Today, went to watch movie with a friend after work. Just would like to make myself busy & stop thinking of something or somebody.
The movie is No Strings Attached. It's a romance comedy.
Don't want to explain more about the movie, just go to buy the ticket & sit in. You will enjoy, may be :)
Know what, I saw partial of my shadow in her? My tear was drop silently at certain part. For others, it just normal only. But for me, it means something to me.
I was changed to be soft & weak! This is not real me. But, how could I find back my real me? It was missing for few years already... Hate current me!
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Friday, February 25, 2011
I saw it
Today, saw him lunch with the gal. The gal that my colleagues was told they are always together one. Only both of them... He saw me too...
Haha~Even though I was been told earlier & I have get ready on all this.
But, it still influence my mood bit...
When he back to office, he IM me.
I don't know what I should response to him.
I didn't see him hold hand or anything, I can't judge them as couple.
But, in deep of my heart, I know I'm letting go~!
Then, he start to find topics to chat with me.
He said, I also out for lunch one. Then next time can invite me go lunch.
That sound funny, right?
Yes, I personally feel it's funny.
Well... I said you already got accompany, I prefer tapao.
I only go lunch with booking in advance & only with certain people.
For him, need to see how first.
Am I bad with the answer? Yes, may be.
After that, I didn't chat with him at all.
One of the reason is I don't know what to chat & response. Secondly is I'm busy in work (even though I still chat with few friends at the same time)
I saw him having meeting at my floor, I didn't stop & look at him at all.
I walked fast & pass by the room that he was in (just for submit my work to other department). I try to pretend I didn't see him at all.
But, he come to look for me after that. What he want from me? What should I do?
When he come to my desk, I was on the phone & I pretend I'm superb busy, don't have time to talk to him at all. Coincident that, Max was in today & he ask me about him again. He said: You really like/love him?
What a funny question, right? Yeah, my answer is NO!
Then I head home~
Haha~Even though I was been told earlier & I have get ready on all this.
But, it still influence my mood bit...
When he back to office, he IM me.
I don't know what I should response to him.
I didn't see him hold hand or anything, I can't judge them as couple.
But, in deep of my heart, I know I'm letting go~!
Then, he start to find topics to chat with me.
He said, I also out for lunch one. Then next time can invite me go lunch.
That sound funny, right?
Yes, I personally feel it's funny.
Well... I said you already got accompany, I prefer tapao.
I only go lunch with booking in advance & only with certain people.
For him, need to see how first.
Am I bad with the answer? Yes, may be.
After that, I didn't chat with him at all.
One of the reason is I don't know what to chat & response. Secondly is I'm busy in work (even though I still chat with few friends at the same time)
I saw him having meeting at my floor, I didn't stop & look at him at all.
I walked fast & pass by the room that he was in (just for submit my work to other department). I try to pretend I didn't see him at all.
But, he come to look for me after that. What he want from me? What should I do?
When he come to my desk, I was on the phone & I pretend I'm superb busy, don't have time to talk to him at all. Coincident that, Max was in today & he ask me about him again. He said: You really like/love him?
What a funny question, right? Yeah, my answer is NO!
Then I head home~
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Sunday, February 20, 2011
选择
当大家都告诉我要小心这个人的时候
我的心确实害怕地退缩了。
但,在某个微小的角落，却传来一个声音：
或许他改变了呢？
或许他真的想定下来呢？
这些微小的声音，让我无法分析，到底该相信谁。。。
我希望他改变了，变得不是他们所说的那种人。
我希望他真的想安定下来~
但是，却不敢抱任何的希望~
是否应该选择一个喜欢我的人，好过选一个我喜欢的人呢？
付出多的一方，通常是被伤害得最多的那个，对吗？
我的心确实害怕地退缩了。
但,在某个微小的角落，却传来一个声音：
或许他改变了呢？
或许他真的想定下来呢？
这些微小的声音，让我无法分析，到底该相信谁。。。
我希望他改变了，变得不是他们所说的那种人。
我希望他真的想安定下来~
但是，却不敢抱任何的希望~
是否应该选择一个喜欢我的人，好过选一个我喜欢的人呢？
付出多的一方，通常是被伤害得最多的那个，对吗？
Friday, February 18, 2011
Chap Goh Mei of 2011
Yesterday, was a fun Chap Goh Mei for me :)
Puah reached my home & get me around 7.30pm, but we stuck the jam for 1.5 hours only reached the destination. Once we got the parking, we went for our Korean Dinner at Amcorp Mall with his friends who already finished their dinner there.
