But, problem is the cross stitch quite big oh.. abt 2x3 feet, which is 2 pieces of A3 paper.
Don't know how long I need to take to finish this... Scare not enough time for me to complete it before June 2011.

Some more, need to hide while doing it. hehe~! wanna give her a surprise mar :P

After working hard for 10 hours (3 days), I only manage to stitch for 2/100 only :S
Eyes tiring, but enjoy also :D

busy week

After free/bored for few weeks, or I should said months, this week I'm getting busy.

The reasons are :
1. Few tenders are going to submit to customers within this week.
2. Due to the last minutes checked by my boss (I was submitted to my boss since last week), therefore, I have to rush for the correction, and also the changes as per customer requests.
3. I will be leaving the office earlier on this coming Thursday & on leave on Friday, therefore has to complete all the tasks before I leave.
4. Represent my boss for the conference call with HQ, as my boss is in Indonesia for project execution now.
5. Been assigned as team leader for a company event, followed by team leader briefing.

Well, I'm damn enjoy these few days. Feel like I'm doing work :P
crazy huh?!

Lost in work again!

The more we grow, the easier we lost ourselves.
Do you agree with me?

Yes, I'm lost again~!
I'm lost in my work again~!
I wish I have a bright career, in fact, I didn't!
I wish my work is valuable & meaningful, but NOT!

I don't want an easy, or job with nothing to do!
I don't want just sit in the office do nothing, or just online, facebooking, etc..
I want something that can excite me, can bring up my talents, my interest~!

Well, I know it's hard to get something that I want.
I know this is the challenge for me...
Frankly, I just don't don't wish to waste time sitting in the office with nothing lo...
What should I do? What can I do?

S&P signed

Hmm... Quite a few days I didn't update my blog again.

Today, consider a good news for me, which is I went to sign my Sales & Purchase (S&P) agreement at my lawyer firm. Well, it's happy; at the same time, it's sad too... because I got to pay the remaining 7% of the downpayment.

That what I can said I'm broke! Totally broke! Before got the money out from EPF!!! Also, checked with the lawyer, I might be got the key by February or March 2011, if the owner side is OK!

As mentioned by the lawyer that, the owner still owe bank money, therefore the process might take longer, but she can help me monitor it. As I mentioned to her that, I would like to move into the house by May 2011 & I need to do some minor renovation, therefore, by March or April I must get the key already.

Suffer for the $$ again~!

Pray!!!

Few days didn't update my blog already. Today, I'm in mood to write something again. Well... Basically I'm worry about my mom's health now.

Last week when I back from China, my mom told me that she feel painful on her stomach while in Thailand trip. After back from Thailand, she is fine already. Last week, she told she having gastric. Then I asked her go to see doctor, but she don't want. She said don't want, because of the consultant fee is expensive. So, she bought gastric pill at pharmacy for 5-days.

After she took the medicine, she still feel the pain. I urge her go to see doctor, she still stubborn & don't want to go visit doctor. When the pill finished, she finally told she still in pain & would like go to visit doctor after scold by my aunt.

Also, a remind by my aunt that, she can claim via insurance if she bought medical card. I immediately called my sister to confirm, because she is the one who help my mom arrange the insurance thingy. A shock drop to me, which is she told me that mom didn't buy the medical card. She only buy the life insurance. #$%^^&*(

Immediately I back home from work, I pull out the policy & read. I also called up my friend who is working for the insurance company to double confirm. Well! The result is the same that, my mom do not have the medical card! But, I know I can't do anything at the moment, only can pray that my mom's stomach is fine.

Today, I'd just make an appointment with the doctor at Tung Shin Hospital. Will bring my mom visit the doctor tomorrow. Hopefully everything fine...

Pray hard hard~!!!

Bored

I'm so bored~
Because I'm nothing to do again~!
Please give me some tender request~~!
I'm died of bored~

I know some people want work as me...
But, I still didn't get used environment like this!
I want something to excite myself in work!

Haiz~~!!

跑~

最近，身边有很多朋友都往外跑。
有些是去外国公干，有些是去旅行，有些是移民。

虽然我本身也刚从旅程中回来，但我还是很羡慕这些朋友。
不知是否真地在国内待得太累了，还是找不到自己想要生活的乐趣呢。

人生是否到一段日子后就会停留在十字路口？
人生是否到一段年龄时就会迷失自己？

最近的烦恼又增加了。
可是解决的问题却没有减少到。。。

习惯胡言乱语的我
最近又发神经了~

下雨与心情

外面又响雷了
看似有要下雨了
就如我的心情
突然下起大雨

对着电脑
心绪完全不在此
如何找回自己的心？
如何让自己回到现实的生活上？

想念

我又回到了工作岗位上了。

假期结束了，心却还挂在远处~
想念着那里的天气和宁静
想念着那里的满天星空

七天的时间
说短不短，说长不长
就这样结束了
一切又成为回忆了~

赌徒

到底一个赌徒是怎么想的呢？

是否只要身上有钱就要去赌个清光才甘心呢？

是否为了赌，连自己的尊严也可以不要的向人借呢？

即使被人骂得一文不值时还不愿意悔改？

要如何才可以让一个赌徒彻底的戒赌呢？

空白

很想写些什么的。。。
可是，脑袋一片空白。
心里有些话想说，但是却无法将它变成字体。

这种感觉很空虚，很无奈。
好像也找不到方向。
后天，就要出国了。
好像没有任何的喜悦和期望。
不知道为什么，空虚的心情无法被愉悦起来~

一些不该有的回忆好像又突然间被挑起。。
那种回忆让我觉得烦躁和厌恶！
一些回忆却让我突然间很想念
现年当初快乐的我们，单纯的我们。。。

是因为老了，所以才比较多感触吗？
这几年里，我好像都很少真正快乐过。。
到底为何呢？快乐都离开我了吗？
是否可以抛开一切，不去想呢？
是否可以放弃一切，重新来过呢？

一些事物或许可以丢掉
但是，一些回忆是否也可以丢掉呢？
满脑子的事物，回忆不断的旋转
如何才可以将它们都抛出去呢？

写了一堆，却不知道自己到底在写什么。。。
也不知道自己想表达什么。。
就是盲目的写啊写的~

就当作废话连篇吧~

Miss my mom

My mom went to Chiang Mai 5 days already.
Didn't hear her voice, didn't chat with her, didn't see her face...
Hmm... start to miss her already.

But, another 2 days is my trip to Gui Lin for 7 days.
Wow... then it will be 2 weeks time didn't see her already lo...

Can't imagine if I relocation to outstation or I get marry lo...
Hahaha....

Start to day dream already. Too bored already :P

好朋友

再多几天，我就要去旅行了。
而我最亲密的好朋友到现在都还不来拜访。
我可不想带着这个好朋友一起去游玩咯~
我要去泡温泉咯。。。
怎么办呢？如何才可以让这个好朋友早点到访呢？
真的是无趣咧 :(

铁绣球

今天，我想讲一个故事：
有一个人用细铁丝做铁绣球。
当做到一半时，突然发现绣错了。
这个人决定拆除错的部分，然后重新绣。
谁知不管他怎么拆，铁绣球却缠得更严重。
当然这个人的手也被扎出多处伤口。

这个故事是说：
有些时候，执著会让一个人迷失。。。
当你恨一个人时，就是证明在你心里，你还无法放下他/她！

当一个人恨你时，请自动走开。
请不要以为假好心就会减少对方对你的恨。
因为那只是会造成反效果！

Happy vs busy

Finally, I got my offer to purchase agreement signed on 26-Oct-10!!!
I'm SO SO SO Happpyyy~~!!!

Now, I'm very busy. Due to I need to look for loan package, I need to look for some renovation stuff, I need to settle things with lawyer, need to get ready on some $$ as deposit, eg: TM, TNB, etc, and so on...

Everyday looking for information, which floor tiles I need to use for upstairs, what color I want to paint for my room, living room, dining room, study room, etc...

Haha.. getting busier at home. Coz I can't go out anywhere already, due to need to save $$$~~

Happy day

On 23 October 2010, I brought my mom go to have a look on a house.
Landed, free hold, double storey, 20x67 square feet, fully renovated, partial furnished & cheap~!
I like the house, due to I can save a lot on renovation part & furniture.

The only things that I need to service are the water pipe system, upstairs tiles, & cat painting.

Therefore, I decided to put on deposit for the house. My mom like it as well, especially the kitchen cabinets. It's really nice & new :) Here you go ;)
Today (25 October 2010), I will go to the lawyer firm to settle something.