We were struggle of hunger since 7pm, therefore we make a quite order & chit chat while wait for food. Of course is to introduce myself & Puah's friends lo. They all are pretty gals oh ^^
Funny joke is Puah was super hungry & over took my food :( All the waiters there curious & looking at him, also come to him & reconfirm with him what he ordered. After all only he notice that, he'd ate my food :S funny~~
When I almost finished my food, my another friend - Chee reached. After the quick dinner, we walked to the lake & see people throw mandarin orange & catch the mandarin orange :P Hahaha... It's my first time see this. Really happening, many people there & really got net one lo lol~~!
We didn't throw/catch mandarin orange, due to too crowded. Therefore, we went to an empty space & play "kong ming deng". From the last time I played "kong ming deng" till now, was about 10 years ago already. So happy that I have the chance to play again. Besides that, we also played fireworks & 烟花... Really fun~
Really like a kid for the night.... hehe... I played till 12am only reach home ;P
Puah reached my home & get me around 7.30pm, but we stuck the jam for 1.5 hours only reached the destination. Once we got the parking, we went for our Korean Dinner at Amcorp Mall with his friends who already finished their dinner there.
We were struggle of hunger since 7pm, therefore we make a quite order & chit chat while wait for food. Of course is to introduce myself & Puah's friends lo. They all are pretty gals oh ^^
Funny joke is Puah was super hungry & over took my food :( All the waiters there curious & looking at him, also come to him & reconfirm with him what he ordered. After all only he notice that, he'd ate my food :S funny~~
When I almost finished my food, my another friend - Chee reached. After the quick dinner, we walked to the lake & see people throw mandarin orange & catch the mandarin orange :P Hahaha... It's my first time see this. Really happening, many people there & really got net one lo lol~~!
We didn't throw/catch mandarin orange, due to too crowded. Therefore, we went to an empty space & play "kong ming deng". From the last time I played "kong ming deng" till now, was about 10 years ago already. So happy that I have the chance to play again. Besides that, we also played fireworks & 烟花... Really fun~
Really like a kid for the night.... hehe... I played till 12am only reach home ;P
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Chap Goh Mei 元宵节
Today, is Chap Goh Mei 元宵节~ In order word, it also Chinese Valentine's day.
As usual, I'm alone for the past 28 years. This year, I gonna to have something difference. I accepted friend's invitation to "Rock Out"
We will go to dinner somewhere nearby the place people will throw mandarin orange. It's my first time to see it, as never join before. Normally just heard it, but in fact don't know how it look like one :P
My friend said, he will bring fireworks & kong ming deng along. So, I can play around on it..
Hahahaa.... Let's rock the night & forget those not necessary things!!!
Counting down for tonight ") Happy Chap Goh Mei to you ^^
** Also congratulate to a buddy who giving birth today... Welcome the baby :)
Update you if something fun happen :P
As usual, I'm alone for the past 28 years. This year, I gonna to have something difference. I accepted friend's invitation to "Rock Out"
We will go to dinner somewhere nearby the place people will throw mandarin orange. It's my first time to see it, as never join before. Normally just heard it, but in fact don't know how it look like one :P
My friend said, he will bring fireworks & kong ming deng along. So, I can play around on it..
Hahahaa.... Let's rock the night & forget those not necessary things!!!
Counting down for tonight ") Happy Chap Goh Mei to you ^^
** Also congratulate to a buddy who giving birth today... Welcome the baby :)
Update you if something fun happen :P
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Keep distance
Today, a colleague of mine asked me about him.
He told me, don't get trap by this guy.
He is a 花花公子. He with a gal in the office now.
Haha... Seem like I really need to be aware on this.
He might not be my right one again..
I have to pull back all my feeling, even I'd drop into it...
Luckily someone asked me be aware at this moment.
I really need to keep some distance from him...
Just myself been fool by people, not caused by others~
Painful but luckily we still colleague~ hahahah.....
He told me, don't get trap by this guy.
He is a 花花公子. He with a gal in the office now.
Haha... Seem like I really need to be aware on this.
He might not be my right one again..
I have to pull back all my feeling, even I'd drop into it...
Luckily someone asked me be aware at this moment.
I really need to keep some distance from him...
Just myself been fool by people, not caused by others~
Painful but luckily we still colleague~ hahahah.....
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
牵动
我想，我是真的喜欢上你了。
我的情绪，都被你牵动着。。
我希望看到你，希望你给我信息，或者给我通电话。
但是，却每每只在痴痴的等。。
我不知道你是否在同一时间也在等某个人。
或许我不是你要的人
可是在这个时候，我却陷下去了。
有个朋友对我说
男生一旦决定，他们会非常主动的。
如果他们不肯定，或者对某个女生也有意，他们就会犹豫不决。
如果他们不肯定，那么就不要太在意，因为如果对方是你的，他自然会走向你的。
如果他不是你的，你怎么爱他，他还是属于别人的~！
所以我朋友对我说，我应该打开窗，不要只为一个人关闭。
尝试认识多些朋友，那么就会知道这个人是否真的适合我。。
其实，这些道理我都知道。。。
只是要管住想念他的心，是有点难~
我知道在我的心里，会留住一个位子给他。
同时，我也会努力将窗打开
因为，我真的不喜欢等待的感觉。
（昨天等了他一天，他一封信息，一通电话都没有，有点难过。。。）
我希望他感觉到我对他的心。。。
我的情绪，都被你牵动着。。
我希望看到你，希望你给我信息，或者给我通电话。
但是，却每每只在痴痴的等。。
我不知道你是否在同一时间也在等某个人。
或许我不是你要的人
可是在这个时候，我却陷下去了。
有个朋友对我说
男生一旦决定，他们会非常主动的。
如果他们不肯定，或者对某个女生也有意，他们就会犹豫不决。
如果他们不肯定，那么就不要太在意，因为如果对方是你的，他自然会走向你的。
如果他不是你的，你怎么爱他，他还是属于别人的~！
所以我朋友对我说，我应该打开窗，不要只为一个人关闭。
尝试认识多些朋友，那么就会知道这个人是否真的适合我。。
其实，这些道理我都知道。。。
只是要管住想念他的心，是有点难~
我知道在我的心里，会留住一个位子给他。
同时，我也会努力将窗打开
因为，我真的不喜欢等待的感觉。
（昨天等了他一天，他一封信息，一通电话都没有，有点难过。。。）
我希望他感觉到我对他的心。。。
Monday, February 14, 2011
Rock to Genting~
Since he didn't call me or date me, so I went out with friends.
Initially was told going to happy hour with a bunch of friends one.
But, due to no one reply us, therefore....
Our last plan is go out ourselves (only two of us).
Don't misunderstand, he just friend - Puah.
Actually just only get close recently.
At first he said wait for others reply.
But until now still nobody reply us, therefore he propose go Genting drink starbuck..
Since I don't wish to stay home, I decided GO with him.
Let's rock the night for 2 single persons~!!
Initially was told going to happy hour with a bunch of friends one.
But, due to no one reply us, therefore....
Our last plan is go out ourselves (only two of us).
Don't misunderstand, he just friend - Puah.
Actually just only get close recently.
At first he said wait for others reply.
But until now still nobody reply us, therefore he propose go Genting drink starbuck..
Since I don't wish to stay home, I decided GO with him.
Let's rock the night for 2 single persons~!!
something~
Today, is valentine day.
Something which I should not think of, was appear in my mind while I drive to office today.
It suddenly become fresh & clear in my mind!
I don't like my mood been affected!
But, it really appear in my mind again & again!!!!
I have to be happy happy..
Today purposely dress up nice to show I'm happy.
Then, I should not think about him anymore!
------------------------------------------------------------------------
Another one~!
Since moody today, therefore don't really take initiative to chat with him.
Unless he come & chat with me.
Who knows, he really don't write anything to me, just only ask me why I don't IM in the morning.
After I on IM, he said few words, then nothing already.
Really kek sim....
Normally I will write something if see he long time no reply.
Today, I really don't.
I think he feel weird or beh tahan already & send me: how's ur weekend? :S
Something which I should not think of, was appear in my mind while I drive to office today.
It suddenly become fresh & clear in my mind!
I don't like my mood been affected!