Wow.. I'm so so so excited now ;)

为某事失眠~

有很多的问题，事情一直在我脑海里飞过！
想要好好睡一觉都成问题了。。。
脑累！心累！身累！都很累！！

很难抉择啊！

当你做决定，你会听取别人的意见吗？还是你只会根据自己的意愿决定而已？
比如说你要买屋子，你会考虑什么？

最近，我要买屋子，但是却面临很多问题和意见。
我的能力有限，我的要求也不高。
但是我却被要求得满足每个人。。。

我的要求是一间永久的，普通的单层或双层排屋，不需要大整修，价钱低于三百千。
在这么低的价钱里，我只能购买市区外的房子。
我找了很多市区里的房子，都是超过我的预算。
当然也很旧了，需要大整修。

除了找市区里的房子，我也找市区外的房子。
看了好几间，看到了符合我的要求的屋子，只是地点有些远而已。
家人却在这个时候说地点不适合，不愿意配合。

可屋价开始暴增，我不想再等下去了。
也不想再听太多的意见了，因为我不想到后来我什么都得不到而后悔咯～！
当年我就是听太多而到现在还没买到自己的屋子咯。。。
如果我真的买了那里的房子，或许我的家人会生气或不爽。
真的很难抉择咯～！

烦啊！！

钱

很多人说，我应该很有钱。
因为我很节俭，很会计划。
可是老实说，我的银行却比一般的人来得少。
这是怎么回事呢？

我的工钱比以前来得多，可是户口里的钱却没有增加到。
到底是怎么回事呢？
真的觉得自己很差劲啊~！

臭豆腐

你有尝试过吃臭豆腐吗？
很多人说，臭豆腐只是在煎炸的时候是臭的而已，吃下去是不臭的。
你敢试吗？

前几天是九王爷庆典，我和友人一起去九王爷殿走走。
虽说九王爷里面全是素食，但在九王爷殿外面却摆满摊子卖荤食。
当然，也卖臭豆腐。因为我要讲的就是臭豆腐嘛~

其一友人坚持想试吃，所以他买了一小合，刚巧里头有4个小豆腐。（而我们也刚好是4个人）
当友人在排队买臭豆腐时，我和另一个友人已经跑到远处“避难”了。
因为，那个味道真的是太难闻了，简直就像垃圾里头的臭水味。

当友人买了臭豆腐后，他来到我们的面前。
我看了一些时间，嗅了一些时间。。。
然后一个感觉就是：死就死啦~！

如果真的很难吃，那就不会有下次了。
结果，我真的吃下去了。
确实很臭，很难吃。。。

我绝对相信我不会再尝试第二次了！
那种味道真的很够难顶~！
如果你不曾试过，不妨试一试吧~

寂寞寂寞就好

最近，也爱上了这首歌~！

哭過就好了

一个朋友介绍了这首歌给我。
很感动，很好听～

喝酒

喝一口在嘴里

尝到苦苦的，涩涩的。。。

进到喉咙时
尝到刺刺的，辣辣的。。。

越喝越觉得口干，也就越喝越多
步伐越来越凌乱，脑子也越模糊

想到的和做的，都不再一致
为的只是要忘记，要昏迷～

不爽

不爽就是不爽！！！
再多的花言巧语还是一样不爽的~！
不要再假惺惺当作什么都不知道。
或许你只是借喝醉来投诉对我的不满！
如果是如此，那请放手让我调队！
我不希望在如此的情况之下工作！

对，我不积极，只因为你总是不能做主，决定！
我积极后，你却无法接受。。
你还想怎样？？

酒后吐真言

一个人酒后吐真言的话，你会听吗？你会在意吗？

昨天，是我的直属上司的bachelor's night， 他请我们一班人去喝酒。
他喝了很多很多。。却也说了很多。。。

其中他说了他不满意我。我们的部门总裁就问他为什么。。
他说：Eve is very smart, but she didn't reach my expectation. She can do more.
I replied in heart that, you didn't go for sales, how can I get the request from customer to do the tender? I'm just a tender engineer, I'm not sales. Some more I'm not train on the product knowledge.

After that, I went to ladies & he continue told them that: Eve is tricky.
The rest asked him: Why you said so?
Then, he unable to answer that.

Then, one of my colleague (we were from GE last time) said: She is good, she can handle 3 persons task while in GE.
You know what my dearest boss said?
He said: Don't fuck ar! That's not right!

If you heart this, what will you react & what is your feeling?
Well, my feeling was: How can judged me when you are not in that company? You not even know me that time & never see what I did last time. Some more, my previous was appreciate what I'm doing, is it means my ex-boss is blind? What means "Don't fuck?!" and what means that's not right?

In conclusion, I can said he is not satisfy on me at all.
In this conservation, I didn't deny or admit anything. I just kept quiet & listen what's in his heart.

If you were me, what will you react?

如果他不是我的直属上司，我不会理会这些对话。
但是，他是我的直属上司，却在大老板的面前数落我。我确实是放在心上。
我认为，如果他不满意我，他可以告诉我，要我改进。
但是，他没有给我这个空间，也没有告诉过我他要我做什么。
我告诉他我做完了该做的了，他也没办法给我任何东西。
那，他要我做什么？

I'm feel upset & disappointed. His words is surrounding me all over the night!

Eat, Pray, Love

昨天，我去看了这部电影：Eat, Pray, Love。

这是一部关于自己的故事。
发现现在的生活，现在的婚姻并不是自己要的。完全看不到自己的影子，找不到自己的热情，这种人生完全不是自己要的。。。所以女主角请求神给她指示，她该怎么做。。。

她的婚姻已18年了，他爱她，他总是做他自己认为她会喜欢的事， 但事实不然。
而她，告诉过他，她所不要的，但却得不到改变。
她认为他们太年轻结婚了，他们都不成熟。。。所以，她选择离婚。

离婚后，她去了意大利。
在这里，她学习意大利语，她学习放松，也吃了很多美食。

然后，她又去了印度修行，因为她想找到平静，找到可以依靠的神。
在那里，她学会打坐，她学会原谅自己。

再来，她去了巴厘。在那里，她找到她真正的爱，再次勇敢的爱。。。
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不错的电影故事。希望我也可以放下一切，去寻找自己~
寻找我的兴趣，寻找我的忠心，寻找我的爱~

我的妈妈~

前几天，我妈和我聊天。她又问我，还不去找男朋友啊？再不找就很难找到了。年纪越大，越难找到对象。。。我不需要你陪我，如果你的空就会来找我聊天就好，不然也可以打电话给我聊天的。

我的妈呀~！
我知道我妈担心我以后一个人孤零零过日子，所以她每天唠叨的催我去找男朋友。可，感情的事一直都是很难说的，不是说你要，那你就找到的啊。。既然没有对象，也没有人追求，我也不能怎么样嘛~

我的日子还是一样的过。我的人生还是可以一个人精彩起来。

妈啊，你放心吧。。。我会自己照顾自己的。。。
如果我的缘分来了，我会接受的。但如果我的缘分没有来，那也不可以强求啊。。
你不用担心我吧。。。

Recent updates

There was so many topics I would like to write recently, but until today only I manage to find some time. Who knows when times in, I forget what I want to write out. Really can't admit that I'm old now :P

One of the happening thing is my sister going to marry soon. Her boyfriend just proposed & recently they are busying looking for wedding rings (settled), wedding photo shooting (booked), ROM date (fixed), Dinner date (fixed), Dinner's restaurant (searching), Bed (booked), 过大礼 (not fixed yet), etc...

Whereby, I'm busy helping her looking around for the small little staff, eg: welcome gift for dinner, location to shoot photos, etc...

Also, I'm looking around for house for my own. I wish I could buy a house for myself & family by this year. The reason I wanted to buy it this year is because the houses might boosted up a lot next year onwards, as per my own prediction & news broadcast.

Updates until here at this moment, when I got more time then only continue again.

My first Redang trip

Last few days, I followed company event to Redang (23th - 26th September 2010).

This event is name: Rainforest to Reef, which collaboration with Reef Check Malaysia (RCM). Here is the explanation which copy from my company bulletin :P

"The Rainforest to Reef (R2R) project was selected as one of the 11 key programmes under the Alstom Foundation umbrella in 2008. Alstom Foundation pledged RM150,000 to this 3 year programme which is now well into its 2nd year. R2R remains committed to its main objective of educating children on 3 east coast islands on the significance of an interconnected ecosystem and the impact human activity has on this delicate balance.

Working together with Reef Check Malaysia and Marine Park Malaysia, Alstom identified Tioman Island, Perhentian Island and Redang Island for the R2R project. The activities planned start from April and last all the way to October, avoiding Malaysia’s traditional monsoon period."

Make it simple, here is our itinerary:
Day 1 (Thursday)
11pm - Gather at Office
11.30pm - Depart

Day 2 (Friday)
6.30am - Reach Perhentian Jetty
7.30am - Reach Merang Jetty
8.30am - 11am - Waiting for boat due to heavy rain
11.50pm - Reach Redang & briefing from resort
12.00pm - Lunch
1.30pm - Back to resort take nap
2.30pm - take boat out to Snorkeling
4.00pm - tea time
5.00pm - 6.45pm- Snorkeling around the beach
7.30pm - Dinner
9.00pm - Briefing for event on Saturday
10.30pm - back to resort sleep

Day 3 (Saturday)
7.00-9.00am - breakfast
10.00 - 5.30pm - Educate kids at Laguna Resort
6.00pm - 7.15pm - Snorkeling around the beach
8.00pm - Dinner
9.00pm - Attend a talk which regarding turtles
10.30pm - 1am - drinking beers & chit chatting with colleagues
1.00am - back to sleep

Day 4 (Sunday)
7.00am - Wake up
8.00am - Breakfast
9.30am - Check Out
10.00am - Walk walk at Summer MOMO shop & photo shooting
11.00am: depart from Redang
12.00pm: Reach Merang & go to fetch Perhentian group
Lunch, Dinner, reach KL office at 11.00pm

Conclusion for this trip, it was a great trip for me & I knew a few new colleagues/friends. Another fun things is I able to do snorkeling, which initially I was wondering I don't dare. This is a good tried for myself. hehe~~

Differences of working with American & European

All the while, I was working in america companies. This time, is my first time working in europe company. Yes, both are western companies. But their style are totally difference.

After working in this company for 5 months, I come out a comparison:
1. American just want outcome, no matter how you did it; European don't, they require you to answer every details & questions you with all the non-sense things.
2. American are flexible to change; European are reluctant to change.
3. American dare to try out new challenge; European dare not to challenge.
4. American allow/trust staff to work independently; European didn't allow you are capable than him/her.
5. American will listen on your proposal; European are ego & stubborn to accept your ideas.
6. American will look for the company benefits; European only look for personal benefits.
7. American are planning for long terms & looking forward; European are looking for short terms only.
8. American are helpful; European are selfish.
9. American are aggressive; European are defensive.
10. American are polite & gentlemen; European are rude & irrespective.