But, it really appear in my mind again & again!!!!
I have to be happy happy..
Today purposely dress up nice to show I'm happy.
Then, I should not think about him anymore!
------------------------------------------------------------------------
Another one~!
Since moody today, therefore don't really take initiative to chat with him.
Unless he come & chat with me.
Who knows, he really don't write anything to me, just only ask me why I don't IM in the morning.
After I on IM, he said few words, then nothing already.
Really kek sim....
Normally I will write something if see he long time no reply.
Today, I really don't.
I think he feel weird or beh tahan already & send me: how's ur weekend? :S
Happy Valentine's Day
Happy Valentine's day to you, dear.Wish you have a wonder day ahead & happy always~
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Sorry to you
Today, a friend confront to me in facebook message.
Very straight forward, very clear 表白.
At the same time, I rejected him as well.
He is a good guy, but unfortunately I don't have feel.
I knew he like me since few months ago. Be frank, I tried to know him more & see whether we can click or not. We did went out date for few times, eg: dinner, movie, etc.
We chat while dinner or way he send me home. But, I feel hard to find topic to chat with. I feel bored on topic we chat too. I feel stress while out with him. At the same times, he is studying master course at Shang Hai now. I don't think I can accept any long distance relationship at the moment.
Besides that, I have good feeling on another guy. Of course, I didn't tell him to hurt him more.
Since he asked me today, so I be frank to him that, I just wish to be friend with him. This only things that I can do for him. Hopefully he can accept this. If he can't be friend with me again, I feel sad, but also I know it's good for him too.
Sorry to hurt you if I did. I wish you happy forever & happy study~
Very straight forward, very clear 表白.
At the same time, I rejected him as well.
He is a good guy, but unfortunately I don't have feel.
I knew he like me since few months ago. Be frank, I tried to know him more & see whether we can click or not. We did went out date for few times, eg: dinner, movie, etc.
We chat while dinner or way he send me home. But, I feel hard to find topic to chat with. I feel bored on topic we chat too. I feel stress while out with him. At the same times, he is studying master course at Shang Hai now. I don't think I can accept any long distance relationship at the moment.
Besides that, I have good feeling on another guy. Of course, I didn't tell him to hurt him more.
Since he asked me today, so I be frank to him that, I just wish to be friend with him. This only things that I can do for him. Hopefully he can accept this. If he can't be friend with me again, I feel sad, but also I know it's good for him too.
Sorry to hurt you if I did. I wish you happy forever & happy study~
Baking passionate
Just aware that, almost 2 years I didn't bake cakes already.
In the past 2 years, whenever I free, I will think of bake cakes or make some food for myself or family or even for colleagues or boyfriend. Since after I broke up, I didn't touch on it at all, except the moon cake during mid-autumn festival.
Today, looking back on all my photo albums, only realize I lost my interest! Where it go to?
Recall that he lost his interest in photography for 2 years as well. He told yesterday, it's hard for him to take back the camera & shooting again. At first, I don't understand why & I replied him that, to pick up the skill is not hard, only to recover from the hurt is taking time. Until this morning, I think I understand why he said so already. It's not recover from hurt or not, it's how to bring back the passionate on it.
It just exactly same as me. When I gonna pick up my baking skill, buy ingredients & start baking cakes again? My baking recipes still waiting me at my bookshelf, when I gonna take it out & start all over again? As for today, I don't know how to answer you, because I really don't know when it gonna be happen again.
The similarity make me understand you more a bit, but also make our distance stay far a bit. Just because both of us are scare of getting hurt again~
In the past 2 years, whenever I free, I will think of bake cakes or make some food for myself or family or even for colleagues or boyfriend. Since after I broke up, I didn't touch on it at all, except the moon cake during mid-autumn festival.
Today, looking back on all my photo albums, only realize I lost my interest! Where it go to?
Recall that he lost his interest in photography for 2 years as well. He told yesterday, it's hard for him to take back the camera & shooting again. At first, I don't understand why & I replied him that, to pick up the skill is not hard, only to recover from the hurt is taking time. Until this morning, I think I understand why he said so already. It's not recover from hurt or not, it's how to bring back the passionate on it.
It just exactly same as me. When I gonna pick up my baking skill, buy ingredients & start baking cakes again? My baking recipes still waiting me at my bookshelf, when I gonna take it out & start all over again? As for today, I don't know how to answer you, because I really don't know when it gonna be happen again.