I was thinking whether I'm bias/prejudice on one side. But, these really what I can find out. Some more, European always not dare to fight among themselves & always shoot the bullets to us, which we are not the decision maker/problem maker.

Really feel unfair & messy. Kek Sim~!!!

2010年的生日

昨天，是我的生日。
一切和以往不变，只是陪我庆祝的不一样而已。
今年，只是同事和朋友请我吃饭而已。。

当然，有人请我吃饭已经是不错了。
原本还以为要一个人过呢~幸好老天爷待我还不薄啦~

不过，收到的祝福倒是很多。
有电话的祝福和信息，有书脸的留言和信息。
这让我有点受宠若惊。

心情当然也是不一样咯。
虽然年龄对我来说不是很重要，但是心态的确实不一样了啦。
以前的我，有很多的朋友会帮我庆祝生日，给我带来很多的惊喜和快乐。
如今的我，却希望朋友会来约我出去。
或许朋友都认为我一定有人约，所以都没有约我。。
老实说，我是有点小失望；不过，也接受事实啦~

幸好，在我生日的尾声，还是有事请让我觉得开心的。
那就是，我收到我领养的孩子给我写信来了。
我等了几个月的信，终于到来了。
而且是在我生日的这天送到我手中，属于上天给我的一个小惊喜~

感恩~！

洗掉过去

现在的人都视手机为不可缺少的物件，不管去哪里，手机总是不离身边。
如果一天忘记带手机，就好像忘记什么重要的事似的。

虽然手机并不是我的一切，也很少说没有带手机。
但是，手机却是我的方便物件。
我的手机，是我其中一个诉写心情和随时可拍下不错景色的物件。

在我心情欠佳，或没有网路的情况之下，我就会拿起我的手机，写下当时的心情。
有时候，写了会放上我的部落格；有时候却只是收藏在自己的手机而已。

最近，手机一直出现问题。无端端会自己要求关机，sim card 会无端端读不到。
让我以为我的心情和照片都被清除了。
那时候的心情，有点跌入低潮，但也有种放松。
低潮是因为我里头的照片，我还没有录出来。
放松是因为好像将里头不开心的清洗了。

可后来，sim card又没问题了，那些回忆好像又恢复了。
今天，我就是想将过去的不快都清洗掉。
就由手机开始吧~~

病

很久没有大病了。。最近，竟然病起来了。

从星期六早上开始喉咙痛，傍晚开始发烧。当时我人在巴生，朋友的车厂里修车。
朋友说要一起吃晚餐，所以只好等到他们放工才去吃晚餐。
吃了晚餐后，我匆匆赶回家，因为我知道我已经快到极限了。

回到家，冲个凉后，马上吃退烧药。然后，马上倒在床上了。
到第二天，原本有活动的，也没办法出席，因为还在发烧。
勉强的撑着，家里没有人，只好自己照顾自己。

记得还有一些水晶月饼的材料，所以转移自己的视线在做月饼上。
不久后，我的家人都回来了。不过，烧还是没有退。
晚上，爸爸煮了一碗清汤米粉给我吃。不过，人还是不舒服。

星期一，人依然在发烧，结果请了一天病假。
在家里睡了一天，感觉好多了。想想第二天应该上班了。
谁知，星期二凌晨3点，开始呕吐。
我想，可能是肚子饿，所以拿了片白面包。
吃了大概半个小时才吃完。
吃完后的半个小时，又再吐出来 :(

天亮后，再次去见医生。
医生初步怀疑是蚊症，所以替我验血。
报告出来，幸好不是，只是Virus infection 而已~

自制月饼

前几天因为公共假期-国庆日，而我又没有约会，所以我动手做了些月饼。
开始是大弟弟说他想吃，而我想想也很久没有动手做蛋糕或月饼了，所以决定动动懒惰的手。

买了一些材料，开始动工。
冰皮月饼：
冰皮的淀粉
冰水 （如果要颜色，将冰水换成冷的香草汁）
香精
牛油
冰皮的馅料

由于我想要颜色美一些，所以我将红萝卜搅烂，隔渣，取出它的汁后放进冰箱里待冷，来取代冰水。

将所有的材料（除了馅料）倒进一个盆里，混合所有的材料。然后用一块干净的湿布盖在粉团的扇面，带20至25分钟。

趁粉团好前，将馅料搓圆，每粒为50克。
等粉团好后，称20克一粒。
然后，将粉团涅扁，放入一粒馅料，再搓成一粒。
接下来， 放些署粉在月饼模里。
放在干净的桌上，用月饼模压上。记得，不要压太大力，也不要压得太轻哦。太大力会将所有的馅给挤出来；而太小力会压不出月饼的形状出来。

就这么简单，冰皮月饼就做好了。放进冰箱，冷了待吃就可以了~

水晶月饼：
燕菜粉
浓椰浆
幼糖
芒果酱
班兰叶
水
盐

首先，先做“蛋黄”。将幼糖，水和芒果酱一起倒进锅内煮滚。 过滤后，倒进球形冰格内冷库，凝固后取出，那么蛋黄就形成了。（1）

接下来，将燕菜粉，幼糖，浓椰浆，水，班兰叶，和盐一起加入锅里煮滚。过滤后，倒进小杯里，放入蛋黄（1），待凝固后取出，用小刀割纹。（2）

将燕菜粉，幼糖，浓椰浆，水和盐放进锅里煮滚，然后加入芒果泥一起煮滚。（3）
将月饼模弄湿，倒入少许（3）在月饼模里，待稍微凝固后，放入（2），在倒（3）入月饼模填满。待凝固后再扣出。

结果，水晶月饼就这样形成啦~

我的包包

说没钱，不买不买，结果又去买了一个包包~
说过会买一个大一点的包包，然后带着我的宝贝一起去游玩。
前几天和家人去云顶时，看到这个包包。。
原价RM129，折扣后变成RM39。
结果，买下来了。。。
再次宣告破产~ >.<"'

脾气坏

不知道是不是经期的关系，今天脾气特别糟糕。。

火气很快上头，脾气也很快达到高峰。。

还是听到一些话语后而脾气暴躁呢？

那些话的确不是什么好话

很努力的当做没听到，但是还是进入了耳里。

如此容易受影响，真是不好的现象！ :(

欧阳霏霏演唱会

昨天，我又去看演唱会了。

这次是和我妈妈去看欧阳霏霏的演唱会。

当然，也是免费票啦，地点也是云顶高原。

这次的演唱会意见不是很好噢～
舞台灯光是不错，很精彩。
但是，乐器音响太大，导致听不到霏霏在唱什么。

霏霏的麦克风完全听不清楚她在唱什么，在讲什么。。
所以，很多人在投诉。也在半小时之后，很多人开始离场了。

不过，幸好下半场比较好。
霏霏的麦克风终于听到一些歌了，虽然音乐还是很大～
但是人数已经减去２０%了。

整个演唱会，我只是注意观众的来来去去。
根本没有注意霏霏的演唱，因为真得听不清楚。
只有最后一首歌是我会的而已：感恩的心
哈哈~~

总结论是：４０分，不及格～！

我的土豆泥~

今天，心血来潮的给自己做土豆泥。

当然，如果你想要减肥的话，这就不是很适合啦。。因为土豆的能量蛮高的~

食料：

1. 土豆，最好选用新土豆，口感比较好。

2. 鲜奶

3. 黄油/淡奶油

4. 盐

5. 胡椒粉 （最好用黑胡椒粉）

过程很简单：

1. 煮一小锅水

2. 在水还没煮好时，将土豆削皮，然后切成小块/粒。

3. 等水煮开后，加入一些盐，然后再把土豆粒放进水里煮，中火煮到软透。

4. 当土豆软后，沥干水份，放入大碗或汤锅里。

5. 接下来，加入少许黑胡椒粉和鲜奶。先加一点儿，一边搅拌一边加，直到感觉不是很干就好了。

6. 然后把一小块黄油融化，加入大碗内（如果怕胆固醇高，可用人造黄油(margarine)代替。加多少根据个人喜好。多一点，香一些。一般4或5个中型土豆（像我们的拳头大小）加1/2杯黄油。

7. 接下来搅拌。最好使用搅拌机，因为做出来会比较滑。

如果吃不完，可以放进冰箱，当要吃的时候，拿出来弄热就可以吃了。也是小孩子喜欢的食物之一。多出来的土豆水可以当作上汤或者煮菜用。虽然卖相不是很好，不过，味道还不错啦。。 呵呵~ 给自己打75分。。及格~

今年第二份生日礼物

昨天，我收到了今年2010年的第二份生日礼物了。
第一份是我自己给自己的礼物嘛~
而第二份，是我的一个朋友提早送给我的。
因为，他在这个月尾要去上海读书了，所以提早送给我咯~

那是一条Perlini's Silver的手链。。
很精致的手链，加上星星的雕饰。
呵呵~是我喜欢的形状咧~

谢谢，我很喜欢这份礼物~

泳技

好几个星期没有游泳了。
昨天，心血来潮的去游泳。

还是老样子，去我姐男友的家。
和我姐，我姐男友的妹妹和我。这次，多加了我妈妈。
呵呵~
不过，这次我的耳朵却进水了 :(
很不舒服~

但是却也很开心。。。
这次，我又好像进步了一些。
之前，我总是觉得自己游不到，脚总是不对似的，屁股总是冒出水上。
这次，我的屁股不再冒出水上了，脚也好像游得比较正常，还可以一面换气游到终点。
虽然我游得不快，可是却还蛮享受的。

等我的蛙式泳技再进步些，我再学其它的招式。。。
呵呵~~

My baby

After dreaming for 2 years plus, my dream comes true :)
As I said, I wanted buy a camera as my birthday present.
This time, I really take my action instead of dreaming only.

Since past, there are a few camera models in my head.
Of course, I also request some comments from my friends who are professional in camera & photo shooting. They helped me checked on the specifications of the models that I gave & advise me on that. Whereby, I also asked a few friends helped me to look for the price.
At the same times, one of my friend brought me to camera shop to test the cameras & see the output. It's really so nice that the friend teach me how to test the cameras. Hehe ^^

After tested for 3 cameras, I know which camera model I prefer & wish to have. But, the price is slightly more than my budget. My budget is only RM1300. But the camera that I wish to have is RM1750. There are difference of RM450. (For me, RM450 extra is bit too much la... >.<'")

By calculating math, let's say saving RM2.50 per day, in 2 years time, I able to save for RM1825. (the friend brought me look for camera explain the math calculation for me :S ) The theory I understand, just happened that, this month is bit too tied for me...

After thinking for a day, I decided to go with it! Because a camera can be use for many years one. I want something that can satisfy with.. So, I decided to pay more.. hehe :)
And now, I got my own camera... My Baby :) wahaha

Here how my baby look like:
Excited~!

Zhang Xiao Hua

终于，我知道我的孩子是谁了。
前几天，受到world vision给我的来信。
里头是一些领养指南和程序，还有就是我领养的孩子的资料。

照片里的，就是我的孩子 - Zhang Xiao Hua
（华语应该是张小花吧。。要等她寄信给我确认她的正确名字）
一个可怜的孩子，来自河北的一个乡下。
今年13岁了，出世于1997年2月26日。
现年就读年级是6年级。
父母离婚了，现在和祖父母一起住。
健康状况一般。。

希望借助我的帮忙，我的孩子可以快乐，健康成长。。
小花，加油哦~~

惊喜

你喜欢惊喜吗？尤其是某些节日的惊喜，如：生日？
我相信很多人都喜欢吧？

我本身很喜欢给朋友带来惊喜。
很喜欢送朋友他们最喜欢的礼物。
因为，想看到他们开心的表情，惊喜地尖叫或流泪。
那么这个生日才会被记住。

在给大家这么多的惊喜时，当然有时候也会期望朋友也给我一些惊喜。
或许我的期望太高了吧，又或许我对朋友太有信心了。。
经过几次的经验，我学会了不再期待，不再等待希望了。
所以，我不再喜欢庆祝任何的节日。。

因为不再喜欢庆祝，所以每当生日即将来临时，我都会选择逃避。
也告诉大家我很忙，我的节目排满了等等。。
但其实，我只是一个人度过或者呆在家而已~

很白痴的想法和举动吧。。不过，也已经习惯了~

朋友

昨天和大学时的一位好友喝茶。
我们有很长一段日子没有联络了。
从前，我们的关系很要好，经常在一起读书，玩乐。
可是，却不知道为了什么，我们突然冷落了。

或许是我的问题吧。。。
他曾经追求过我，但是我却不想谈感情，所以选择了逃避，也让我们的友谊冷淡下来了。
因为处理得非常不成熟，所以其他的朋友都不认同我的 做法。

只好说朋友都不明白我，而我也不想解释，所以我选择一个人度过。
幸好遇见另外一个朋友，也是现在的你。。。
陪我度过了那时的日子。谢谢。。。

继续我该写的事。。。
虽然我们很少联络， 但我相信我们还不至于忘记对方。
昨天，他带他的新任女友给我认识。
很不错的女生，希望他们可以携手到老。。。

突然感觉我们的友谊好像回到从前，把我的回忆通通拉回来。
真的很怀念那时的日子~
谢谢你，朋友

我的部落格

最近，在我部落格里的朋友联系中，不断地在增加。
可，有我部落格网址的朋友依然还是那一个“你”而已。
或许是我的自私。。也或许是我的胆怯。
这里有太多我的私人空间和感受了。

这里是让我发泄的地方
我没办法将这些感受透露在外。
即使是我的家人，我也想要有自己的空间。
连我的名字姓氏都不愿意让人知道。

这一切只因：
我不想要太多的问候
因为那让我觉得不真实
我不想要太多的关心
因为那让我变得不坚强
我不想要太多的爱
因为那让我觉得害怕

侧田演唱会

上个星期六，我和朋友去看侧田演唱会。这是我第三次去看现场演唱会哦。。
（偷偷告诉你，这三次的都是免费票哦~呵呵~）
虽然我们的位子不是最完美的，但也不算最差啦。。。
因为，我们还算可以看到很清楚哦~

其实我对侧田并不甚认识，也甚少听他的歌曲。
不过，也算认识一两首他的歌啦。。

这个演唱会是在云顶举办的。
演唱会8点开始，由大马的传统舞蹈带领，然后就是迎接侧田上场。
现场属于满座，而且大家也很快地进入高潮~

在这个演唱会里，我看到的是一个实力派的歌手。
一级棒的乐器队，和很high的歌迷们。
这次的演唱会，也有些感动。
在唱到对他刻骨铭心的歌曲时，他哭了。
而且，在大家都在猜测他是否光头时，他将他那甚少会摘下的帽子摘下了。

他还现场秀了几场舞蹈。。。
尤其是那首sorry &　nobody。。很搞笑，很风骚。。
把现场的气氛high到高点。。

我们encho了2次，侧田也出来两次。。。
真的很不错~
演唱会在10.30pm圆满结束~！

Non of your business!

Today, I put my anger on my msn: 任何事情都丢给我，不知道谁才是真正的老板~！
Then, in the afternoon, I received a friend reply on my status.

"Don't put these in your online status. Is not proper & not good if this status reach your boss."

You know what?! My anger was raise up once I saw this. I know it might be a good intention from the friend. But, very sorry that I couldn't accept it. Therefore, I replied him that:

"Why I can't put my anger in anywhere I wanted to? I have the right to put it anywhere as I like! If I scare, I will not put. If I put, I don't scare people tell him or he know about this!"

May be my temper not good, my EQ is low. But, I still don't think there is a problem here lo! If you think this is a problem, then that's your business too. You don't dare to put it up also your business, non of my business. Why go to bother what I'm putting here?

If you are the manager, and you scare your staff do the same things to you, then you have to be aware on yourself & just monitor your staff, not me!!

愛情有什麼道理

今天，来上班的途中，听到这首来自李宗盛和张艾嘉所唱的歌曲。
很有意思，很喜欢。。
所以放上歌词与你分享：

其實一個人的生活也不算太壞
偶爾有些小小的悲哀
我想別人也看不出來　
即使孤單會使我傷懷
也會試著讓自已想得開　
對你不知道是習慣還是愛
當初所堅持的心情　　
是不是還依然存在
眼看這一季就要過去
我的春天還沒有來
你為何不調過頭去
讓我自已去面對這問題
你嚐試著不露痕跡
告訴我愛情的道理
你認為值得努力的
是我倆之間的距離
喔　　這一季　　
總算有些值得回憶

My kid

Today, I'm quite excited.
Because, I'm going to have a kid soon :)
Don't get surprise! I'm not pregnant. Hahaha...
How I going to have a kid then?

It just simple & easy.......
That is I signed up for a child sponsor.

I know there are lot pity kids outside who really need our help.
I'm not rich, but not as poor as them as well. So I decided to help out these pity kids.
As I said, I'm not a rich person, therefore I only sponsor a kid at the moment.
Which only cost me RM50 per month.

Only RM50, already can help out a kid, I think it's worth it.
I don't know how much I could help out, I just know at least they can have enough food or better education.

At the moment, I don't know my kid will be boy or girl, because I didn't choose it.
Just like when you pregnant, you will not know your baby inside is a boy or girl, until your baby has grow up to 5 months at least.

World Vision will assign the kid for me & the kid will know my name & I will have all the details/information of the kid.

Do help out a kid if you still manageable on your financial.

Hehehe... I'm so excited now :)

生日礼物

这么多年以来，我不曾给自己送过一份生日礼物。

今年，我决定送自己一份生日礼物。

一份我想了很久很久都不舍得买的东西。

如今，我要给自己实现这个梦：一部相机。

或许对其他人来说，一部相机不需要想那么久吧。。

可是对我来说，确实想要了两年多，却还是没到手的东西。

虽然不算太贵，却足以让我停留多时还不愿意下手的东西。

你可以说我吝啬，可以说我比较爱钱。

我不否认，但也不完全承认。

因为，我只花在我认为值得的地方。

而如今，我认为，是时候给自己送一份礼物了~

呵呵~~！

真心朋友

很久没有和朋友真正的谈心了。今天，一个好友来找我聊天。

我们谈得不是很久，但是却深入。

从我眼神和笑容，他知道我不是真正的开心。

很庆幸，我还有一个可以谈心的朋友。

虽然他已经成家立业了，有妻有儿了，但是还算珍惜我这个朋友。

虽然我们有时候还是会吵架，还是会意见不和。。

幸好我们还可以是朋友。。。

因为我们总是吵了后，又和好了。

谢谢你，朋友。。

我会尽量开心起来的~~

Face 2 Face meeting

Today, my company having a Face 2 Face meeting, which is almost similar as townhall meeting. In short, it means gather all the employees of the company in a ballroom, then listen to the top management speech & also raise up your questions if you have any doubt.