The similarity make me understand you more a bit, but also make our distance stay far a bit. Just because both of us are scare of getting hurt again~
因为爱情
因为爱情 不会轻易的悲伤
所以一切都是幸福的模样
因为爱情 简单的生长
依然随时可以为你疯狂
因为爱情 怎么会有沧桑
所以我们还是年轻的模样
要走到有两人自己的爱情
需要多少的时间和煎熬？
有多少的人可以坚持到老？
有多少的人可以携手并肩一世？
Friday, February 11, 2011
Share Market
Today's mood really like share market, up & down from the morning till now.
Or may be can said it like the weather, can change in fast pace~!
This morning, I was happy because of the boss told me that, my proposal been accepted by the customer. I'd did the proposal for months & I been spent lot of effort on it. Of course, I was happy when I heard the news.
& the boss told, I can follow him to customer office for the final price negotiation stage & sign contract. That's the things that I wish to see since I join till now. So, I was super super excited about it.
After an hour, I got a bad headache attack. Don't know the reason, it been attacking me since yesterday till today. At last, I can't stand on the pain & dizziness, I took a panadol from him. Thought will have chance to talk to him a bit, who knows no even a word :( mood getting down some more~
Finally managed to get colleague accompany me for light lunch due to not much appetite... Therefore, we just had bread & some chat. Talking about the work, we both really disappointed on what been discussed with the top management. But what can we do then? Remain the same? Yeah~ until we got better offer...
Get back to office, he don't bother me due to lot of meeting & I also busy with some discussion with colleague. After the discussion, I only chatting with friends in MSN... because I got nothing to do & another news been told that... My proposal can't be send out to customer & we need to inform customer to pull back the offer.
The reason we have to pull back our offer is the top management gonna to terminate this team & the product been obsolete... If the product is obsolete, why don't announce to the whole company? Why need to wait until now, we already submit the proposal only told all this things?
I'm really upset on this top management thingy!!!
Or may be can said it like the weather, can change in fast pace~!
This morning, I was happy because of the boss told me that, my proposal been accepted by the customer. I'd did the proposal for months & I been spent lot of effort on it. Of course, I was happy when I heard the news.
& the boss told, I can follow him to customer office for the final price negotiation stage & sign contract. That's the things that I wish to see since I join till now. So, I was super super excited about it.
After an hour, I got a bad headache attack. Don't know the reason, it been attacking me since yesterday till today. At last, I can't stand on the pain & dizziness, I took a panadol from him. Thought will have chance to talk to him a bit, who knows no even a word :( mood getting down some more~
Finally managed to get colleague accompany me for light lunch due to not much appetite... Therefore, we just had bread & some chat. Talking about the work, we both really disappointed on what been discussed with the top management. But what can we do then? Remain the same? Yeah~ until we got better offer...
Get back to office, he don't bother me due to lot of meeting & I also busy with some discussion with colleague. After the discussion, I only chatting with friends in MSN... because I got nothing to do & another news been told that... My proposal can't be send out to customer & we need to inform customer to pull back the offer.
The reason we have to pull back our offer is the top management gonna to terminate this team & the product been obsolete... If the product is obsolete, why don't announce to the whole company? Why need to wait until now, we already submit the proposal only told all this things?
I'm really upset on this top management thingy!!!
Few days before Valentine 2011
Few more days is valentine already.
Well, from my deep heart, I wish he will date me.
But I guess, he wouldn't.
Due to I don't want to have lonely lunch on that day, therefore I date one of my colleague (gal) for lunch on that day.
Just because I don't want be disappointed if he don't date me at last.
So, even he want date me also can't now, unless dinner... (but dreaming too :S)
Me terrible hor?
Yeah, I guess so...
Actually my friends date me for dinner on that night.
But, I still haven't promise them yet, due to I wish to wait for him.
Even though I know 70% that he will not.... I still praying on it..
Haiz....
Well, from my deep heart, I wish he will date me.
But I guess, he wouldn't.
Due to I don't want to have lonely lunch on that day, therefore I date one of my colleague (gal) for lunch on that day.
Just because I don't want be disappointed if he don't date me at last.
So, even he want date me also can't now, unless dinner... (but dreaming too :S)
Me terrible hor?
Yeah, I guess so...
Actually my friends date me for dinner on that night.
But, I still haven't promise them yet, due to I wish to wait for him.
Even though I know 70% that he will not.... I still praying on it..
Haiz....
Thursday, February 10, 2011
如果
如果你不是要和她长相思守的话，那请你不要给她希望。
如果你不能给她承诺的话，那请你不要给她假象。
如果你做不到，就不要对她说你愿意等她。
如果你不是真的爱她的话，请你不要对她说你会用马来西亚的天气爱她。
她只是一个普通的女人。
她只是一个外表坚强，内心脆弱的女人。
她总是嬉皮笑脸的面对每个人，不代表她永远是没烦恼的。
她不曾在别人面前哭，并不代表她是冷血无情的。
每当她认定你后，不管如何，她都会相信你。
如果你说你愿意等，即使她叫你不要等，她还是会静悄悄留个位子给你。
即使她不说，她还是心里说了多次的想你。。。
只因为她尊贵的自尊，她放弃了一次又一次的机会。。。
她的害怕，令她一再的怯步。
也因为如此，原本说等她的人都先转身离去了。。。
did you?
Said you don't bother me, But not
If you don't bother me, you wouldn't IM me every morning
If you don't bother me, you wouldn't sms me if I don't sms you
If you don't bother me, you wouldn't concern how am I
Said you care of me, Not also
If you care me, you wouldn't ignore my sms sometimes
If you care me, you wouldn't ask me look for boyfriend
If you care me, you wouldn't laugh at me when I complaining something
I don't know what you are thinking
I don't want to guess
Just because I'm tiring of guessing
And end up, I'm wrong in guessing
If you don't bother me, you wouldn't IM me every morning
If you don't bother me, you wouldn't sms me if I don't sms you
If you don't bother me, you wouldn't concern how am I
Said you care of me, Not also
If you care me, you wouldn't ignore my sms sometimes
If you care me, you wouldn't ask me look for boyfriend
If you care me, you wouldn't laugh at me when I complaining something
I don't know what you are thinking
I don't want to guess
Just because I'm tiring of guessing
And end up, I'm wrong in guessing
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Happy Birthday
Today's mood extremely excited & happy~!!!I don't know what's the reason, I just know I'm happy & I should happy...
One of the reason is today is OUR BIRTHDAY!!! 7th day of CNY~!!!
And we had a great lunch at Pizza Hut with my department colleagues which I rarely join.
We had a great chat at Pizza Hut...
Ok, today I want to be happy happy... hehe~~!
I don't want to think other unhappy things for today!
Yeah hoo~!!!
Wanted to sing songs! Wanted to dance!!!
Happy happy day~!!!
Suddenly he told I look pretty today...
Don't aware that we were passing by each other while crossing the road
haha... so funny :p
& mood getting more colourful~
Happy birthday to you & me!!!
Monday, February 7, 2011
15 years friendship
Actually I'm really down & moody these few days, especially today.
Today, best buddy called up to gather at Mid Valley & go for movie.
At first, I don't wish to go one.
After thought, not always got chance to meet them, therefore I decided to join them.
Once reach there, just had some chat...
In the conversation, my mood turn down & down.
I know for some people, they might think that's just small matter la.
But for me, i take into heart.
We knew each others at least 15 years already. In these 15 years, you tell me that you don't know my full name? In these 15 years, you tell me you don't know where is my hometown? In these 15 years, you don't know my birthday? In these 15 years, you don't know my personality?
You know how hurt am I? You know how sad am I?
I put you all deep in my heart, but what you all did?
Meaning I always be the spare tyre among you all... If the person you want to look for not around or not free, then only you come to me?
Whenever you all need help, if possible, I sure will show up & help. Can you all spend a little bit time for me? Why when I need someone listen to me also hard?
15 years friendship... really so fragile? Or in these 15 years, only myself 自作多情的付出?
My heart so painful~!
Today, best buddy called up to gather at Mid Valley & go for movie.
At first, I don't wish to go one.
After thought, not always got chance to meet them, therefore I decided to join them.
Once reach there, just had some chat...
In the conversation, my mood turn down & down.
I know for some people, they might think that's just small matter la.
But for me, i take into heart.