Well, this is my first time attend this meeting for this company. It's held at Westin Hotel, which is across the road from my office. The invitation was start at 7.45am with light breakfast & registered at the entrance of the hall. Me, reach office slightly early than usual. Then, walk to the hotel with other colleagues around 7.40am. After had a light breakfast, we head to the registration counter & collect our number for team building & door gift collection after the event.

After the 3 speech from the top management, we head to the team building. All people are group it according the number given during the registration. Look up your team members & start the games after the organizer said start. This game is pretty easy for me, as it was a common game when I was in University. Which is, a group of people in even number, then hold your hand to your opposite, but not next to you. And then untangle yourselves amongs the members in the group. As long as you know how to move on, then sure you can untangle it.

& my team, is one of the winner for the game. Know what, other than win the game, there is another happy thing. Which is, there is a handsome whiteman same team with me. Hahahaha.. But unfortunately, I forgot his name where he did told me his name when I were standing next to him.

Anyway, this handsome man has cheer the entire of my day. Hopefully I can meet him again in the future.. Haha...

有意思的书~

最近总是在想，我的快乐去哪里了？
要如何找回我的快乐呢？

今天，在等朋友的空当里，我去了书局，看到一本书。
书名是：蓝梅蛋糕的微笑。
这本书应该是属于小孩子的书吧。。可是我不在乎的拿起来读。
因为，我想找回我的快乐，我的微笑。。。

这本书的内容很简单，意思却很深奥和清晰。
而我，却是从内心发出了第一个微笑。

记得其中一个内容是说：
有一位和尚在一次的机缘下，他来到一个城市。
但是在逗留这城市的数天里，却遭到一位先生的辱骂和恶言恶语。
和尚一直都没有回音先生的辱骂。。
直到最后一天，和尚问先生一个问题：如果有个人向送礼物给你，而你拒绝接受，那么那份礼物应该归谁？先生回答：那应该归回送礼的那个人。
然后，和尚点点头说：那，这几天你送我的礼物，我都拒绝接受。
先生楞了一下，才醒觉自己在打自己的嘴巴。

很有意思吧？我是这么认为啦。。。
结果，我给自己买了其中一本书，希望从里头找到我要的简单快乐。。。

健康状况

最近，我的身体状况好像不是很好。 除了发烧，伤风，咳嗽，喉咙痛等等。。。
不知道是否是压力还是其他的原因。最近，经常会无端端的头痛，不然就是头晕，胃痛。。

就说几天前，和以往一样的吃晚餐，份量也和平时差不多一样。但就是不明白，胃痛突然发作。由于太痛了，所以吃了颗胃痛药就去睡觉。

第二天，一如往常的上班和做瑜伽。谁知瑜伽后，突然感觉头晕，脚步轻飘。
这是我第一次有这种症状。休息了一会儿，就驾车回家。
回家路途，一直觉得肚涨，想要吐， 一直忍到回家。
一到家就往厕所冲去，将吃过的东西都往马桶里吐去~
然后，也不敢不吃或者吃太多晚餐，所以只是勉强的吃了两口饭和半碗汤而已。
随后，吃了颗药就去睡觉。。。

过后，还是一样照常来上班。有时候会突然间头痛，或者突然间觉得晕。
不然，会突然间眼前一片黑暗。即使坐着不动，也会如此。。。
所以，有点怀疑自己是否血糖低。。。

希望我可以快快好起来~！

Angry!!

Angry! Angry! Damn ANGRY!!!

Tell me this is urgent & want it on Friday, then ask me for another task!
If this thing is urgent, of course I will focus on it before others.
Yesterday evening only pass the things to me, then expect me to complete it on Friday, whereby Friday morning session have whole company meeting.
The things need time to read, understand & analyse~! & the document has 234 pages & only give me 1.5 days in total!!

Fine!!! I do it & don't complain about it.

Saw me in reading the documents, ask me about another things! which can't be complete by one day too!!! SO, which one is urgent?!

Just now, I go to my engineer & ask for something. Then he told me that, this things can't be done yet, due to not enough data. So, the boss ask him to focus on another project.

DAMN!!! Why don't tell me that?! Which one URGENT?!

Unable to communicate!

How to make you understand, if you just block your mind to accept new things?
How to communicate with you, if you stubborn to accept anything discussion?
How to follow your steps, if you have no idea what you are doing?

Many many times, I wanted to talk to you!
Many many times, I wanted to propose something to you!
Many many times, I wanted to know what is your direction & my direction!

I tried not to complain, accept what you are doing, but get fed up.
I tried to work out something which is good for us, for the team, but get rejected with cold water.
I tried to ask for direction & understand the work, but get the answer as I DON'T KNOW!!!

Then, what you want me to ask anymore? I feel whatever I asked, I get the answer that I not happy with, then why I have to ask some more? Since you don't have the direction, then what you want me to ask some more? Since you can't guide me, I need to find someone who can direct me, is this wrong? I don't want work with brainless or only arguement.

Sometimes I argue, I just want you to listen to my idea. If you not agree, then give me a rational or concrete reason why you reject it. But, not the answer of NO NO NO, the HQ not approve one... You know what, I feel that you are not DARE to challenge those people! I don't understand, if you able to prove them, why not just tell them & explain to them? I don't understand, why never try already give up the chance!!!

I don't want to argue with you anymore, I just keep quiet & do what is necessary & also the task that you pass to me. Like that, you also want to complain? Then, what you want?!

Damn f**king dissatisfied & boh song!!!

空闲

当大家都在忙碌的时候，我却无所事事的装忙~！
真的不喜欢这样。。。
不喜欢没有事做，好像我没有贡献似的。。
我喜欢大家一起忙，一起空闲。。
一个人空闲，真得很无聊咧！

发梦差点被强奸

昨晚，又发梦了。。 所以，今天特别累和悃。。

昨晚的梦，比上次的还要刺激。
怎么说呢？故事内容还蛮清晰的：

我和友人一起制作了孔明灯，然后燃放~
刚开始，孔明灯顺利的飞起来。
突然间，一阵风吹起，孔明灯就燃烧起来了。
当我看到孔明灯燃烧起来时，我和友人随着孔明灯降落的地方追去。
谁知，燃烧的孔明灯降落在工厂区而引起了火灾。

在我们赶到去那里时，友人马上致电给消防局求救。
我到现场后，我看到一个男生在强暴一个女生。
而我认得这个男生是一个刚逃狱的强奸犯。
我的反应给自己带来了麻烦，因为他知道我认得他了。
我对他说我什么都没看到，我也不会说出去的。
然后，我快快逃开。
在我逃开时，我听到他对我说：你很美。。
而他的眼神是非常的淫荡和渴求的！
我非常害怕，快快逃离，跑到朋友那里去。
然后，我偷瞄，发现他一直在注意我的方向。
我的直觉告诉我，他会找出我，然后强奸我的。
我很害怕，我告诉朋友有人要强奸我，可是没有人相信。
我告诉家人，他们以为我开玩笑。

其中一个友人听到，马上将此事告诉慈济团体。
他们马上派人来找我谈，也和一些部门集团合作，来帮助我。
交谈中，他们教我该怎么做。防卫，保护自己，留下证据等等。。。
谈完后，他们护送我回家。
私底下，他们已经安排了一些人在我身边保护我。

在我回家时，我发现一个女生，打扮得很耀眼。
金头发，白低胸连身裙，一脸浓妆。。。
由于她是女生，所以我没有多加防备。
在我锁上锁头，要关起木门时，发现我的木门的锁坏了。
当时屋内开着灯，所以我很快就发现不妥。
随后，这个女生不知何时已经打开那把枷锁。跟随进来了。
我吓坏了。。。
然后，那个女生用一把男生的声音说: 你真美！我忍不住了！
就向我扑过来了！随即，我就吓醒了。。。

由于一早来到公司有时间，我又去找解梦了。
解梦说：女人梦见自己被强奸，会患病。
而今天，我确实是喉咙痛咯 :(

自我检讨

今天，我突然发现是否我自己的问题，所以导致经常不满他人。。。是否我开始无法接受他人的意见？或者我不满意别人不接受我的意见而有偏见？

是否年纪越大，我开始关闭自己，不接受外来的话语？或许我应该打开自己，让自己接收多方面的咨询！

看来，是时候整理自己的思维了。让自己成长，也让梦想成长。。。对自己说：不要总是说，说了就要做！不过，到目前为止，我还是什么都没做！真是悲哀和惭愧！

理清思绪，情绪，和心情。。。计划目标再冲刺！希望下一个目标就在眼前或下一步！

爽约

很不喜欢这种感觉！
答应了，最后却又要换时间。。

一项情绪管理都不是很好的我
在面临事情都会被情绪所影响
一直努力的克制，还是无法遮掩那种愤怒！

我不喜欢爽约，也不喜欢别人失约！
如果真的办不到，那就不要勉强地答应我，然后又拒绝或延迟。
我知道很多时候并不是我们能控制的。
但我却相信，时间却是自己安排的。

很多时候，是因为某人不愿意去，自己也跟着不去了。
这种态度更令我讨厌。。如此婆妈和抓不定主意。。。

算了，深呼吸！
给自己清静和情绪恢复的空间~

Bad manner & unprofessional government doctor!

Such a bad manner & unprofessional government doctor! Damn angry with it!

My brother was not well today, so he didn't go to work. His company only has 1 panel clinic & far in town, also don't allow them to claim if go for other clinic. As his salary is not much, so he decided to look for government's one. At first, he went to the Hospital Ampang, which opposite my house. But, the hospital only for emergency & serious illness, so the hospital suggest him to go for government clinic at somewhere Ampang. Since he don't has transport, therefore he has to wait until I reached home.

The clinic is operate until 9pm. After the dinner, I fetch my brother to the clinic. Not much people there & waited for 30 minutes until my bro's turn. Got into the room for only 2 minutes & came out for collect medicine.

As I don't follow my brother enter the room, so I asked my bro, how come so fast one? Did the doctor give you medical cert? He told me, the doctor didn't check his temperature at all, just ask him open the mouth & see the throat. Then, asked him go out & take medicine. For the MC, they don't give for those see doctor at 5pm to 9pm time…

After collect the medicine, I asked the nurse, how about the MC? Because my bro need to submit it to his company. The nurse told, MC is given by the doctor one, just ask doctor give the time slip also can.

So, we back to the doctor. We waited until the patience come out from the room only enter the room. I think I already in a polite manner. We knock the door, we enter & I greet and asked politely. She replied with unpatient & unpolite manner, with almost shout! I just asked her: "Can I have the MC for my brother, as he unable to work today." Then she replied that, "I don't allow the MC." I asked again, "Why & how you judge?" She replied me: "I don't think he cannot work! The MC only give to those people really very sick & really can't go to work. Also, we wouldn't give MC after 5pm one!" My temper almost reached to max, I took a breath & said, I need to work also, I only finished work at 5 something or 6pm, how can I reach here by 5pm?! Then only she said she can give the time slip with very unsatisfy face! Also, start 'hantam' & 'throwing' things on the table! WTF!!! @\¿#*¥%$ But, I still said thank you to her...

Really angry & unsatisfy with these people!! Damn hate it! This is why people hate to go government department!!! Super bad attitude!!!

抱怨

有时候我在想，是否我抱怨太多了呢？
是否我的要求太高了呢？

我通常抱怨的都是我的工作。我不是抱怨工作太多，而是和上司的处事方式不一样，而他不了解。总觉得他对我不信任，对我不满意。而我知道我也不满意他那态慢的动作。我知道这是我自己本身的问题，我不应该如此。。。也很努力的去停止这种想法，但还需要时间去调适。

或许我没有在这方面的经验，或许我没有很好的脾气。但是我却愿意学习，只要给我正确的管道和指导，而不是什么都是我自己去找管道学习。或许对其他人来说，这不算什么。但是，对我来说，我并不喜欢。既然不愿意让我去实习，那么就给我正确的质询。而不是一句： “I'm the best person to train you, nobody is better than me already.” 然后什么都没有给我。。。

他是曾经教过我一些事务，但是就那么的两次。却告诉了全世界，他教了我很多。有同事说，你的老板很有耐心，很肯教你东西。所以，不要经常埋怨，做工要开心。。。但是我想说，因为你不是报告给我老板，你或许可以这么说，你或许可以说我经常在抱怨，而不知道真实的理由。而我觉得我也不需要和你叫袋或解释。即使我知道那样对我不公平，但是我也不想再多说废话。

我工作，我希望可以沟通的老板，而不是因为自己老，有经验，而施压身份和压力。我知道我没有product经验，但是不代表我就没有其他的经验。不要只是认为自己的就是对的，他人就是错的。而是应该接受他人的意见咯。

如果认为我抱怨太多，我不说话咯，那么满意了吗？
累人~！

1st drinking session with the whole department

Yesterday, was our whole department went for drinking & get crazy day. It also my first time to join for this kind of drinking session with colleagues.

The drinking session is start bit early, which is about 5.30pm. Due to Yan & I have yoga class, & one of the boss (HS) have webex training, so we joined the drinking session after the Yoga & training, which is 7.30pm.

When we get into the pub, a few start getting "high"~~ because of they had drink for 2 hours earlier than us. Haha! Since 3 of us was super hungry, so we only focus on the food at the beginning. Only after that, we joined the crazy theme with the rest. Coz the big boss (MD of the department) start come to us & "yam sing" with us..

On the night, we talked a lot, we drink a lot, we get crazy a lot, we make our relationship in the department become stronger, etc! At first the guys want to make the gals drunk, but at last, most of the guys get drunk & the gals still can walk cat-walk. Hahaha... It really funny!

After the drink, most of us can't drive back yet, therefore we went for second round for a tea session. We continued making noise, talking non-sense due to drunk, looking for food due to hungry, etc... We hang for the tea session until people "halau" us out of the food court (10.30pm) due to they want to close & clean off the floor. Then only we move back home.

Haha.. Was thinking, how good if the drinking session is on Friday night. Coz next day we don't need to work mar :P

Anyway, today we all still back to the office & continue work as usual :) Nice drinking session. We looking forward for another one!! Hehehe ^^

梦见自己坠楼

昨天夜里，突然下起倾盆大雨。
雨声把我唤醒，很快的，我又在入睡了。

不知在几点，我进入梦境里。
在梦里，不知怎么的，我看见自己在攀墙。。。
动作是从容不迫的慢慢往上爬。
看到自己家的窗口时，我伸手要抓住那里的铁环。
谁知，铁环好像突然离我很远了。
我没办法抓到那个铁环，可以站的地方使脚步站不稳了。
而后，我就看到自己往下跌。

然后，我就自己惊醒了！
不知道是否跌死了，还是完好无恙。
今天来到公司，给自己上网解梦。

哈哈~！答案有几个：
1. 梦见自己坠楼或从高处跌落 --> 要留心日常生活上的细节，会因粗心大意而犯错误。
2. 梦见失足坠楼 --> 意味着会面临困难，积极应对会克服困难。
3. 梦见自己从楼顶上掉下来，再掉下来的时候却惊醒了--> 表示不健康或有疾病。

看来要注意下了。。

Free Day~

Today I'm quite free oh..
The reason is because, my boss is not around for a week oh~
So happy & relax~

Nothing much to do... So, slow down my working progress...
Half nap, half chatting, half working, etc...
Of course, also working in facebook, blog, etc lo...

Since boss not around, I wanted leave office early, as I came into office early also.
Today I need to go for facial & bring my mom for massage too..
So, totally compact my day after working time :P

Super long didn't go for facial already. It's time to relax again ^^

小意外

前几天，我和以往一样放工后，驾车回家。
习惯性的我，都会在最堵车的地方割车。
当然，那天也不例外咯。。。

不过那天，当我割车后 （在最左边的路线），我看到一辆车（在中间的路线）停在那里，不动。。。
我就觉得奇怪而多看两眼。。

然后，我看到一个“东西”在那辆车的前面。
因为只是两眼，所以看不清楚。。
再看清楚时，原来是一个人。。。
我相信他应该是被那辆车撞倒吧。。。
看着他慢慢的爬起来，然后再一拐一拐的走到路旁。
而那辆车的司机却没有开门下车，看看被撞倒的人状况如何。
不知是社会的现实，还是人性的残酷？

而且，我也奇怪，在这么堵车的情况下，是如何撞到人的呢？

又起价！！！

今天，汽油，石油，糖又起价了。。
汽油从原本的RM1.80到RM1.85。。。
然后再说，我国的汽油还是算本区域最低的国家。。。
但是，却忘了说，本国还是一个出产油的国家~

不知道是我们的政府问题，还是国民问题。。
只知道每次起价，我们国民就要受苦，就要负起这些昂贵的价钱。

而那些高官，吃了多少钱，这有去调查吗？
帮助一面亏钱的国产车公司，这是理智的行为吗？
而是否真的没有赚到钱还是被人做手脚，这还是其次呢。。

每次政府不够钱花了，我们就要面对货物起价，这是公平的对待吗？
当这些货物起价时，是否也应该起我们的薪水呢？

什么一个马来西亚？！需要帮助的华人是永远不会得到帮助的~！
现在的人民都是聪明的，受过教育的。。
政府的如此行为只让我觉得可笑！

平衡的生活

刚开始在社会打混，我总是看到很多的人很努力的工作，工作，工作。。
大家都只是为了工作而工作，为了金钱而工作，为了目标而工作。。
却忽略了我们应有的生活。。。
或许你不是，不过我确实是如此。。

我每一天的时间都是在工作上，完全忽略了我的生活和家人。。
可能我希望在短时间里学得更多，更快。
所以，我牺牲了时间，将它完全花在工作上。
而且，也发现很多人也一样，没有一个平衡的生活。

经过这五年的“磨练”，我发现了不一样。
我发现我不再和以前一样那么疯狂的工作。
我发现我面对工作也会累。
我发现我开始重视我的生活。
我发现我已经不喜欢加班。
我发现很多人都已经不再愿意加班。
我发现很多人开始准时下班。

以前，8点多放工，马路上还是很多车辆。
现在八点多放工，已经看不到以往数量的车子在道路上了。
因为，现在的堵车情况是在5点多-6点多之间。。

你有发现这个现状吗？
你的生活平衡吗？
一起来分享吧~

Lollipop~

Do you like Lollipop??
Hehe..Yeah, I like it oh~~
Last time when I was working in GE, due to my seat was kind of isolate place. Therefore, I can do whatever thing that I want. Because nobody can see it mar, except my senior :)
Remember that time, when I was stress or bored, then I will go to buy the lollipop with my colleague. Then, we will had the lollipop at our own place.

Today, I just notice that one of my colleague here also like lollipop. We talked about lollipop... Is kind of happy topic.. Hahaha~~ & the good thing is, my colleague give me one lollipop of hers to me.. hahaha.. long time didn't eat lollipop already. Almost forget the feeling of having it ^^

Enjoying the lollipop is kind of release stress. Do you have the same feeling too??