We knew each others at least 15 years already. In these 15 years, you tell me that you don't know my full name? In these 15 years, you tell me you don't know where is my hometown? In these 15 years, you don't know my birthday? In these 15 years, you don't know my personality?
You know how hurt am I? You know how sad am I?
I put you all deep in my heart, but what you all did?
Meaning I always be the spare tyre among you all... If the person you want to look for not around or not free, then only you come to me?
Whenever you all need help, if possible, I sure will show up & help. Can you all spend a little bit time for me? Why when I need someone listen to me also hard?
15 years friendship... really so fragile? Or in these 15 years, only myself 自作多情的付出?
My heart so painful~!
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Slip away
I love this song very much, very nice, very touch~
If I could I would change my yesterday
I would listen to my heart
And then today I'd see what true love could be
And I wouldn't let tomorrow slip away
I'm thinking, am I brave enough to do so?
I'm listening to my heart that I like him
But, I don't dare to make any changes for yesterday, today or even tomorrow.
I wish I can hold my happiness and don't let it slip away.
But... what can I do?
*** I miss you ***
If I could I would change my yesterday
I would listen to my heart
And then today I'd see what true love could be
And I wouldn't let tomorrow slip away
I'm thinking, am I brave enough to do so?
I'm listening to my heart that I like him
But, I don't dare to make any changes for yesterday, today or even tomorrow.
I wish I can hold my happiness and don't let it slip away.
But... what can I do?
*** I miss you ***
Friday, February 4, 2011
You
How am I gonna to know what you think about me?
How am I gonna to know what is my impression in your heart?
How am I gonna to know did you like me or not?
There are so many questions surrounded my brain.
I don't know what I should or shouldn't do...
Should I continue? Or give up?
Should I ask? Or ignore?
Should I pretend nothing? Or ...??
I scare to get hurt, but the feeling on you is real~
What can I do???
How am I gonna to know what is my impression in your heart?
How am I gonna to know did you like me or not?
There are so many questions surrounded my brain.
I don't know what I should or shouldn't do...
Should I continue? Or give up?
Should I ask? Or ignore?
Should I pretend nothing? Or ...??
I scare to get hurt, but the feeling on you is real~
What can I do???
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Happy Rabbit Year
Chinese New Year again...
Telling me that, I'm older again...
Since young, I don't really enjoy CNY, until now I still the same.
I don't even feel any CNY mood... May be just enjoy the holiday only.
As usual, CNY eve sure will have family reunion dinner.
In the past few years, my uncle's family will come over to have the reunion dinner together.
This year, they don't come, therefore only my family & except one of my brother.
First day of CNY, we will have lunch at home.
After lunch, we will go to Kepong, one of the relative's house.
All my dad's side relatives will gather there, chit chatting, eating, playing, etc....
Second day of CNY, we will also have lunch at home.
After lunch, we will go to Subang, another relative's house.
All my mom's side relatives will gather there to kepoh, play mahjong, etc...
This year, might also go to find my pity brother, since he is working at Sunway.
Normally, the 3rd day onwards, I will start work or stay home to grow mushroom if there is still public holiday like this year.
I don't know will it be any changes for this year or not. I hope it will.
Anyway, still wishes my family & all my friends have a happy & prosperous Rabbit Year...
Gong Xi Fa Cai~!
Telling me that, I'm older again...
Since young, I don't really enjoy CNY, until now I still the same.
I don't even feel any CNY mood... May be just enjoy the holiday only.
As usual, CNY eve sure will have family reunion dinner.
In the past few years, my uncle's family will come over to have the reunion dinner together.
This year, they don't come, therefore only my family & except one of my brother.
First day of CNY, we will have lunch at home.
After lunch, we will go to Kepong, one of the relative's house.
All my dad's side relatives will gather there, chit chatting, eating, playing, etc....
Second day of CNY, we will also have lunch at home.
After lunch, we will go to Subang, another relative's house.
All my mom's side relatives will gather there to kepoh, play mahjong, etc...
This year, might also go to find my pity brother, since he is working at Sunway.
Normally, the 3rd day onwards, I will start work or stay home to grow mushroom if there is still public holiday like this year.
I don't know will it be any changes for this year or not. I hope it will.
Anyway, still wishes my family & all my friends have a happy & prosperous Rabbit Year...
Gong Xi Fa Cai~!
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