节省

我认为我不是一个很会节省的人，因为我的银行总是没有很多钱。
可是，我承认我也不是一个很会花钱的人。因为，我不舍得花。。。
有时候我会想，到底我的钱都到哪里去了呢？

我不喜欢名牌，因为对我来说，那是一种施舍。而我没有那种命水让我如此花费。
我通常只是买有用的东西，很少摆设的东西。
我只花在应该花的东西上，如果东西太贵，即使我再喜欢，我还是会放下不买。

刚开始，工钱不高，加上吉隆玻的生活水准又高，所以每个月的工钱好像只能够刚刚够用在自己身上而已，根本无法存到钱。 过后的第二份工作，可以赚加工费，所以为了赚多点钱，我几乎每天都加班。当然，其中一个原因也是因为工作太忙碌而必须加班啦。到了第三份和现在这份工作，因为没有加工费了，所以尽量不加班咯。

至于花费，大多数是在我的家人身上咯。。。如：屋租，水电费，家用，弟弟的生活费，停车场的费用，吃喝，车油，保险，信托基金，PTPTN等等。。。每个月的总花费最少都要2千。。。所以要存钱真的是有点辛苦。

不过，为了要买屋子，现在我限制自己每个月最少要存几百到一千之间。给自己订一个目标，这就是我存钱的方法。。不知道管不管用，但还是努力的去做。。。

红地毯

看着友人一个一个步入婚姻的红地毯，真的很为他们感到高兴。
当然，也曾经幻想过，何时才轮到我步入这婚姻的红地毯呢？
是羡慕，却也觉得无奈~
因为，月老没有给我安排对象。
又或许我没有在对的时间里抓住属于我的幸福。
所以，无怨他人，只怪自己不够聪明。

不曾为自己努力过，争取过任何一段感情。
因为，总是认为，“是你的就是你的”。。。
可却忘了“是你的却也会因错过而流失”。

目前，虽说在适应以后都是一个人过活。
不过，有时还是会有一些许的幻想。
只是，这种幻想已不再是一种期待了。
而是，一种久违和遥远的梦幻。

***很喜欢一首奶茶的歌：一个人的孤单***

工作历史

在还没开始说如何节省，或许应该说我的工作历史吧~

再多几个星期，就是我工作5年纪念了。从八月一日，2005年开始工作至今，老实说，我没有存到很多的钱。

怎么说呢？其实我也感觉到有些惭愧~
刚开始工作，因为不想进入自己修的课系 - 银行与金融，所以我可说我从低开始我的工作经验。很多人都说我浪费，银行的福利都很好，为什么我不愿意进入。我知道银行的福利好，但是提升的机会很少，起薪的八仙率也不高。我知道我的性格，我喜欢挑战，我喜欢新鲜，我喜欢生意。。我却不喜欢古板，不喜欢一成不变，不喜欢重复。。。所以，我知道我不会喜欢在银行里面工作。

所以，我的第一份工作是打印信用卡。那是一间刚开始营业不久的IT公司。。加入这件公司，几乎一切都没有，我必须和上司一起携手处理文件，写程序，写规矩，如何操作机器手册，等等。。。在这间公司，我只待一年，因为我看不到可以让我继续学习的地方了。

不过幸运的是，不是我特地去找工，而是headhunter来找我的。而后，我也很顺利地进入GE。在GE的日子很开心，工作也不断增加和忙碌。由于我不是永久员工，所以，每年我都必须等待公司的确认和更新我的合同。 在那里工作了两年，原本还以为一切顺利的，结果一次的金融风暴，加上不守信用的新上司，我没有工作了。

经历了没有收入的痛苦，那种压力真的很大。我比自己去做兼职，然后一面去面试。终于，我在两个月后找到了新工作。收入比从前高，做的事务比从前简单，但是，却做得不怎么开心。可能没有看到任何的挑战吧~然后在那里工作了一年多，又换工了。

现在，这是我第四间公司了。其实，我不希望一直换工作，但是很多时候都很难控制。希望我会做得开心，也可以长久~

给自己的新任务

低落了几天，甚至几个星期。。
这两天，我又开始给自己新的任务。。。
只因为我希望看到进步~

也在这两天里，完成了一些事务。
当然，这些任务不是老板交给我的，而是我认为这是应该要有的程序或底线。
不是老板没有给我工作，只是我已经做完该做的了。
而这些自己给自己的任务，也将会呈报给我老板。

希望他不会再让我失望， 不会再让我低落。。。。

Change blog's template

Today, I changed my blog layout & background :)
Hehe ^^

I know this is not a big change, but at least something new la...
Hope you will like it ;)

If you think it can be improve, just let me know, I try to change & make it better ;)

Movie: The Back Up Plan

I was went to watch "The Back Up Plan" alone...

It was a great movie, for me... It's comedy + romance

I love the actress & I think my characteristics seem to be alike as this gal in the movie.

People said her: stubborn, don't trust man, etc

In the movie, she just want her baby, because she just want a family~~

Not everyone would understand this kind of thinking. But, I do.

I do wish to have my own baby, where I don't need a man be with me.

I hardly to believe love can be last forever, as I can see lot of divorce cases happen around me.

But, if I have my own kids, then they will always be my kids..

I don't have a happy family, therefore I wish to create a happy family for my own.

This is what I always wish for. Therefore, I said I understand why this gal in the movie has this kind of thinking.

Anyway, she is lucky in the movie that she got her own shop/business..

She found the guy who really love her & willing be with her, even she got the baby

She in the country where can accept to be a single mother~

And all these, is hardly to be happen in the real life~

第一次一个人看电影

一直以来，都喜欢尝试自己一个人去看电影。
终于，今天尝试了。

我的结论是，还不错~
一个人看电影并不怎么样。。

反正，看电影也不过是一起去看戏而已。。

也见不到话啊，所以一个人去也没怎样哦。。。

加上，一个人去看电影，好处也蛮多的咧~

如：

1. 喜欢几时看就几时看啊。。不需要迁就他人的时间啦

2. 喜欢看什么戏也可以啊。。不用勉强自己看不想看的戏嘛~

3. 也不用特地找人陪看戏啦。。找不到人陪也只有失望的份。。

4. 喜欢在哪里看戏也行啊。。不用特地跑到大老远去看一部戏啦，除非有人载。。

5. 喜怒哀乐也只有自己知道啊，不用忍住或者怕朋友看到而取笑嘛

反正，好处多多啊。。

所以，以后我会自己去找节目，自己去看戏啦~~

原来，一个人还是有很多事情可以做的，只要愿意~

越来越瘦

朋友问我：“嘿！你怎么越来越瘦了？”
我总是回答：我还是一样啦，没有改变啊～

虽然，我是清楚的知道。。。
原本非常贴身的衣服，现在穿起来已经有些松弛了。
原本贴身的裤子，现在也觉得松松的了～
但是，我依然是吃那么多
依然没有减吃或减肥
就是不知道为什么开始一直瘦下去～

可能是压力吧。。。
也可能是睡不好。。。
希望情况会有改进。。。

人生

人生的目标，到底是什么呢？
长大后的我们，到底要的是什么呢？
有时候真的很怀疑，人为何而活？
人是否要活得这么累呢？

当初的冲劲，去了哪里？
当初的好动，去了哪里？
当初的愿望，遗失了吗？
当初的梦想，不见了吗？

盲目的工作，却没有目标
盲目的赚钱，却用在他人身上
我盲目的努力，都在为什么呢？
只为了一个盲目的人生吗？

Down & Moody

I been down for few days, almost a week...
But the down mood still not leave me alone.
How could I remove the feeling?
How can I cheer up myself?

Feeling moody & bad temper!
Getting no words to talk
No energetic for everything
No aim for future~!

Am I changed?
Or I just not satisfy my current situation?
Or I really feel tired on what I'm doing so far?
What should I do???

一个人爬山记

不曾试过一个人去爬山

今天，终于尝试过了~

原来并没有想象中的困难和不安

不需要追着朋友的脚步走

不需要追赶时间冲

只要慢慢的

随着自己的能力

随着自己的呼吸和脚步

还是一样走到顶

还是一样走到底

或许别人用一个小时完成

我却用两个小时完成

不过，最终还是一样完成它

没有感觉到孤单

因为有树木陪伴

没有感觉到寂寞

因为有丛林的味道

享受一个人的清静

享受一个人的漫步

人生的第二个奖牌

昨天，我又完成了我人生第二个奖牌了 - 十公里的马拉松
这是我的第三次马拉松，不过只有两次是有奖牌而已。。
虽然我不是很满意我的成绩，不过还是坚持的完成任务，那已经是很不错了。

我不满意的原因是我的状况不是很好。
慢跑了2公里，突然经痛，双脚突然没力。感觉就要倒下去了。。
当时，我有打算放弃了，如果看到救护车，我会招手，上车的。
结果，一路上都没有看到。。。

过后，我被逼停止跑，改用为快走。
下斜坡，我就跑；肚子没那么痛时，我就慢跑。。
一直到8公里时，我看到朋友。
然后我们就一起快走和慢跑的一起到终点。。。

这次，我用了一个小时35分钟才抵达终点。
虽然慢了5分钟，但是还是欣慰可以安全的完成这个比赛~

失眠

很久没有失眠了
昨晚，却失眠了！

很难入睡的我，在入睡后的半小时里，
被自私的家人给“吓”醒！
被惊醒后，又收到一个恐怖的信息！
把原本就难入睡的我，完全陷入睡不着！

真他妈的！
真是讨厌那些自私的家人！

开心的女孩

朋友都说，我是一个开心的女孩。

任何时候都把笑容带在脸上

有时候，朋友还会开玩笑的说：

“很想看看你哭的样子是如何的。。”

其实，我也和一般的人一样会哭的。。

只是我选择自私的将哭和不开心的成份隐藏起来。。

有时，我会用文笔带出我的伤感和感性~

却用玩笑或哈哈笑带过朋友的疑问

看懂的朋友会有几个，我不知道

看不懂当中意识的朋友只当作我的文笔泛滥

有时候，或许会期望某个“他”会看懂

但是，这个“他”却不曾出现过

或许，我只想带快乐给大家

就如小丑一样~

夜深人静和摘下面具的时候

就是最真实的自己~

心灵文章

很久没有给自己的心灵写文章了
今天，回看我曾经留下的文字
才发现，原来我还可以写出一些感性的话语
及深深发出内心的话语

如今的我，迷失了自己，忘了自己
已经不知道如何将内心的话用文字表达出来了

我要找回我自己
给自己找回生气
给自己带来希望
因为我要活得精彩
不管是工作，人生还是任何的事!!

我妈子

最近发现我的妈子老了很多。
以前的她，犹如superwoman。
家里的大小事都是她一个人完成。
家里的每一处都是打扫得干干净净的

在家，她把我们照顾的无微不至
我们生病，她会尽心尽力的照顾我们。
她很少生病的，即使生病，也很快会复原的。

如今，她老了
身子也弱了。。。
但，她还是很少会生病。

只是，我很害怕她生病
昨天，她吃了晚餐后就开始不舒服
我很担心她。。。
也开始明白身为父母关心一个孩子的心情

幸好，今天妈子好了

Miss my dancing class

I miss my dancing class so so much~~
After I stopped for almost 2 years.
I really hope I can go back & continue learning dancing again~
Miss it so much~~

相似

今天，公司来了两个同事。
其中一个，当我正式正视他。。
让我感觉很不自在

在他的身上，我看到他的影子
让我突然觉得很难受加上排斥~
他可能会觉得我很冷酷
而且没礼貌 （因为我不看他）
但是，我真的没有办法 :(
希望明天后，我可以把他当正常同事

还是痛

很久没有提起他了
再次提起，没想到还是感觉到痛
不过，已不如从前了
以前的痛，还会有少许的希望
如今的痛，不过是痛恨自己的愚蠢！

一切的一切，已经不再回头
也不会回头！
这就是他给我的教训~

##爱情，让人憧情
浪漫，让人陶醉
谎言，让人迷失
人性，让人害怕
婚姻，让人怯步##

这一切都必须慢慢复原
或许永远都是一个人~
又或许有人可以感化我~
一切都随缘吧
不愿再去追求~

Wrong timing

This month, my best friend really come in the wrong timing!!

Tomorrow I need to go Melaka & attend a wedding dinner. Now only come to visit me!!! :@

Not only not convenience for me, also not comfortable for me :(

Very very pain ar!!!

Good comment on me

Today only I know I have a good personality record from my friends. It really a shock for me. The person who judge me is a guy, but unfortunately he is not available.. hahaha..

The good comment that he gave to me are:
1. Good Education
2. Good Looking
3. Quite Cute
4. Independent
5. Good Body Shape
6. Likes Outdoor
7. Good Temper
8. Good relationship record
9. 懂得珍惜人
10. Talkative

What a funny comments, right???

Meet up with 20 years old friend

Yesterday, I was met up with a very very long & old friend - Sam. We know each other since we were 8 years old until now.. After form 5, we lost contact & now because of "Facebook", we link again. It really a great link back...

We meet up since 9am until 10pm. It was a long long day :)
At first, we had a breakfast at Old Town, somewhere nearby Sam's house. And then, we returned back to the Sam's house by 10.30am. When I entered the house, my feeling turn to so great, because of the music that non-stop playing day & night at her house. It's really kind of enjoyful life. Then, Sam boil some water & then we had our lavender flower tea with the accompany of the music. So great~~~ We chat our blank out histories, about our friends, our schooling, our parents, our personal life, our love & etc....

Around 12pm, Sam's husband & a friend arrived, we introduce each others & have some light chat. Due to the hot weather, we decided to cook some light lunch at home after check up food in the fridge. Due to Sam's "chicken hand duck leg", at last I'm the one who help out on cutting & cooking for the lunch.

Luckily, the lunch is not too bad, because everyone can finished up all the portion. Hehehe~~ At the same time, Sam's husband pour me a little glass of liquor with my little lunch. Anyway, taste not bad though :)

Such an enjoyful lunch... After the lunch, we head back to the living room with the warm music & air-con. We continue chatting & also with some life experience sharing. Until time come to 4.00pm, we moved & get ready ourselves to One Utama shopping complex.

When we reached One U, we had a snack of "老友鬼鬼" first before go to buy some stuff for Sam's colleague. Then, only we move to the cinema for movie of "Shrek" at 6.15pm. The movie is funny eventhough I rarely watch cartoon in cinema :P

After the movie, we go for Nando's Chicken. It was crowded & we been waiting quite some times only able to get our meal. But, still ok as we were keep on chatting all the while ^^ (gals are always like that~) But, we do talk about our country also... haiz~~

At last, we reached Sam's house at 10.15pm & get our car to drive home.... It was a compact & relaxing day for me to meet up with old friend :) Really enjoy~

期望和失望

只想得到你的一问候

关心一下我的病情

原来，你已不在乎了

只是我一直在一厢情愿的以为

连想继续欺骗自己的话

都无法再继续下去了

Gastric

Long time didn't get gastric already.
Yesterday, I got a bad gastric again!
Due to the conference call from 8.30pm until 10pm
So, I had a very late dinner

Right after my dinner, immediately gastric comes :S
It's super pain until I have to take medicine...
After suffer for an hour, the gastric only slow down~

Haiz~~ so cham T_T

Total articles in my blog

Just aware that, from 2007 until today, I'd been updated about 150 articles in my blog.
I can say it's pretty less.

I know one of the reason is because I'd no idea what to write after I broke up with my love. I'm lost somewhere in the jungle. I don't know what should I or shouldn't. I just stop writing anything here.

The second reason is because I have nothing to talk about, even my job in HDS. May be I lost my passionate on job also. I can't find my direction on job.

Now, I guess... I back to myself. I wanted to continue writing in my way, live in my style, create my own path!

Happy Happy mood on my work

今天, 临放工前, 心情很好~~
因为老板给我的赞赏, 让我觉得他认同我的工作能力!

他对我说:
I'm every happy to work with you, because you can understand it fast & learn fast. I hope you can keep it like this & keep improve on it.

Hahhaaa.. I'm so happy after listen that.
That's means my hardwork & attitude on work, my boss appreciated on it.
This is what I want for my work & career~!
This make me feel keen & motivate to move on & work here~~

马来西亚的天气

你曾经说过，你会用马来西亚的天气来爱我
最近，马来西亚的天气改变了
那，你所说的天气也改变了吗？

我的懦弱，一直不敢对你说出对你的感觉
我的胆小，一直看着你在网上，却不敢开口和你说话

因为害怕被你的拒绝
因为害怕被你的冷落
所以，眼睁睁的看着你和别的女生在一起
也不敢问你是否真的

把对你的感觉，完全藏起来
把关心你的话，用无声的信息传给你
把祝福你的话，借着夜空传送给你
我想，你应该收不到
但是，我还是没有勇气

很想重新开始
回到刚开始的我们
回到你和我聊天的时候

Blurry day~

Today only Wednesday T_T
Since morning, I was keep on thinking that today is Thursday. Don't know why~~
Until I look at the Calender, only realized that today only Wednesday...

May be I'm too blur already :S

Early morning, receive an email from a friend.
Haiz~ I rather I never receive that...
Anyhow, I hope everything will working fine & smooth~~

Great start

Yeah hoo~~
Today is the first time I joined lunch with my colleagues, since after I joined this company for a week~!

We went to Wong Kok, Pavillion & had a long chat while waiting for our food :) Eventhough still not familiar with them, but still can click bit with them..

My personally feel that, it's great start~~ Ganbate for myself ^^

My update

Been a long time I never update my blog here. Seem like I been abandone it somewhere... Hahaha~~~

In fact, I'm not forget. I just keep it somewhere in my heart. Whenever think of it, will still bring it upfront to read. & now, I come back here again... With my story again~!

Nothing special, nothing new~!

Me still me!!! Skinny still skinny~
Long hair become short hair~ Black hair become brownies hair~
8 working hours time become more than 8 hours working time~
Work still do, games still play~!

Hahahaha... That's still M3!!!

New job started~

I started with this company for 5 days already. In this 5 days, almost everyday I work till late & even continue working or study when back home. Just because expectation from my manager is high. At the same time, I'm pushing myself to learn fast, so that I able to work independently.

Seem like I pushing myself too hard. Therefore, I had a bad headache today since afternoon till now...haiz~~

But, no choice... As my boss is giving too many things that want me to complete in certain time. In fact, I don't know how to do the things due to no one can guide me :( Therefore, I have to try my best to find out the information & outcome :S

Really tired oh~~

新工作的第二个任务

最近都没办法上msn，所以都只上书脸。
读着一些我看不明白的文件
要理出一堆看得懂的文件
真不知道该如何给它理出来
可是，却不想没有尝试就放弃
所以，硬硬逼自己读完那148页的外星文件
读了8个小时，竟然还读不完！
有点累~~
怎么办呢？

想念

什么是想念？
该如何想念？
没有了寄托，
还要想念吗？

心里总是少了什么的

空空的心

该怎么填满呢？

该填满什么在里头呢？

Sad Commercial

原地踏步

看着朋友们一个一个从单身结交了另一半
也看着他们步入另一个人生阶段
而我, 一直都还在原地踏步...
该给自己留下什么话语呢?
没有特意去找, 也没有特意去留意
出现在我面前的, 我却退缩不愿前进
家人的话语, 句句在耳边
只好对他们说, 缘分没来到...